My One and Only (32-B)

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Feras.....



"ee ....." i said as i closed the door behind me. She backed away from me, and pointed her finger at me,



"e6la3 barra...!!" she said panickly.



I approached her cautiously, "Jana....digeega..."



"E6LA3 !!!! GET OUT !!!WHAT PART OF IT DONT YOU GET ?!" she replied inraged with me.



"Jana mala da3e ela39ab...bs sim...." i couldnt continue, her face turned red and she interrupted me,



"mala da3e ela39ab ?!? Feras enta dash el7ammam weyay !!!! Ooo anyone can stumble across us el7een !!!! "



"Adry bs...."



"dam enik tadry 3ayal e6la3 barra....!!! " she replied furiously.



"Bs i cant leave unless i know laish wafa8tay 3la 6alal.........." i said in a surprisingly calm voice.



She glared at me, " why do you care....?"



"Ofcoarse i care!!!" i said and stood infront of her, " kil elle 9ar baina oo etgooleenly ehta i care ?!"



She just maintained an expressionless face and kept breathing hard from anger. I looked at her confused, "what dont you believe me..?"



"Your words and your actions are not in agreement. Besides, i learned not to trust a word that comes out of your mouth."



Fury sparked within me. "what the hell does that mean ?"



"you know very well.....latesta3bi6 weyay..."



I grabbed her by her shoulders and forced her back to the wall. " i wasn't the one who lied," i said in a low voice.



She just glared at me. "get out of my way."



"Oh...i dont think so."



"Feras! etha a7ad chafna....."



"Ma7ad ra7 echoofna...." i replied in a dry tone.



She started to shrug herself away but i had her held securely with my arms. After several attempts of struggling she gave up and she got so angry that she started shaking.



"Feras hathe a5er mara agoolik feha wa5ir....."



"A5er marra....? zain balashtai etmeleen...."



"WALLAH a9ari5..!"



"oo etlemeen kel elawadem 3ndina.....i guess not!"



Tears started to well up in her eyes, and her body grew limp in my arms.



"Feras....please....." she pleaded.



I looked at her and i dont know why but i just wanted to crush her to me and drink all her tears away......but i cant do that, not after what she did.



"Lulu latabcheen....." i said in a concerned voice. She just kept crying, i hesitantly raised my arm and brushed a tear from her face, hating myself for growing weak when she cries. "Lulu.....bas.....please......"



She looked into my eyes and looked at them with intent. My heart started to pound loudly in my chest.



"why wont you just leave me alone..." she whispered.



"i want to sadgeeny i do, bs i cant lene a7ibich lulu A7IBICH!!!"



The sadness in her eyes seemed to change into something else......something like anger. "you discust me!" she said and shrugged herself away.



I stood with my back to her, "SHENO.....?!"



"etchoofne ib 3aine oo etchatheb........sheno enta mat7iss ...matisti7y..."



I turned and looked at her, "Achathib...?!? Laish sheno gelt '3ala6........kel elle gelta inne i love you and you know thats true..."



"no i dont.."



"I wouldnt be here if i didnt love you, not after elle sawaitee....oo e5tartay 6alal"



"latda5il 6alal belmaw'6oo3..."



"oo mn meta etdaf3een 3an 6alal......moo hatha elle kentay tabcheen oo etgooleen ma2abee....feraas shasawy..."



"that was before......oo atleast 6alal is honest"



"oo laish i'm not !?!"



"Obviously....dont act like you dont know what im talking about..!"



"oo entay sheno youre a saint oo ana madry.....you lied to me, you told me enich ebterfe'6een 6alal oo faj2a atfaja2 bl diwaniya edish 6alal oo egool ena 5a6ib......el7een mno elle honest lulu...you or me.."



"mara7 a'6ayi3 wagte ba6la3...." she said and stepped away.





"what happened to you.......shelle '3ayarich ?! " i said because i had to say it, i was so inshock with her it's like she's a completely different person.



She stopped near the door and i just stared at her back and she said in a choked voice, "i dont want you anymore."



"You know inna you love me....."



She remained silent, i walked over to her, and stood between her and the door. "Deny it...," i whispered. "i dare you."



She said nothing.



"You cant, can you ?" i put my arms around her, resting my chin on the top of her head. It was an embrace we shared numerous times, but never had it felt so bittersweet. I had no idea why i was holding her. I only knew that i couldnt not do it.



"why are you doing this?" she whispered."why?"



"i dont know." Oo wallah it was the truth. I was angry with her for chosing 6alal over me, for lying to me, but holding her felt just right. No one could ever fit so perfectly in my arms....no one!

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Lulu...........







i savored every part of him. His smell, his arms wrapped around me, my head on his firm chest, his chin on my face. I didnt want to let go...........! I love him ...YES....and i cant deny it. I just wanted to burst out and tell him that i dont love him but i just couldnt. His eyes were filled with love and honesty and i just couldnt understand why he did what he did. If he truly loved me, then why did he keep a girlfriend...why?!?



I pulled myself away, "i cant do this....." i didnt want to look at his eyes, in fear that i would lose myself.



"Why.....am i that repulsive to you...!? Am i not good enough to have you???"



It took all my strength to say a two lettered word, "no" i said and squeezed my eyes shut.



I love him and i want to spend the rest of my life with him but i cant do that with a man who lies right infront of my face to me, and keeps other girls around. I wont live a life where i will constantly worry where he's at, with who, whats he doing............

I said "no" disregarding all the love i've come to carry for him, and although it will hurt and will take a long time to heal...i'll manage....i'll manage.



i tried to ignore his burning gaze on me by looking at the ground.



"5ala9 3ayal," he said in a clipped tone of one who is trying very hard not to show emotion. "ra7 ehedich oo i'll never bother you again."



I swallowed convulsively.



"Yamshy ma3ach hal7ache mo chethe.....lena 5ala9 i'm done."



"E-enta betroo7....5ala9?" i asked, my voice very small.



"mo hatha elle tabeena," he bit out, "mo9a7 !" he looked dangerous and headed to the door.



Hatha elle enta tabee !!!!



I didnt feel the rage set in. I t descended on me like fury and before i realized what was happening, i was screaming. "GO THEN! Go! Roo7 oo jabel your GIRLFRIEND!!! Roo7 7ag 7abeebat el galb...... ROO7 !!!"



Feras went utterly still , "WHAT...?!?"





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to my amazing readers.....



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