In My Closet

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2010-04-29T22:46:00.000+03:00

ba5alli9 mulish ....y3ne shlon balla.....ma9arat :@ hehehehhee.....i want to bs walla ma3ndy wagt.....blsummer maybe ? madryy....i'll see...;p

klshay 9aar hectic ever since my hubby yannn oo decided to marry the girl he saw 9idfa in... i wont say where ;p i mean yksr 5a6reee sa3aaat....lena 7adi maynona :) bsss i just love the look that he gives me ...the "ana-shlon-tzawajtch-again? " look..;p;p with a grin.....

anyhooowwwww.....

i'll see wut i will do....bsss i cant promise u anything ;p

P.S. did i mention that my mother-in-law is bipolar :)))))))))))) a55555....yes

drum rolls

2010-02-14T23:39:00.003+03:00

Heyyyyyy u guys :*******

ambaaaai ambaaai 7adi im sorry adry walla i didnt post mnziman...!!!

Basssss......

bassssssssssssssss.........

i have a good reason why.....ur gona be shocked !!!

im shocked ....hehehehehhe

ur kaboooot my luvies is..........MARRIED !!

Yes....u heard right.....marrried......mtzawja......

it happened bsr3a bsr3a ......bsss omg im soo happy ooo alllaa ywafg ilkil !!!

a9lan i still cant astaw3b ena im actually married .... :$

anyhow im not gona promise u any posts any time soon bs walla 8adraw i mean i have a husband and my drasa to look after ..... and my husband needs my constant attention hes such a baby hehehehe.....

p.s. happy valentines day....;****

luv u :****

gudnight :***

huffff.....

2009-11-10T20:13:00.004+03:00

I WANT Pancakes !!!!!!!

with maple syrup...chocolate sauce....whatever......

i just need it in my system like right....NOW !

i was planning on eating faak'ha for dinner....bsss ohhhh wellll screw it....who am i kidding.....

fruits ? dinner ? me...? hah !

bsss im on a diet......gololee makil....!!!

(((i overslept and was late to my midterm....oo ham masawait wayd zain....plus 7asait ro7e jaikara elyoum.....)))

do i deserve pancakes wala la2 0:)

i do ? @@

yaaaaaaay.....5al aroo7 asweele then ;D taboon ? laaa chinna mataboon a7sanlokom tnamon 5faaf ;p (they're all for me....for meeeeeee muwahahahhaahhahahaha ;p)

Confessions

2009-11-07T22:45:00.006+03:00

I have confessions to make.....

i ....kaboot have been lazzzyyyyy.....ana already lazy faaaa youm a9eeeer actually "lazy" y3ne abaaaai nihayat il3alam....

i ....kaboot have been craving food like crazy....bssss abla3 ;/ mabeee my weight ygarib 3nd il60 kilos ! abeee blsafe side y3ne mid 5o's...el7een ok....bsss 3ala ilbal3a elle ga3da akilhaa amoooott etha 9i3ad......huffffffff....why wont it just stop 3ala mokana oo akilllll kil elle abeee @@ whyyyy whyyyyyyyy

i....kaboot need to cut my hair bsss mt3ayza ;p hehehhehe typical

i....kaboot na6ra il3eed 3ala naaaaaaar lena ra7 asafir 0:)

i....kaboot am obsessed with "prime and toasts" egg benedict ;p latheeeeeeeeeeeth ! the bacon, the cheese, the egg...its foamy madry shlon....bssss yummmmmm....

i...kaboot have a crush....someone in uni ;$ yshwggggggggg !!!! zo8aaaaaa

i...kaboot have midterms comming soon oo modarsa shay ...a9lan tifaja2t youm i knew enna 3nde midterm this week ;/ alla ysterrrrrr ;p

i....kaboot ....well, g3d akalm mango (skyping) while im doing this post oo g3da atla5ba6..ooo ehya ga3da titla76am...;p luv u mango....el7een a5al9 wakalmch...no im not ignoring u lool....oo laaa moga3da at'hawash ma3 ilkeyboard ;p

i...kaboot apoligize mn kil galbeeeee....walla a7ibkm oo walla abeee a5al9 this story bssss magdar i write a post oo ana momrakza mara7 y6la3 7looo soo inshalla youm akoon 1oo% focused i will post ib "mulish" ;p bsss i'll post randoms chthe whenever im free....

p.s. il9aida mango tawa si2latne how to type "empty" i mean...seriously...mango....empty? hahahahahhahahahaha...(yes im ignoring u mango and im going to fash'shil u ) muwahahhahahahhaha ;p

Randomsssssss ;)

2009-10-30T15:51:00.004+03:00

- ok...sooo knt ray7a ilhospital 7ag my cuz lena wlidat ok..ehya fa9laaa oo rayilha ham y3ne 7adhm laygeen 3ala ba3a'6 ! yabat the cutest boy ever....elmohim...ana ga3da wala agolohm haaa shno btsamoona wala my cuz tgool "a7mad" oo rayilha gal "7amad" b3dain shafaw ba3a'6....oo ana yaitlee '6a7ka.....which is it ? wala yshofoon ba3a'6 "a7mad......7amad......5ala9 7mood 3ayal...." they agreed and saw me....how cute are they ;))

-shay efashil 9ar feene.....7adaaa my driver ba6 chabdi cuz killa ma3nda ra9eed u know (hes ashkara lieing) ilmohim glt 5alaa9 ana ayeebla oo 5anshoof shlon bechathib...i went oo 7a6ait a 10KD ib machine wa6aniya cz ohwa wa6aniya...wala may6la3le shay !! 7awalt ma6ila3 ! i went to the mudeer mal ilfr3 wala ygolee the guy will refill the machine tmro so come tmro to take ur ten...galleee wala give me ur number oo ana a3abeelich yaa...i was like ok i gave him my number wala ygolee hatha zain mowa6aniya....wala y9eer feene " ahh heheheh sry ....bs mo7af'6a hathak...oho mo7agee" lena jad mo7af'6a number my driver msayvita ib my phone oo my phone blsayara. a7s shakk feene hehehhehe....i felt stupid...;p 7obat sayi8naaaaaaaa.....!!! wala ygoleee adg 3alaich 3al 12pm tmro ok....gtlaaa"laaa2222....!!!" wala ygoleee " eee enta 3yal halziman bss tnamoon...5ala9 3 pm ok ?" i nodded my head mftashlaaaa ooo mishait ;p

-knt 3nd strbx mn6i8atna il9b7 radda mn uni oo knt ba5thlee coffee...faaa ana nzlt oo 5athaitle youm 6l3t abee ard ilsayaraaa wala u know ilsa3ayda elle y7osoon with pepsi,7up etc...... yalleee oo galee tabeen gltla la2..oo dashait ilsayara wala yogaf 3nd ilsayara oo he asks again...i was like wtf ?! la2 mabeee.....wala he starts yelling oo y2asher 3ala nafsaaaa !! i freaked out !!! shfeee hatha....!?! bsss i started my car oo lafait ilsikan oo 7arakt ilsayara shwy oo i motioned for him "wa55ir" wala y5aaf oo he does...! hahahhaahahaha....messing around with kaboot haaa....;p

-fee wa7d 8aleel iladab hailigeee la7ignee ilbait, ilmshkila shaklaa wld 3aylaa laish yswee chthe shdraniii... ilmohim... ana nzlt badsh ilbait wala ynzil !!! ana i just froze y3ne mn9ijaaaaa....galleee "ana abeech 7ag zawaj....mo ga3d al3ab..." i was about to strangle him bsss magdar oo ham mabee ard 3alaih soo i ignored him...b3dain he was like " walla abee atzawajich......oo adfa3lich mahrich k-net...!" anaaaa dashaiit ilbait oo i exploded into laughter....mn9ijja hatha !!! k-net !! that was sooo random..abaaai myannan !

-i was late to uni...(as usual) faaaa i was in a hurry oo bsr3a i knocked oo dashait ilclass ! fta7t ilbab wala killa boys......everywhere ! ana sa6alt.......shit shit shit...fashlaaaaaa ! i took a step back and closed the door and scurrried to my classs......embarrassed !

-abeeee winter...aw summer ;p bsss mochetheee.....mako sun oo its cloudy oo tma6ir bsss 7ar oo r6ooba...?!? blsayaraaa ashoof ilmo6ar oo iljaw ilm'3ayim oo y9eer feeneee...."ahhhhh winter,,," bs i step out of the car oo y9eer feene " AC....7arr....ahh sha3ree...r6ooba"

-mbad3a ana ib uni....!!! my friend e6arshlee bbm..."wainch bnro7 lunch e7na..." 3ala600l i answer " kaniii yaya" oo asheel shlaltee mn ilclass oo a6la3....take it easy;p i have this borrirrring classs that i cant stand....dayman aroo7 late oo ildr mskeena matla7i'6....oo etha r7t mbacher after 15 min a6la3 mn ilclass aroo7 asolf with my friends b3dain arid 3ala a5er 15min...o:)

-i luuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuv The Fray !!!!! Theyre amazing !!!! oo rashid too...shda5al rashid madry ;p bsss he rocks too ;p oo majeeed ham.....;p

- knt ib avenues with my mom faaa glna ng3ad ib hagendaz chtheee....g3da oo kalaina 7ilo oo chtheee b3dain 5ala9na wala my mom is like yo3ana...i was like eee ana b3d kint yo3ana bsss entay ybteena hagendaz....she was like "3ady yalla wain tabeen nakil...." hehehhehehehehehe....en7alleee gabl manakil....how crazy is that ;p

-i was buying stuff bljam3iya ...junk oo chtheee soo ana wagfa ba7asib oo 6la3 il7saaab oo 6ala3t my k-net oo i handed it to the women oo i was looking around...i noticed the woman kanat msa6la, shift'ha wala ma36at'ha my university ID......abaaai ftshalt hehehee;p

-na6raaaa 3eed ila'67aaaaa.....basafiiiiiiiiiiir !!!!!

-i dont belive swine flue...a7s 5arabee6 ! its a normal flue...tit3alijon oo 5ala9...malada3eee kilhal loya....my brother had 7ararra oo m9a5in oo chthee y3neee its normal ta'3yeer jaw oo chtheee wala blmstashfa they tell him ena ohwa "ishtibaah swine flue" feee.....wtf ?!!?!? shakoooo....ilmshkila 3a6ahm skip ohwa oo b3d two days ra7at the 95oona oo 5athaaa adweyaaa 3adiya oo 6aab.....tifilsif ohmaaa 7adhom!

-adry ena i didnt post mnfatraaaaa bsss i was busy walla mn na7yat friends,family, uni etc..... bssss inshalla soon i'll be back..bare with me ;*

luv u ;******

Mulish (29-A)

2009-10-16T17:39:00.000+03:00

ENJOOOOOOY MY AMAZINGERS !!! (shraykm blisim bs;p)

its really reaaaally short bsss part B ykml 3alaih ...which i will post soon inshalla ;p

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S3ood.....

wi9alt ilbuilding oo akeed inna hneee yskinoon ohma....i rang their apartment number oo the door zzzzzzzzzzd for me oo dashait. di5alt ilelevator oo youm wi9alt mishait 7ag apartment number 14.

I rang the bell ooo n6art wala yfta7 ilbab oo 3bdilra7maaan greets me.

"hallaaaaaa hallaaaaaa.....shlonk..." gaal 3bdlra7man oo salamna 3ala ba3a'6

"b5air wallah...."

"tfa'6al tfa'6al........" he motioned for me to come in, " 3aad 3zmt b3ad stath m7mad oo ...."

"mar7abaaa s3ood....." said 3bdlra7mans wife

"hala walla..."

"waaai 3afsaaa hehe inshalla y3jbkm 6ba5eee....."

"laaa akeed..."

"haha mshkoor ,,yalla intaw g3daw bl9ala 3alama anchib il'3ada....."

Ana oo 3bdlra7man di5alna il9ala wala nshoof m7mad ga3d oo ma3aa rayyal oo bnaya oo .......malak!

killish mowagta !

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Zain......

akraha !!! akraha akraha akraha ....!!!

I muttered to myself as i picked up my bag and headed barra ilsharika and into my car. 3alaaait 3al takeeef...7asait roo7eee 7aranaaa...mn8ahraa....m3a9baa.....feene bachwaaa ...kilshay !!

shasawy....la3at chabdi minna manigadra at7ammilaaa...killish killish !

G3dt afakr blsayara 3alla shay....7all ...ayshay bsss maligait shay. I parked my car oo nzlt ilbait. dashait oo marait yam il9ala wala ashof my dad ga3d with my mom. salamt 3alaihm oo g3dt.

"haaa shlonha bntee,,,," said my dad.

"hehe tamam walla...." i said and poured myself some tea.

"shlon ildawam weyach..."

"umm walla zaain...7mdillaa...." i settled in the couch and blew into my tea to cool it down.

"stath fawaz ohwa ysht'3l weyakm blsharika...3araftee...?"

"uhhh laa walla....laish ?"

"ygool ench sha6ra oo tit3alimain bsir3a...oo sh'3lch ma'6boo6..."

"hehehe 9ij.....shift shloooon....g3d agolk anaaa...hehe.."

"eee mo3ashan chthee abeech t8admeen isti8altch oo tyeen tshta'3lain 3ndee blsharika....5ala9 iktisabtay 5ibraa oo fhmtay ilsh'3al 3adl..."

"shno...??" i was shocked.

"eee....mohatha elle kntay tabeena...entay 8admay isti8altch oo maktabch jahiz..."

I was speechless. thats what i always wanted.....was it ?

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luv u ;p

gudnight :)

Mulish (28)

2009-10-13T19:49:00.000+03:00

ENJOOOOOOOOY ;)))

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S3oood.....

gmt mnilnom oo ana 7adi ta3baaaaan....weddiii agi6 roo7eee oo anaaaam bsss lazm aroo7 il'3ada elle 3azmeene 3alaih. 5athait ilshower a7aaawl at9a79a7 shwy bsss mako fayda ams killish manmt 3ala ra7teee. bsss knt afakr billeee 9ar....ma38oola b3d klhalsneen ashof malak ! sh'hal 9idfa...oo laish el7een. magdar ashoofha wala a7acheeha wala 7attan at7amalha ...kariha ibshakl mo6abee3e 3alli sawita weyaay oo feena e7na elathnain. 7abait'ha 7ob ma3a6aita 7ag a7ad '3airha, bsss 6l3at matstahal kilhathaaa...ilwa7id yikbar oo yit3alam oo ana knt 9'3eer wagt'ha oo masha3ree ba3adha richeecha bsss el7een kibart oo we3aait oo laa yomkin a5aleee wa7da nafs'ha tgi9 3alai mara thanya.

klhalsneen ijtanabt shay isma 7ub...lena awal 7ub kan ib7ayatee fashil. klshay intaha bain youm oo laila oo mn'3air sabab aw tabreer....bsss hadatnee oo tizawijat...oo laaa b3d sima3t il5abar mn rfeeje. 3ala3omoom ana ra7 a7awl atjanabhaaa 5ilaal halfatraa laaimaa a5al9 sh'3lee hnee ooo arja3 ilkuwait.

a5555 awal marra a7s roo7ee ta3baan halkithir.....bss abee arja3, arja3 7ag 7ayatee il6abi3iya..

agoom...aroo7 ilsh'3l...ijtima3aat...zaf ib zain...arja3 ibait ...diwaniya ...chalet....oo chtheee

kilshay mashee chethee....haha walla oo welaht 3la hal5iblaa zain...mayndara shimsawya el7een akeed m6al3a 7ag a7mad grooon...

And with that s3ood left his room and headed to the 3azeema....thinking that it would be a lunch like every other lunch.

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Zain.......

I woke up cursing the day a7maad came to the sharika. o put on a simple black skirt and a skyblue top. i checked my phone and i had a message,

a7ibich...zayoontee ;**

rec.7:56am

it was from 5alid. i stared at these two words....he loves me and he called me "zayoontee" the name he always used to call me by. i miss him. thats a truth that i cant deny but i just dont know if i could trust him again. plus, there is s3ood....hals3ood elle ma5th 3agleee ma3ina there is nothing official between us oo ymkn he doesnt even love me. i really dont know what to do...its soo confusing.

I arrived at the sharika and as usual , i grabbed my coffeee and on to work. at around 12 pm the inevitable happened and i was asked to go to a7mads office. i reaaaaalllyyyyy didnt want to go there ...awalan i was scared, disgusted, mad, furious and not in the mood. i knocked and got in,

I walked to his desk and tried to avoid the amused look in his eyes.

"ashoof 5athaitay il7achee elle gtlch yaa ams,,," he grinned.

I looked at hi, with a sheno-g3d-t5arbi6-look,

"libastay tanoora...oo ana ams gtlch ene afa'6ilha 3alaich...."

ohhh yaaaaaa....iffffffff shlon nisait ana...el7een 7sbaala i was flattered oo lbst elyoum 3shan chtheee....

"hahaha....3al3omoom 5anjanbl ilsh'3l...." he motioned for me to sit down and so i sat down 3ala8al a7san mnmaa akoon jidamaa o y5oziz feene. The next 15 minutes was purely buisness and i was glad by that.

He stood up and laid out the papers infront of me , " faaa e7naa n7awl oo nshooof she9eer..."

" ok.." i said as i scanned the papers. i forgot ena he was standing infront of me so i paused and looked up at him.

"aasif etha ga6a3tch....kamlaaay" he added , but i ignored him and stood up.

"ashoof ilawraag oo b3dain i email them to u..."

"la7'6aaa ..." he grabbed my arm, " laish msta3yla..."

"hidd eede allah y5aleek..bala mashakl..."

"moo ohwa law tstamti3ain weyaay...ykoon a7san oo nkoon b3aad 3an ilmshaakil..." he whispered to me as he inched closer and closer to me. I pushed him away with all my force,

"wallaaa wallaaaa aashtekee 3alaik !!! 7ilaft !!"

" hahaha 9adgeeny mara7 ysm3oon kalam "intern" 3alai ana...."

"enta ma3araftnee 3adl 3ayal...wallaaa la5aleek tndam !" i lashed out.

"shofaaaay latig3ideeen tsween ro7ch baree2a....adry ench tabeen bss 5ayfaa,,,,"

"laaaa2 !!! enta mnwain tyeeb hal 7achee......ana mochtheee...."

"eee mbayin....3alabalch ana '3aby oo ma2adree ench entay oo s3ood kan 3ndkm sowalif...."

I didnt expect that.

"shno.."

"eee ee sm3teene....etha ti7achaitay ...af'6a7ich mo entay bss...ellaaa s3ood b3d...!"

7asait ildinyaa tdoor feene,,,,,d5t shwy....hathaaa shnawee 3alaih....!?! i just stared at him and when i couldnt take it any longer i left. ethaaa gaal ayshay 3an s3ood 3ady efanshoona ! mabee all his hard work y'6ee3 3shanee ana. omg shswy..........

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luv u ;**

gudnight ;)

Mulish (27)

2009-10-10T20:58:00.002+03:00

Thanx 4 ur patience ;)) oo i promised ;)

Luv u ;***

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S3ood......

"e7m....ana malak ilflani....tsharaft..." galaat oo she avoided eye contact with me.

"mar7abaaa feech...yahala...." replied the rest...i just remained quiet.

"mnwain entaay...?" asked 3bdlra7mans wife.

Kuwait....

I said to myself.

"kuwait...e7m..bss yaya ma3 stath m7amad weyaaa 3shan aksib 5ibra oo chthee..."

"ahhh entay intern 3ndaa...?"

"laa walla...asht'3l 9arlee cham sina bss hathee awal sinna lee ma3 stath m7mad..."

"y7lailich maybayin....cham 3mrich...?"

24.....

"hehe 24..."

"il3omor killa inshalla...."smiled 3bdlra7mans wife.

**RING RING**

Malaak answered her phone, "alooo...yes im malak...why...we agreed that it would take place on thursday....yes....yes please because im busy the whole week...ok thanx....bye..."

"sheno fee...?" said stath m7mad.

"laa walashay bss 5arba6a blmawa3eed....latsheel ham..." she beamed to him.

"waaai englaizeetich tshwiig hehehhehe....entay darssaaa barra.."

ib AUK.....

"laaa wallaa.....blkuwait...ib AUK..."

"ahhh ya7lailich walla...3ad laygaa 3alaich halsha'3laaa...."

"hehehe mshkoora...bss faj2a dashsait buisness...."

"laaaish wain kntay 7abba tdisheen..."

Interior design....

"interior designing walla...bsss buisness shadneee wayd fadi5alta..."

lena ahalich mari'6aw tdreseen barra...3shan chtheee....

"s3ood....shfeek sakit...?" whispered 3bdlra7maan to me. "ana oo stath m7mad 9arlina sina nt7acha oo enta sakit..."

"laaa bsss shaklee baroo7...waraai sho'3l lazm a5al9a..."

"ig3aaad shwy...."

"haw sheno s3ood rayii7...?" jumped in his wife, "ig3aad shwy..."

"laaa mashkoreen bsss waraaai sh'3l oo mayita2ajal..."

"3ala ra7tik....bsss bacher '3ada 3ndinaa ok..."

"haha inshalla.....m3esalama..." i said and headed to the door.

laykoon ehya elle kanat ts2al 3anni blhotel...oo elle kanat bla9an9air...offfffff allaah y3eeeena !

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The next day........

Zain.....

"aloooo....hala ...bsss abeee asta2thin elyoum t3banaaa shwy mara7 adawm.........laaa mara7 agdar aadawim.....3ady etha 3ndeee sho'3l 6arshee 3ala emailee.....mngaal 3ndina ijtimaa3? laaazim a5ali9 ilsho'3l gabl ilijtimaaaaa3 ?! mnooo galich ...? stath a7mad haaa......okaaay okaaay....ee eee yaya....bye "

i shut the phone fumming ! gi6ee3a mora'6yaaa aftak minna hatha...waraaai waraaai ! 7attan 6ibiya manigadra a5ith !

i changed my clothes and headed to work. i grabbed my coffee and went straight to my desk where i found tons of work waiting to be finished before noon...where the meeting will take place. At around 11 i was about to be done when the phone rang and the secretary told me that stath a7mad wants to see me, i tried to make excuses inorder to avoid him bss mako fayda....i had to. And soooo to his office i headed.

i knocked and went in.

"ahlaaaaan....tawa manawar ilmaktab....." he said. i showed no reaction what so ever and handed him the papers to head out. "la7'6aaa la7'6aaa .... ana magtlch 6il3ay...thanyan ana ma3ala8t 3ala sho'3lich...oo haaaam magtlch ijtimaa3 ilyoum 3an shno..."

"tfa'6al 3ayal..."

"entay awal shay tfa'6ilay oo gi3day oo atkalam..."

"mabeee....mrta7a chethee...."

He looked at me for a while...bss i remained on my feet and looked at him with a bored look waiting for him to talk.

"hmmm...daam enna chthee okaay..." he said and stood up and came towards me, "momishkila ...ana awgaf ba3d..." he beamed.

gi6a3 !!!!

"3al3omoom bss abee agolich enaa..................." he kept talking and talking 3an todays meeting oo chtheeee....oo ana bss na6rita y5ali9 3shan aftak mnrig3at wayha ! he finally shut up and then he studied my figure, i was just about to scold him when he spoke, " lazm agolich...enich jiddan anee8a ! bsss ana afa'6l iltananeer 3alaich..."

"ahh 5ala9 3ayal zain gtlee..."

He smiled..so i added,

"3ashan malbis tananeer..."

He glared at me, "5ala9t ? 3ashaan amshee...."

"eee 5ala9t...bsss gabl matro7eeen 3ndee lich 5abar 7iloo...."

alllah yister...

" shno...?"

"elyoum wi9alnee email mn stath s3ood...."

ohwaaa bss he mentioned my name oo faz galbeee.....god i miss him sooo much !!!

"latistansain wayid....lena maktoob ena ra7 yit2a5ar...eee na3am oo mayadreee meta ra7 yrid...oo 6ab3aaan mnoo ra7 ykooon mokaannaaaa.....hmmm hmmmm hmmmm.....eee....ana !!! 5osh 5abar mooo...."

I gulped, my hopes were drained away....it looks like i'll have to indure his presence much longer.

"lat5afeen ana mawjood...." he said and placed his hands on my shoulder. " ana ra7 a5aleech matfakreen ibs3ood...." he said as he inched closer and he looked as if he wanted to kiss me !!!

"wa5ir 3anni !!!!! 8aleeel iladab !!!" i backed away.

"mo3alainaaa halfilim....adry enich tabeeen..." he said and came forward again. i stood behind the table.....his arms grabbed me,however, and i stumbled back at the chair. He came at me and tried to kiss me...i was turning my head and pushing him away...

"wa5ir 3ani.....wa5iiiiiiir.....wallaaa a9ari5.....wallaaaaaa !!!!"

"chub ooo lati7arikaaain......" he said and i frantically kept pushing him away...i gave him a kick and that sent him away from me which gave me enough time to stand up and head to the door. Before i headed out i paused,

"ra7 tindam 3alli sawaitaaa ...!!!!"

"ha haaaa......meno be9adgooon....ilmodeer wala ilintern ??? oo 9adgeeene agdar alif ilsalfaaa 3alaich ibsohoolaaaaa...." he grinned.

I glared at him with my tear-filled eyes and headed out. I walked and got into the nearest bathroom i saw. i locked myself in and broke down. i was shivering like crazy.......and everytime i heard someone get in i had to hold in my tears until they left. It was exhausting and i really didnt know what to do ! How am i going to face him again ....? 7atta law bafattin oo ashtikee 3alai 9a7 kalamaaa...akeed be9adgonaa oho....oo hathaaa mohayin faaa akeed ra7 ylif elsalfaaa we6ali3 roo7aa minha ! Who can i talk to ....? my dad...that would be crazy ! my mom...that would be even crazier ! s3ood....well hes not here ! mariam.....well shes a girl y3ne shbtsawee....ooo rayilhaa ham y3ne madry 7araam a5arb their honeymoon. I kept thinking when 5alid's name popped into my head....hes the only one ive got but i cant tell 5alid.....can i ? ughhhhhhh im confused ....all i know ohwa enna mabeee adawm hneeee b3d mabeeee....oo etha ista8alt my dad will see it enna magidart at7ammal ilsho'3l oo chteee !!!

I headed to the secretary and told her that i am tired and that i need the day off....she was about to argue but one look at my face and she agreed straight away ! i went home and slept...not before praying that god would do anything....ANYTHING that would help me...and i would gladly take it !

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Luv u ;***

Gudnight ;))

Mulish (26)

2009-10-07T00:50:00.001+03:00

Sorry u guys bss walla laahya ma3 uni ;p its gonna be short...bsss i promise blweekend i post a long post...;***tistahlon !

ENJOY...the mini post ;))

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ZAIN........

My phone rang again....

waaaai hala7mad mafee 9aber ?!?!!?

I grabbed the paper work and headed up towards his office. i reached his office, and the secretary told me to get in 3ala6ool fa i knocked and went in.

"zaain ana 9ayerlee 15 digeega na6rich...." said a7mad as soon as i got in.....bsmillaaa y3neee.

" eee bss knt ga3da a6ba3hom...." i grimly said as i headed to his desk.

"eee mo ana maba'3aitich ti6bi3eenhom....."

I looked up at him, "shnooo...?? laish...."

"makan laada3y ...gilt e6arsheenhom 3ala ilcomputer oo 5ala9...."

"eee bss ma7ad galleee....." i mean its only printing cham wriga oo chthee, its not a big deal bss i hate standing there as the papers are printed b3dain lazm ana9i8hm oo i group them oo staple them oo madry shnooo 3abalaa....

"moo ana 3ashan chthee knt adg 3alaich 3shan tyeene..."

"laish ayeek ? tigdar kint tgool 7ag ilsecertaira tgolee...." eshchayifnee hathaaa.....3ala kaifa ymasheene....

"ana gilt tyeen hnee...agolich....oo ham minha aksib shoftich...." he winked.

i was taken back shwy....did he just wink ??!!!

"emm....ana mashyaa el7een...."

"laaa laaa wain ray7a...." he stood up and came towards me. "gi3day hnee...."

"laa malada3y...ogaf...." i quickly replied as i took a step back.

"tsk tsk tsk....i insist...." he said and the freaky look he gave me ... 5alla lsanee ynribi6 oo gi3adt.

"eee chthee abeech...." he grinned and sat across of me.

He was staring at me and i avoided his gaze, "e7m.....mara7 nraji3 ilawraag ?"

"laish msta3yila..." he replied.

"laa lena waraai sho'3l..." i lied.

"sho'3ol ??" he said as he leaned towards me and sat at the edge of his chair...staring at me intently, "mat'thakar enne 3a6aitich so'3l...."

"laa bss fee ashyaa2 lazm anathimha ibcomputery...oo chthee.." i lied again.

His lips lifted up a little, "tigdereen tshta'3lain 3alai ib ay wagt..."

"eee bs ana baroo7 el7een..." i said as i got up. He got up too and held my arm,

"tabeen ilfakka minni...."

I looked at my arm, held my his large hand...and my heart started to beat widely, "laaa laaa bss lazim..."

"lazim shno..." he inched closer to me.

"stath a7mad....momkin t'hid eedee raja2an..." i managed to say.

"oh laish mthaygich...?"

i only nodded.

And then just like that he let go of me, "'3areeba....." he told me.

I looked at him confused. I wanted to ask him sh8a9da bss i reaaaaally needed to get out of there soo i just headed out. And when i got out....i let out a breath..was i holding it in there the whole time ? what got into him ?

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luv u ;**

gudnight ;)

Mulish (25-B)

2009-10-01T23:38:00.000+03:00

Dedicated to Mango ;*

ENJOY ;)

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7 years ago.......

**RING RING***

"alooooo.....helooooooooooo" answered malaak.

"ahlan ahlaaaaaan....shfeeech mn il9ub7 e6arsheen messegat...."

"abee agolk shay mohim knt.....ee 9a7 enta laish maradait...?"

"knt ma3 ilmodeer elle 3indi...7ada 7achir ! bsss lazm antibih y3ne tawne mitwathif 3araftay....bssss offfffffff wayid sho'3l ! elmohiiiiiiiiim shb'3aitay tgoleeen ?"

"emmmmmm !!!!! ra7 ashtereeee sayaraaaaaa a5eraaaaaan !! "

"ahhh yalla yalla 3albarakaaa...maba'3aitay ....."

"haaaaai hehehhhhee walla sayarteee cool...."

"sheno cooool ??!?!! garamba3a !!"

"eee 5o tawne sayga y3ne akeed mara7 ya5thonlee sayara yideeda...bss since tawne 9rt 19 oo 9arlee 1 year asoog faa ra7 ya5thonle sayara...."

"eee yallla zaaaain.....shno mfakra ta5theeen ??"

"walla madry...bacher bnroo7 oo nshoof....abaaaaaai 7adi mshta6a !"

"7mdella weshikir..."

"3alaaaaaaik....hhehehehe...."

"ok laklak lazm aroo7..."

"waaaaai3 s3ooooood shno laklak ??? ma7b this name !!"

"shno ismch chethee b3d shswy ana....haha..."

"ismeee malaaak mo laklak ! ayshay thany hehe..."

"tsk tsk 9ij laai galaw isim 3ala mosama...."

"awwwwwww ana ur angel...."

"laaa 3iksay ur name oo y9eer esim 3ala mosama....."

"ha ? m.a.l.a.a..k....sooo y9eer k.a.l.a.a.m !!!! haaaaaaai sh8a9dik !!!! shno ana garga !!"

"kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak ...."

"masheee masheee...."

"hahaha a7ibich....."

"oo ana akthar....hehe yallla jabil sh'3lik...bye !"

"laaa7'6aaaa la7'6aaaa....bashofich elyoum..."

"haaa laaa madryyyyyy...."

"yallaaaaa 3aad mnziman moshayfich...."

"ay minzimaaan....sbo3 ile6af shiftny...."

"eee hathak sbo3 ille 6af.....haaa shgiltay?"

"emmmmm okay ;) the usual place ok...bye"

(The last normal convo between them)^

"helooooooo....." malak said as she got into s3oods car.

"shno hathaaa ?!?!"

"ha ? ohhh hehehhe catalogaaat....."

"maaal..?"

"sayaraaat !!! help meeeeee......"

"haha yalla yeebay..." s3ood took a catalogue from her and started scanning through. After 30 minutes s3ood set the catalogoues down and let out a breath.

"haaaa shgilt ? ay wa7da..."

"9ara7attan tabeen...wala sayara layga 3alaich...."

"haw laaaaish......hatha catalogoue bmw, mercedes, range, porshoue, jaguar...shno b3d..."

"entay maynfa3 ma3ach elle wanaaaait !"

"wanaaaaaait......?!?!!? makosho'3l"

"hahahha at'3shmar...3jbony katha sayara walla bss 5all as2lch ashof ethe zaina oo yimdi7onha wala la2 3shan matiwahigain feha..."

"hehehhehe...3abali...." she shot him a look and hugged him. they stayed there talking for a while and then it was time to go so she left...but not without a goodbye kiss and innocent one ;p

(The last date/kiss)^

3 days later....."shfeeha hathee matrid walashay ????" s3ood tried calling malaak but she wouldnt pick up, messaged her bss ham mako fayda. He was confused ....he thought that maybe he did something wrong bldate..but nothing out of the ordinary happened. After the fifth day he decided to go to her uni and wait for her...bss he didnt catch any glimpse of her. He was really confused....and worried.

the sixth day....

s3ood was at the diwaniya with the guys when his friend fahad came in and sat beside him,

"haaa shlonk al7een??"

s3ood looked up at him confused, "ibsheno...?"

"shfeeek....malaak...."

"ha...? shdarak...?"

s3ood was confused...ok yimkn ena fahad's girlfriend is malak's best friend..bss malak momino3 elle she lets people into their problems. soo s3ood assumed ena 9ar shay oo galat malak 7ag her friend elle galat 7ag her bf elle tawa gallaaa....

"sima3t......shoof adry mit'thayig bss enta tistahal akthar mnchethee...oo a5er wa7da knt atwa8a3 tsawee chethee ehya malak...."

S3ood was really confused now, "ha ? enta shg3d tgol...?"

fahads face drained, he realized that s3ood doesnt know what hes talking about, "laa 5ala9 ensa...." he didnt want to be the one to tell s3ood.

"fahoood shfeek....ti7acha..."

"ana 7asbalee tadree...."

"adry..? malaak feeha shay !"

"laaa ...malak in5a6bat oo ibtizawaj !"

"sheno...????!??!!??!"

(that was the last day s3ood and malaak were considered a couple)

(s3ood never did hear from malaak after their last date)

(and s3ood was never the same after that....he was a completely different person)

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luv u ;**

gudnight ;))

Mulish (25-A)

2009-09-30T05:02:00.000+03:00

its good hearing from some commentors elle welaht 3alaihm;p

PART A is up...inshalla i post part b soon ;*

ENJOY ;)

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S3ood......

nimt noma mo6abee3eya ams youm radait ilhotel....oo zain enna irta7tlee shwy lena ilyoum wayd 3ndi sh'3l. daam enne rija3t fa lazm asawee ilijtimaa3 ille ajaltaa oo itifa8na nsawee ma3 ilsharika ilthanya sa3a 11am. el7een sa3a 9am...faaa a5thlee shower oo a6lblee ryoog oo ashti'3l 3la ilpresentation gabl maroo7 ilijtima3.

b3d ma6ilabt ilryoog oo 5athaitlee shower g3d mjabl laptopy Asht'3l 3al presentation.

**knock knock**

gmt oo fachait ilbab oo da55al ilakil da5il...wa8a3t wriga oo 6ila3 ilrayaaal oo ana jabalt ilakil. knt yo3aaaaaaaan. b3dain libast my suit oo ri7t ilijtimaa3.

3 hours later.....

il7amdilaaa.....!

ilijtimaa3 kan naji7 fa ra7 nit3amal weya halsharikaaa 7ag the next 3 years. gmt mn 3al 6awlaa oo yaniii 3bdlra7man...way7d nazl weyay ibnafs ilhotel oo ham 6ila3 a representitive blsharika elle g3d nt3amal weyaha. 3ayish hnee ma3 zojtaa...ilsh'3l 7ilo 3ala goltaa oo ildirasa 7ilwa 3ala raay zojta.

"halaaa b3azoooz...."

"hala hala walla...." ibtisamtla.

"yalla mabroook....sho'3lik mara7 bosh..."

"hahaha ee walla...yalla il7amdilla....."

"agool lena 9aar fee itifaa8 oo chthee faa akeed ra7 nsawee i7tifal 9'3ayyir 7ag sharikatna oo sharikatkm....faa elyoum ta3al hnee at 6pm....mara7 n6awl wayd y3ne...."

"ahhh ee 9aaar ...ok.."

"fee ham mn ma3arifhm ra7 ykonoon mawjodeen....oo fee tshoof cham sharika 3arabiya ykonoon mawjoden....tshof ba'3aaw the deal bs ma79ilaw 3alaiha bsss eyoon none the less 3shan mosta8balan ygderoon y7awlloon....."

"ahhhhh haha.....5ala9 yay yay....yalla tamerne 3ala shay...ana mashee...'

"wain rayi7...ta3al ta'3ada 3ndy....9ij enna fee paris bss 6baa5 mortee kuwaitee ba7t !"

"tislaaam tislaaam walla...bss 7aaab arayi7 shwy...marra thanya inshalla..."

rija3t ilhotel oo wigaft an6ir ilelevator yo9al, tiba6al ilbab oo di5alt da5l oo ri3a9t 3ala 11. oo ana wagf warra....jidami kan fee thalath 7areem oo yamee rayal. bss ana knt wara telephonee achayik emailee oo chthee.....bss knt ala7i'6 ena fee wa7da mn il7areem klshwy kanat tltft....tshofne shwy b3dain tlif wayiha. rifa3t rasee oo shift'haa bss kanat ma36atne '6aharha...n6art'ha tltft bss malaffat halmarra faa rija3t 7ag telefone. wigaf the elevator 3ala my floor, tiba6al ilbab oo knt bamor fa glt "excuse me...." danolee oo marait bain il7irmitain...oo la7a'6t enna elle kanat tshofne klshwy bs marait yamha yabbat sh3rha 3al 6arraf...chinna matabeene ashoofha....'3areeba ....'3ayal laish e6ali3.

elmohim.....

dashait il'3rfaa....6ilabtlee '3ada...ooo iti9alt 3al secertaria blkuwait '6aba6t weyaha cham sha'3la. b3dain tijahazt 7ag 7aflat elyoum. at 5:30 chethee 6ila3t oo ri7t hnaaak oo wi9alt 3al sitt.

kaan matroos ilmokaan....5osh 7afla 9'3eera hehe.

"champaign sir...?"

"uhhh no i dont drink...thank you..."

"chan shirabt...." joked 3bdlra7maan.

"hahaha wedii bs mali5lg askir....." i joked back.

" haha 3al3omoom...s3ood a7b a3rfk 3ala mortee dana...."

"for9aa sa3eeda....." gltlaha.

"ana as3ad....3ad may9eer chtheee lazm youm tyeena '3ada....abee ashoof etha 6ba5ee 7ilo wala la2...."

"mt2akid ena 7ilo...." i replied. "3bdelra7maan wayd ymd7 aklch..."

"hehehehe madry walla...a5aaf yjamlnee...ma7ad thayig 6ba5ee ilkuwaity '3airaaa.....fa glt athawg a7ad '3aira oo at2kd ibnafsee...." she smiled.

"laaa laaa malksh'3l minha...6baa5ha 7ilo...."

"haw shfeek 3bdlra7maaan mash weyaay ilfilim 5al aksir 5a6ra 3shan eyee.....hehe"

"hahahhaa laaa laa akeed yaay...3mlaw 7sabee bacher ana 3ndkm 3ayal...." radait 3alaiha.

"digeega 3an ithinkom ....aroo7 ashoof stath m7amad oo ayee..." gaaal 3bdlra7maan. oo ana g3dt asolf ma3 morta...

"oh kahoo yaa 3bdlra7maan..." galat dana faj2a. shwy wala eyee ma3aa rayaal.

"oo hathaaa s3ood alflani...elle 5alaa ilshariktain yt3amilon ma3ba3a'6...." ibtisam 3bdlra7maan.

"hallaaa feek...." gtlaa oo i shook hands with him. kaaan rayaal 3od...y3ne bl5amsenaat.

"mabrook 3alaik elcontract...itifaa8 7ilo walla....thalath sanawaat ...shay 7ilo....ahaneek...."

"mashkoor walla matga99ir...."

"8aleel matlagee halayaam naas yshta'3lon ib'6ameer chethee.....oo e7naaa kibarnaa oo gmna nt3ayaz hahahaha....inshalla meta raji3 ildeera...?"

"walla ga3dle b3d cham youm....3alama a'6abi6 omooree chethee oo b3dha inshallaaa raad..."

"eee yalla bltawfeej inshalla...."

tawnee yay ard wala asma3 ...."stath m7mad...stath m7amad..." nadat bnaya oo ana sikat. "lazm namshee stath m7mad warana ijtimaa3 lazm nil7ag 3alaih...." galatla.

"eee adry..walla entaw mo2theyeen hehehe....ana ayeeb thnain klmasafir safraa minhaa yt3alimon ilshi'3l 3adl oo yksibon 5ibraa...bsss mo2theyeeen....haha...." galinna stath m7mad.

"wee sorry...ma3araft nafsee..." galat ilbnt oo iltaftat 3alaina..." ana.........ana......."

"nisat isimha...." 3alla8 stath m7mad.

"a-ana....."

mayi7tay tgoleee isimha......a3rf meno ehya.......shlon ansa....

malaak

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luv u...;**

gdnight ;)

9udaff !!

2009-09-27T13:21:00.000+03:00

waaaayid amor ib9odafff halayaaaam ;p here they r ;))

1) kilmokaan aroo7 ib man6i8atna...i mean klmokan like bank,jam3iya,bal3a etc..... a9adif meno ya toraaaaaa.....hmmmmmmm.....thiiiiiiiiink.......bolbol il5aleej nabeel sh3ail !!! a7s 7ifa'6ny oo 7ifa'6ta mnkithir man9adif ba3a'6 its funny really ;p hes so cute y7laila.

2) there is a girl elle mo9ij shlon klmokan ashoofha !!! ib uni...ma63am....mall.....kilmokan !!! and weirder than this ohwa ena ham shift'ha ib london this year !!!!! stalker much ;p hehehehhe ....bss mnziman moshayfat'ha...3assa mashar wainich ;p

3) i was doing my nails at this nail salon wala wa7da ga3da yammi ga'6ba her bb oo shes like talking to herself...abaaai mskeena zain...as she was reading along....oo ham galat, yalla s3ood rid !!! i giggled hnee i knew ena it was my blog ;D it was funny cuz shes reading my story oo ana yamha....i mean kaboot is a foot away from her hehehehe

4)oo ham marra knt wagfa ibchocolate bar abee a5th cupcakes 3shan msaweeen movie night with my friends...fa ana wagfa na6ra my order oo fee wa7da yamee...dagat 3alaiha elthaher her friend oo she said, "ahhh 9ij kaboot posted....meta ?" i beamed...wanasaaaa shta6aaaaait !!!! how cool is that ! hehehehehehehheeh

5) theres this tall guy dayman ashofa y7os blavenues...y3ne kilmaroo7 ashofa...6oweeel oo mazyon walla...wayid m6ay7 hnak y3ne klmara a9adf aro7 ykon hnak ta8reban....7atta mnkithir mashofaaa 7ilamt feee ams !!! 9ar feene elle shakoooo ham yay ib7ilmeeee......hheehehehe

p.s. most of the 9idaf happened during this week ! waaayd for a week...shwy shwy 3alai 9adofaat ;p

p.p.s. madry etha fe post elyoum i'll try bs i cant promise u ;***luv u oo tc !

Mulish (24)

2009-09-27T00:58:00.000+03:00

Wasnt planning on posting bss madry i had to write this part down ;p sooooooo.....to u all...;*

ENJOY ;)
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ZAIN.....

I continued working on the paper work that i recieved and dreaded the fact that i would have to face a7mad again. ana hal a7mad mn awal ma yaa oo ana momirta7atla oo inshalla bs agazirha halcham youm 3alama s3ood yrja3 oo akftak minna lilabaaaaad ! i smiled to myself and resumed my work.

My phone beeped,

1 msg received

9987****

zain 7ayateee alla y5aleech sam7eeny tara walla walhan 3alaich oo 3ala sowalfich...entay bs ridday 3alai..

2:00pm

I read the message and then deleted it and set my phone down and got back to work. i tried focusing bsss i could and my thoughts kept drifting back to 5alid. Why is he sending me messages ? ma38oola he really loves me ? bss etha he loves me 3yal laish 5anneee ? can i forgive him ? can i give him a second chance ? would i....could i ? iffffffff.....waaaai yarabiii shswy ana shswy.....

I picked up the phone and wrote 5alid a message,

shtabee bl'6ab6 ?

b3dain i erased....laa wayd nashfaaa chthee iljomla....emmmm.....

kani radait...

hmmm laaa ham wayd madry shlon, i erased it....waaai shaktib !!!!

i dont think ene agdar asam7ik 5alid....

sent 2:10pm

I sent it and continued my work, mamarr digayig ella wi9alne msg,

zain walla a7liflich ena makan 8a9de elle 9ar oo ana asif walla asif...entay bss 3a6eene fir9a !

rec. 2:11pm

5alid 9a3ab enne ansa, ayshay wala enk u betray me and u did it...im sorry bss its over.

sent 2:12pm

bss a7ibich zain oo adry enich t7ibeeny...3a6eena for9a....5alene athbitlich ene gadha.

rec.2:14pm

madry 5alid madry...

sent 2:15pm

fakray zain..3shani fakray...3ishra bainatna e7na bss plz fakray..

rec. 2:17pm

Afakir ? shlon arja3la.....i mean i loved him ...i always did. we were such a great couple, i can never forget the first time we met. i was 18 and i was at the chalet, we decided to grab some mcdonalds and thats when we first met. He was tanned and looked great, and he couldnt take his eyes off of me. i noticed that along with my friends bss i chose not to give it much thought, we grabbed our orders and on our way out wala someone bumps into me and pours his coke killa on my clothes. i was socked. i looked up and it was...him ! He was still for a moment then he started apoligizing, "asif ...walla asif..mashift....asif....7mayin yeeeb kleenex bsir3a...yalla......asif walla makan 8a9de...." he kept going on and on and on. 6ab3an my friends were giggling, i just looked at him and said,

"laa basee6a latsheel ham...." i said and walked away. I was out with my friends and headed to the car when someone called,

"law sama7tay law sama7tay...." i stopped and turned around wala 5alid kan yaaayle with another soda in his hand. I just looked at him, he grinned and said,

"hatha 7agich...." at that moment i was like ena hatha mn9ijaaa ,"laa mashkoor mabee..." i replied.

"emmm bss hatha mo3ashan tshribeena...." he said and looked into my questioning eyes,

"3shan ti7thifeena "

"na3am...?!?!" i was surprised.

"eee 7ithfee 3ala tshirty 3shan yinkab 3alaiha...oo in9eeer even...."

I remember giggling,"hehe laaa mayi7taay....."

"y3ne mara7 tgi6eena 3alai...?" he asked.

"hehe la2...."

"ok..." he said oo mawi3ait elle fita7 ilsoda oo kabba 3ala malabsa...."el7een irti7t....9irna even.."

I exploded into laughter...and since then we would see each other every week and from that our relationship started. i smiled to myself as i recalled my those past 4 years with him. i really dont know what im gona do i mean i AM angry at him for what he did, and i just dont find myself capable of forgiving him. plus theres s3ood, i mean i fell for him quick and hard......we kissed too ! bss i dont know if s3ood loves me, i told him ena i do bss he didnt answer me..so where does that leave us.......ughhhh walla its confusing !

***ring ring***

it was the secretary telling me that a7mad is waiting for the paper work. I quickly finished it off and headed to his office.

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LUV U ;*

GUDNIGHT;)

Mulish(23)

2009-09-26T03:06:00.001+03:00

adry adry ti2a5art 3alaikom wayid bsss here is ur 3eediya ;***

ENJOY ;))

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S3ood......

oo ana knt ba6la3 mn ilsharika nizalt ta7ay 5athait elawrag elle a7tajhom oo ham fahamt ilsecertaira 3an chan sho'3l t5ali9hom oo e6arishlee yahom blfax youm akoon hnak. wigaft 3nd ila9an9air na6ra wala altifit oo adawer zain. madry shimsawya....y3ne bist ilbnaya b3dain mamidana nstaw3b elle 9ar ella dash a7mad oo inshi'3alt ma3aa...oo el7een basafer. walla moshkila lazim afahimha enna elle 9ar......ufffffff ana bro7ee mo3arif elle 9ar shno ....youm akoon ma3 zain klshay ytla5ba6 3ndy...oo ana 9ara7attan bro7ee monagi9....6ool halsneen oo ana masik ro7eee oo mashee 9a7...mara7 a5alee walashay y5arible hatha.....

maligait zain ibdesk'ha fa di5alt ilelevator oo mnhnaak nizalt oo di5alt ilsayara 3shan aroo7 ilma6ar. 6ab3an a'3ra'6ee oo chthee ibparis blfond8 masawait check out lena mayiswa 3ala youmain...faa a7san shay ena klshay 3ala 7a6ita bl'3orfa. lazim a5ali9 sho'3lee hnak bsir3a lena abee arj3 hnee oo ajabl maktabee 3adil...ana mo3ajbny hala7mad.

wa9alne sayig ilsharika ibait blawal 3shan abadil....libastle casual oo salamt 3al walda oo rkabt ilsayara oo ri7na ilma6ar. Sawait elcheck in oo chthee oo 3ala6ool 9ar boarding fa di5alt il6ayara oo etijahna paris. 7awalt anamly shwy bl6ayara bss magidart ma3ini knt mitlayish. kil elle knt afakir fee ohwa zain....mani3arf shswy....mabee al3ab ib masha3r ilbnaya oo ana magdar e36eeha shay aw abadilha ilsho3oor. bsss akeed abadilha ilsho3oor walaw shwya lena law maknt chan mabist'ha. offffff ana bss el7een 5al arakiz 3ala sho'3lee b3dain youm arid y9eer 5air.

b3d cham sa3a wala we start decending 7ag paris. w9alna oo nizalt oo 5athaitle taxi oo ri7t ilfind8.

"hello jean-pierre...."

"hellooo mr.s3ood....welcome back..."

"the room is ready right...."

"yess yess ofcoarse....." raa7 oo 6ala3le kart il'3orfaaa oo 3a6ani yaa, "here you go....."

"thank you.....do i have any messages ?"

"ahh wait i'll check for you...just a moment sir...." raa7 oo madry shsawaa oo ya, "actually yes sir, you have a message from mr.louis ..."

"what is it about..."

"he wanted to ask about when youre gona be back...."

'6i7akt ," mr.louis impatient as always....."

"haha yes yes...and there is a woman also who asked about you two times..."

"who...?"

"sorry sir but im afraid i dont know....she didnt leave her name...."

"oh ok thank you jean-pierre....." gitlaaa oo 9i3adt 7ag il'3orfa.....meno hathe elle si2lat 3ani ? ilsecertaira blq8 ? bss laish mat7i6 isimha..? yimkin wa7da nit3amal weyaha ibsharika mn ilsharikat ibfaransa....bss ham laish mat7i6 isimha...? mayindara walla......ebayin ba3dain meno....

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Zain........

i was walking outside, in a wide, spacious field that was adorned with trees, flowers, and the soothing sound of the birds singing. it was a place im not familiar with that much, but i seemed to recognize it well. i was suddenly hungry and i needed to eat but i was far from home so i decided to find me something to eat from here. i walked around ...wandering around trying to find myself a fruit to eat. i spotted an apple tree, the apples were sparkling from afar and they looked delicious to eat. My mouth started watering just at the sight of it. i decided to head to it..soo i walked down the hill....my eyes only focused on the tree. For a while there i felt like i wasnt moving...the tree didnt seem to get any closer no matter how long i walked but i was determined to get myself an apple so i kept going. i kept passing, however, besides a lemon tree, a grape tree and an orange tree...and although they all seemed delightful with their vivid colors my vision was occupied with the apple tree.

"ZAIN...ZAIN....." i heard someone call. Nooo noo not nowwwww......!!! "ZAAAIN...ZAIIIN YALLA WE HAVE TO GO....YALLA ZAIN....."

i halted, i have to go but i really really want an apple from that tree !!!!

"ZAIIIN...."

"KAAANII KAAANI YAYA YAYA...." i replied and headed back grabbing myself an orange from the orange tree on my way back. I rolled the orange between my hands then i decided to eat it because i was famished. i dug my nails into the skin of the orange to peal it open. i pealed of all of the skin and using my hands i split it open into half. "AHHHHHH....." i screamed and dropped the rotten orange to the ground. it looked perfectly normal on the outside but it was black, smelly and rotten in the inside. i stared at it on the ground and screamed even more when some sort of insects crept out of it.

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fazait mn nomeee oo eedi 3ala galbi....!!! "bismilaaa bismilaa........." i kept repeating to myself , "a3ooth billaaa .......shno hathaa...?" i calmed myself down...mofahma what the hell the dream was about and what it meant. I got up and washed my face, i got back into bed but i couldnt sleep. I looked at the time and soo i decided to get ready to work marawa7da.

I reached the sharika and straight to my office....i had tons of work to do.

"e7m....e777777mmmm....."

i looked up wala , "abaaaaaaaaai......maryoooooooom hiiiiiiiiiiii.........." i beamed and hugged her, "wainich entay welahna 3alaich....."

"heheheeh shno bas 9arle four days momdawma...."

"7atta law....wayiiiiiiiid...."

"weee hehe 3ayal shbitgoleen youm agolich ena b3d youmain 6ayreen 3ala our honeymoon ana oo jassim...."

"alaaaaaa 7ilfay...wain...."

"hehe emmm madry msaweeha surprise 3ala goltaaa...."

"Waaaaai cute.....enzain chan kamaltay halcham youm 3i6la b3d...."

"laaa weee lazm a5al9 sho'3lee gabl masafer ma9a5t'ha hehe....."

"ahhhh hehehhee......"

"yalla 7beebty a5aleech tjableen sho'3lich oo ana b3d...."

I smiled and headed back to work. After a while, i was finished with the first bunch of paper work so i headed up to deliver it to a7mado....lena yi7taja '6arory 3shan y6arsha 7ag madry ay sharika. the secretary motioned for me to get in. i knocked and got in....6ab3an ila55 m9adig roo7a oo ga3d oo la3ib ildor 3adil ma3 wayha.

"ilawraag 5al9een...." i told him and set them on his desk.

"zain ta3alay shofay ilbarnamaj ilyideed hathaa.....ra7 ysahilich 7ayatich wayid...." he stood up and motioned for me to sit down. i hesitated bss i was eager to see shno hatha elle besahille 7ayate. I went and sat on the chair and looked at the computer screen oo sa6alt. a7mad leaned in from behind me,

"shofay .."he motioned, "hatha ysaweelich kil ilquarters ma3ba3a'6 bidaal il3abala elle t7oshich every quarter oo tna'6menhom oo chethee....."

"ahhhh...eee coool...." i nodded and remembered when i mixed up with the quarters in the first meeting that i went to blsharika with s3ood.....that would be handy indeed.

"7ada 3ajeeb mo9a7..."

"eeeee 7ada !" i smiled , my eyes still fixed to the screen. I didnt notice that a7mad was close.....really close, i froze, and my heart hammered in my chest when he sniffed my hair.I moved away and stood up abruptly. "lazim aroo7...." i said and scurried outside. 7ayawaaaaaan...what the hell was he doing !!!! was i imagining it ??? laaaa laaaaa it happened and nooo im not over reacting.....!! abaaaaai waaaaai33333......

I headed to my office again and sat there...omg how am i gonna survive the next few days with him....i really need s3ood to come back. i just have to stay distant from hal a7mad hatha till s3ood comes....bss that would be hard oo plus ana bro7e madry shkithir be6awl s3ood halmaraa iffffff.......

I decided to focus my attention on the next paper work i have...pushing away these thoughts as much as i could. After a while my phone beeped,

1 msg recieved

9987****

zain 7ayateee entay...walhan 3alaich wayd oo 9adgeny enne mogadr a3eesh mn'3airch....sam7eeeny...

1:30pm

I read and reread the message over and over again. I know this number....ofcoarse i do....its 5alids ! laimeta halwalad ra7 y'6il chetheeee 5al yinsaaa bas....i loved him yes i did...bsss what he did was horrible and i could never forgive him ....7assasne chenee nafs hatholee elle yil3ab 3alaihom b3d when i thought ena it was serious and that we might actually end up together....bss zain ene 3iraft el7een....a7san mnba3dain....ilmoshkila ena i really thought inna i new him i mean i know him for years and thats why i was shocked when i found out what he did....7attan youm 3iraft what shocked me the most was that he didnt deny it and that it was true...ok mashkoor enk machathabt oo sawait ro7k bareee2 bss u still did it...and thats....well thats unforgivable.

ifffffffffffffffff sh'hal youm....my dream mn9oub.....a7mad mn 9oub...oo 5alid 6ila3ly mn9ooub....can my day get even worse ?!?!?!!?

The phone rang,

"alooo mar7aba zain....stath a7mad 6albik ilmaktab....."

"ee bs ma5al9t sho'3lee b3d...."

"youm t5al9ee ta3alee then..."

"ok...."

well......heres my answer......yes ! my day can get worser....much much worser!

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Luv u ;**

Gudnight ;)

3eedkom mbarak ;*

2009-09-20T01:52:00.003+03:00

kil 3am wentaw ib alf alf 5air......!!!!

3asakom mn 3awada inshalla.... ;))

yalla tikashi5aw oo tizagritaw 7ag il3eed ! wala 3afeesa e7na ilbanat ammaaa ilawlaad alahomaa ildishdasha oo il'3itra oo hes good to go ;p

a7ibkommmmm ;*****

p.s. na6ra 3eedeety hehehehhehehehhe o:)

p.p.s. no posts bl3eed ! bss after akeed !

VMA Awards !

2009-09-18T04:01:00.006+03:00

ok manigadra afham what the hell kanye west was thinking in the MTV VMA awards !!!!

Maskeeena taylor swift 3awirat galbi !!!! mamidaha ilbnt ti7acha ella 5ima6 ilmicrophone oo g3d ehathir enna beonce' ilmafro'6 tfooz ?!?!

i mean abaaaaaai malat 3alaik....oo taylor swift mskeena in9admat oo magalat wala kilma ! 5arrab her moment !

bssss then comes beyonce' ..the hero and saves taylor swift from her embarrassing moment ! i love beyonce' !

Watch it on youtube !!!!!

p.s. lady gaga has this weird style and personality bss a7ibha ..shes unique !

p.p.s. no post today dai5a banam ;p tmro inshalla

Mulish (22)

2009-09-17T05:21:00.000+03:00

to all u siheeera ppl manisaitkom hehe...;p OO to all the ppl who have been patiently waiting thanx oo luv u ......

oo to chanel and mango and all my friends....

ENJOY ;)))

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Zain.......

A7mad stepped in with a smile on his face. He looked at me and s3ood where we were frozen in our spots just staring at him. He walked in and stood besides s3ood and looked at me, " sta'3rabtay mo9a7..." he said. i looked at him digesting what he just said, i didnt get it soo i just blankly stared at him. He saw my confused look so he added, "ena stath s3ood rad....."

"ah.." i managed to say, then i nodded my head and my eyes flew to s3oods face. S3ood was ...well really quiet and unreadable.....he has this look that i hate so much...the look that makes it really hard for me to read the feelings and emotions that are going through his head. and right now i really need to know what hes thinking 'cause i really dont know what happened !

we were fighting....i started crying, he started calming me down and then....then we kissed ! we kissed ! he kissed me and i .....i kissed him back ! oo yarait law bs chethee lena i actually confessed my love for him and just when i thought that he was gonna answer back...in comes a7mad !

I felt a7mads eyes darting between me and s3ood but i was consumed with what was going on that i didnt think about it much all i tried to figure out was what the hell just happened !

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S3ood.....

enzain....el7een kinna ga3deen nit'hawash .....NIT'HAWASH ! oo balishat ilbnaya tabchee shakooooo aroo7 alimha...shakooooo amsa7 dmoo3haaa.....shakooooo aboos'haaaa ?!?!?!?!?!?

shakoooooooooo........

madry sh9ar fene , madry shsawait oo shlon sawaita.....misa7t dmo3ha oo g3dt ahadeeha oo b3dain madry shlon bss bist'ha...magdrt enne mabos'ha. maknt m5a6i6 ena halshay y9eer bss youm 9aar mo5ee killish makan weyay...oo wigaft bss b3dain bist'ha mara thanya oo kamalt ! oo eyha ham basatne.....oo law mo a7mad chan ana lail7een ga3d aboos'ha oo mohadha...

kint wagif blmaktab msabah, ga3d afaker billi tawa 9ar...oo 7asait zain ham ga3d e6ali3nee ehya el'6ahir ham momistaw3iba elle 9ar. bsss la7a'6t ena a7mad mawjood oo ena kan yshofne ana oo zain ib 6aree8a '3areeba faaaa tmalakt nafseee oo 8arart ena mabayin shay 7ag a7mad fa iltifat 3alai o kalamta...

"yibt elawrag...?"

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Zain......

everything was quiet until s3ood talked, "yibt ilawrag ?" he said to a7mad in a calm, controlled, wala chinna 9ayer shay tone. i looked up at him trying to figure him out. "a7mad...?" s3ood called again.

a7mad who was i think too engrossed in finding out what just happened didnt listen to s3oods first question, but the second time s3ood talked he took a step back and shook his head lightly, "eeee eee kahom 3indy......tabeehom.?" he said.

"ee 3ayal laish gitlik t9awerhom.....3a6ney yahom oo 7i6 ilni95a 3indik..." s3ood said and took the papers from a7mad. While he was scanning them, a7mad looked at me and i looked back at him. He had a smirk on his face as he scanned me.

Abaaaai laykoon i look a mess ! laykoon sha3re mi3tifis aw wahyee lail7een fee dmoo3.....???

a7mad smirked even more then was interrupted by s3oods question. He started answering some questions and started negotiating about some papers and i just stood there wala kilma bsss msa6la ! b3dain staw3abt ene wagfa mn'3air magool shay oo mndoon fayda faaa 8arart ene a6la3.

"stath s3ood...?" i said and looked at him. He and a7mad were so into whatever he was saying that he didnt hear me, "emm....stath s3ood....? stath......? s3ood !" he looked up at me, as well as a7mad...."em ba6la3 ana...." s3ood nodded his head absent mindly and continued talking to a7mad. I looked at him for a while, then turned and walked out the door. i headed to my office and burried myself behind the files and papers..trying to hide the silent tears that pricked my face.

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S3ooood.....

Knt wagf akalim a7mad oo ga3d a7awil kithir magdar ene mashoof zain...laai maa ehya tkalimat oo galatle enha bt6la3....ma3rft sharid fa hazaitlaha rasee oo kamalt 7achyee ma3 a7mad. shafatne lfatra b3dain mishat...rifa3t 3aine oo shift'ha ti6la3 b3dain rija3t 7ag elle kan ga3d ygola a7mad.

"eee faaa 3alama arja3 abee maw'6oo3hom ykoon 5ali9..." gilt 7ag a7mad.

"eee ee laaa 5aali9 5aali9 inshalla....inta lat7ateee.....ella golee enta fahamt zain..."

"ee eee fahamt'ha kilshay...bsss ham abeek etabi3ha..." i said to him.

"ee laaaa ibhathee mayi7tay twa9eene...." rad 3alai.

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Zain.....

waaaw great !!!!! lazim aroo7 i print the papers again lena elle jidami killa stains mn ildmoo3 ! huffffff !!!! i clicked print again and stood up and headed to the printing and scanning room. i stood there staring at the printer and held every paper that it printed and stacked them after eachother.

what i dont get el7een....ohwa sha7 y9eer ? okay basneee....does this change the way things are...? ok to me 7ada ee....bss to him....? i mean does he even have feelings towards me ?

ana mogadra a9adig shlon i allowed myself to kiss him, sheefakir 3anni el7een.....???? awal shay 5alid oo el7een bista....shegool 3anni balla !

i looked out from the glass at the people working at their desks....ifff i just miss mariam soo much and i really need her ! the elevator door opened and s3ood walked out of it....i5tiba9t ana oo ilaraag elle beedi 6a7aw 3al ar'6. i bent down and tried to pick him up bss i stood up to see what brought s3ood to this floor. i carefully scanned him as he went into the meeting room and after a while he walked out with a file in his hand, he was saying things to his secretary that was walking behind him. she nodded her head and smiled at him, he managed a small smile and then walked away and pushed the elevator button. While he was waiting for the elevator to arrive he looked back and scanned the room, he seemed to be looking for something and my heart fluttered when i found out what it was.....because his eyes rested on my empty desk. I sighed...

"e777m...."

I jumped and looked behind me, it was a7mad. i nervously tucked a strand behind my ear.

"shga3da tsaween...?" he asked and looked at s3ood from behind the glass.

"emmm ga3d a6ba3 ilawraag...." i said.

"emmmm.....mbayin...." he nodded his head and looked at the papers scattered on the floor.

ooooo the papers !!!

i bent down and picked them up, then stood up and pulled the papers from the printer and shuffled through the pages to see if they were messed up or in order. a7mad was just standing there looking at me...amused with my distress ! As i was rearranging the papers i shot a look outside to see s3ood.

"lata3been nafsich....raa7...."

I shot an annoyed look at him ,"ana maknt ga3d...."

"zain....."

"na3am..."

"ratbay ilawrag oo ta3alay elmaktab...." he said as he got out.

maleeeee8 !!!!

After i stapled the papers i took a deep breath and headed to s3oods office....again !

i nervously knocked on the door and got in, and i saw a7mad on s3oods chair...i was confused for a second.

"dishay....." he said , "s3ood el7een b6ireeja 7ag ilma6ar....." he answered my question.

shyabee hatha....sh8i9ita ?!

I got in a handed him the papers, "gi3day shfeech wagfa..." he said. i looked at the chair and hesitated for a moment but then i sat. "emm emm eee zain...." he rated my work, i gave him a shrayik-ya3ne look..(he wasnt looking at me when i gave him this look btw;p)

"enzain entay fihamtay elle galich 3alai s3ood....mo9a7..."

"eee...laish,..."

"laa bas as2al...." he smirked, "akeed fihamtay ?" he repeated.

"eee fihamt...." i replied. malat 3alaik.

"lena ba36eech ilsho'3l el7een oo etha mofahma goleele..."

waaaaaaaaaaaaai....!!!!!

"fihamt !!!!" i said.

"ee laa bss at2akad..." he said as he handed me the papers. i just wanted to wipe that smirk sooo bad off of his face.

"emmm meta stath s3ood byirja3...?" i asked as i stood up.

"madry..cham youm yimkin....laish ilso2al...?"

"laa bss as2al...lena bs yirja3 enta sho'3lik y5ali9 hneee oo tro7..." i smirked.

He glared at me for a while, "3ayal ana ra7 a7ri9 enich tistamti3ain hal cham youm weyay...gabl ma s3ood eyeee oo aroo7...."

I sensed that there was another meaning behind what he just said, but my mind was really occupied and i really needed to go home so i chose not to reply and headed out. things arent really going well between me and a7mad...we just dont get along...! shlon bat7ammal halcham youm weyaaa...??? i know ena he's gonna make these couple of days a living hell for me.....adry !

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luv u;*

gidnight/morning ;)

Mulish (21)

2009-09-10T05:34:00.002+03:00

To all u sihheeeera ppl ;p

ENJOY ;)

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S3ood.....

t2ajilat 6ayartee 7ag bacher il'6ohor...madry galaw fee 5alal madry shno oo il6ayara ilthanya 3asas elyoum. rija3t ilbait oo kani elyoum glt daam ene fa'6ee ayee ilsharika. tikalamt ma3 a7mad oo raja3t ma3aaa cham sha'3la...oo glt 7ag ilsecertaira tnadeely zain. madry laish gitlaha chethee bsss knt abeeha t3rf ene hnee madry laish.....

etha yat agolaha ena ba36eeha sho'3l oo chetheee...ee eee hatha ele asaweee

5ala9t mn a7mad oo 6ila3 barra oo ana jabalt sho'3leee.

bsss b3d shwy wala asma3 9out ka3ab....ka3ab ?! rifa3t rasee foug wala zain. shlon ma7asait feeeha....

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Zain......

ma9adagt 3yoone ma38oola s3ood hneee...!!!! oho mogal besafir....laish maraaa7 ?? 3yoone bss kanat etdami3....t3arfoon ilsho3oor youm tkonoon 7adkom mstanseen oo mnkithir ma mistanseeen 3yoonkm etdami3....well hatha elle 9ar feene. misa7t dmoo3e oo la7a'6t ena ohwa lail7een momstaw3b ene hnee...fa mishait oo il'6ahir sima3 9out fa rifa3 rassaaa foug oo shafneee.

ista'3rab bil awal b3dain ibtisamlee oo wigaf.

"hala zain,.....gi3day gi3day...." he motioned for me to take a seat. i took a seat not being able to wipe the smile from my face, he studied me for a while.

"emmm masafart...?"

waiii3 zaaain y3ne sh'hal so2aaaal...akeed masafar y3ne sheno his ghost ga3d jidamiiii...!!!

He grinned at me, "entay eshaifa...."

"hehe emmm laaa 8a9di bs moknt betsafir...."

"eeee bss 9ar ta25eer 3ala il6ayara oo b3d shwy inshalla emsafir..."

"ahh y3ne lail7een btroo7...?"

"ee akeed baroo7 hatha sho'3l...."

i nodded my head silently. I looked up and saw him gazing at me with his lips curved up slightly in the edges, he was handsome, amazing....uhhhh i love him i just do. He didnt take his eyes off of mine, and i felt my head getting lighter, my body relax....and i lovingly smiled back at him. 3ady ag3ad 6ool ilyoum bss ashofa oo mamil.

abaaaai chinna ilmaw'6oo3 wayd 9aar 5azz....hehehe....i dont care i waited too long...i deserve it ;)

Bssss s3ood suddenly snapped back to reality and looked at his computer screen and adgusted his '3itra. He stared at his screen appearing like he was reading something bss i knew ena he was lost in thought. He closed his eyes shwy and when he opened them, he cleared his throat a few times and looked up at me. But not with the way he was moments earlier...it was a look that lacked emotion, a look that reminded me of my earlier days in the company. the look that everyone in the company knows him for. I was confused for a second, shfeee ??

"ummm.....ana nadaitich hnee 3ashan a36eech hal awraag...ana fahamt a7mad 3anhom ooo ohwa ra7 ygolich ilbajee...bss hatholee mohimeen oo lazm t5al9eenhom..oo abee ykoon mratab oo kil shay ykoon kamil....oo...." he kept talking but he wasnt making any eye contact now, he was just pulling papers from his desk and arranging them together as he spoke....i looked at him trying to understand shilli 9arla faj2a oo laish mora'6ee y6ali3ne. I realized that he stopped talking and he was looking at me,

"hmm...?" i said.

"ga3da tsim3een shagool.....?" he stared at me irritated.

"ummm ee eee...." i nervously replied.....its the old same look that i hated.

He didnt buy it, "zain ana mn9iji ga3d atkalam....ymkn a7mad maygdar yfahmich 3adl lena oho b3d ydeed 3ala halshay faa abeech tintabhain....moo sar7aana...entay lazm tsmi3een shagool lene ana bamshee b3d shwy...." he was interupted by a phone call. He picked it and it looked like he was talking to a7mad telling him to photo some papers and to come to the office. IFFFFF 7ada mowagta hal a7mad. He shut the phone and looked back at me, " el7een ra7 a3eedlich oo abeech tsmi3eene 3adil...." he almost looked like he was scolding me....shfeee faj2a he snapped 3alai ?!

He talked again and blabbered about this paper work that i had to do and that it must be blah blah blah and that i have to blah blah blah......orders orders orders....its like hes the old s3ood all over again. I was irritated with him, with the way he was talking to me.....and i thought that he changed, and that i saw something in him....but it turns out that hes never gonna change.

"shfeech e6al3eeny chethee...?" he suddenly said. i realized that i was looking at his with my head tipped shwy to the side, like i was analyzing his personality.

"laa walashay.....kamil..." i grimly replied. He took a look at me not satisfied with my reply, but continued 7achya anyways.

"oo bss hathaa...."

"ok fihamt...." i shot back, "agdar aroo7 el7een...." i said.

"uhh ee...." he looked around, thinking if there was anything more he would like to say, " ee tigdereen tro7een...."

i stood up glaring at him and gave him my back and walked but he called me, and i slowly turned around giving him a what-now-look.

"matabeen ta5theen ilawraag y3ne..."

"ee nisait 7aram y3ne...." i walked to him, took the papers and turned to leave again.

"zain entay shfeech..??" he stood up m3a9ib 3ala nafseety weyaa.

"shfeene ?? mafeene shay....enta shayif feene shay....?" i shot back. He walked up to me,

"tikalimay 3adil zain..." he warned me.

"ga3da atkalam 3adl....si2altny shfeech oo kani radait...."

He looked at me, and although the look he gave me sent shivers throughout my body mn kithir makanat t5ari3 bss i stood there none the less and stared back.

"hathaa mo isloob tkalmeeny fee....ilmafrou'6 t3arfeen halshay el7een...."

"ahh 9ij...shlon tabeene akalmik...stath s3ood...."

"zaain..." he warned me.

"na3am..."

"oo b3dain weyaach entay...." he raised his voice.

"ana oo b3dain weyay wala enta..." i shot back angrily, " tawamsaa3 ti'67ak weyay b3dain faj2a tkalimne ib borood...." he stayed quiet. "mo 3ala kaifik..tkalimny 3ala mazajik...." 7asait ena 9adree ma'3moot, oo ilbachyaa shwy oo ti6la3, i swallowed and continued still furious with him, "tsafir 7ag asabee3 b3dain youm trid t3amilny chetheee....." i teared up, i blinked and a tear fell on my cheek, s3ood 6ab3an wala kilma bss sakit y6ali3ne. "ma3iraftlk s3ood....walashay asawee yi3jibik....bss tinti8id....oo tzif....b3dain tit'3ayir oo t9eer chinik wa7d thany...wa7d yit'3ashmar oo ysawlif oo yi'67ak...." i cried, but i wiped away my tears quickly i dont want him to see me crying. i was controlling my breaths, and wiping my tears......i looked back at him after a while, "laish sakit haaa....tikalam ...." i burst out. He looked at me, and he looked like he was looking for the right words to say but he came up with none, his lips moved as if to speak but nothing came out. And i was too infuriated with him by this point that i turned to leave. i stopped suddenly and faced him again, "tadree shilmoshkila...." i said, he looked up at me, "elmishkila ene 7abaitik.....**gasp** ....bss ....bss enta el7een wa7d thany...oo ana magdar at7amal chethee...magdar " and as soon as i let it all out, i cried...i mean really cried...kil ille bgalbi 6ala3ta...oo mahamni if i was crying jidama, in his office, blsharika.....i just cried letting it all out.

I then felt two hands close around my arms, i looked up and it was s3ood. i couldnt read his face cause i had tears in my eyes and my vision was blurred, i blinked several times, he reached up and wiped one tear from my face gently....ever so gently. His eyes displayed a myraid of emotions, he was concerned, i could see that but that wasnt enough...thats not what i want. i turned my face to the side letting his arm drop to the side. But he didnt stop there, he reached up again and turned my face towards his , i could see that he was struggling, he didnt know what to do, how to react, what to say...but i understood him...i understood everything from the way he was looking at me, they way he kept wiping my tears.....the way he was holding me.

"ana...e7m...ana asif..." he told me and his eyes were sincere. I shut my eyes, hes apoligizing thats all he can do can he....thats all he's gonna do...and thats all he will do...

But then i felt something touch my lips, i froze, and opened my eyes and pulled back shwy, he pulled back too..his eyes melting into mine....and i leaned in again, so did he. He kissed me, his kiss achingly soft and tender...which suprised me a little, it was perfect and i didnt realize that i was still tearing up until he pulled away alittle and wiped my tears, "shhhh....shhh..." he whispered and kissed me again.

"a7ibik..." i said. He pulled back and looked at me....his face...shocked shwy not able to comprehend what i just said. I waited for him to say it back....he was about to speak when a knock sounded on the door. We both stared at the door then at eachother. He stepped away from me and the door opened. it was a7mad.

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luv u ;8

gdmorning and gdnight ;)

Mulish (20)

2009-09-09T05:06:00.000+03:00

9/9/09---7ada 3ajibny iltaree5 ;D

dedicated to pearla ;p itjanini

ENJOY ;)

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S3ood.....

rkabat zain sayarat'ha oo ra7at. oo ana rikabt sayartee oo mishait, bs gabl maroo7 3a6ait a7mad na'6ra. 9ij 7ayawan oo mayist7y 3ala wayha....y5iz elbnaya ashkara! walla law mo 3an ilfashlaa chaan haza2ta oo 3alamta shlon y6ali3 banat ilnas bss warai 6ayara oo lazim ala7ig. fa el7een kani blma6ar ga3d blgate 3ashan b3d shwy ra7 arid paris.

awal marra at'thayag chethee wa7s enne bsss malait mn ilshi'3l oo abee arja3. 9ij ene 6awalt halmara bilsafra bsss ham y3ne momin3awaydi enne awlah 3al deera chethe. ana 7aa6 ibbalee a5ali9 sho'3lee mbacher oo asawee ilmeetings elle 3alai bsir3a oo wara ba3a'6 3ashan ard ilkuwait. arid 7ag ilsharika, maktabe, ijtima3aty, zain, duwaniya, chalet, rabi3, zain.....

la7'6a shfeene ga3d agool zain...? ok mankir ene wilaht 3alaiha...laaa mowilaht y3ne....ta3awadt 3alaiha oo ene a6afirha oo chethee bsss moma38oola ykoon akthar mn chethee laa laaa .

bss elyoum youm shift'ha magdrt asheel 3aini minha, chinna awal mara ashoofha.

zain awal wa7da y9eer fene chethee 7awalainha 3ogob.....3ogob.....

e7m.....yalla 5al agoom adsh il6ayara.

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Zain.......

laish besafr mara thanya.....oo meta byirja3...laykoon be6awl mithil awal marra ! lena 5ala9 magdar at7amala b3eed 3ani..abee yirja3 abee agoola ena a7iba...laa laa magdar...yimkn yimkn....yimkn may7is chetheee tijaheee...ma3ina shlon kan yshofnee elyoum...ahhhhh shlon ibtisamlee.....shlon ykalimni ....a7is ena y7ibne....bsss mani mt2akda oo lazm at2akad, ohwa bsss law y5al9 sh'3la oo yrja3 !

ma9adg ene 7abait s3ood ibhal sir3a ! yimkin lene shayfa shay fee ma7ad shafa '3aira....elle oho sha59eeta il9ijia ele wayd nas may3arfoon 3anha bss ana a3rf....oo iktishaft ena insan 6ayib mooo malee8 oo mtkabir mithil maknt athin oo wayd nas 7asbalhom chethee....

y'6a7k oo shwya maynoon meta makan mazaja 7ilo.....oo yarabi shkithir astanas youm y9eer chethee lene jad a7s ene ma7'6oo'6a

**RING RING**

i looked at my phone and saw a number and i realized who it belonged to. i deleted it bss akeed lail7een 7af'6ita....its 5alid's number. bsss shyabee laish daag.....mokafee elle sawwaaa....shyabeee...milyon mara 7igart telephonata oo his messages..meta ra7 yifham enna 5ala9 we're over oo ena there is no us ! i chose to ignore him like i always do oo sifa6t sayarte oo di5alt ilbait.

i talked to my mom shwy , you know tabe t3rf meno shift, shlon il3rs, il3aroosa etc....

sowalif 7areem ;p 5ala9t b3dain si3adt foug, i took a shower oo i wore my pajamas and got into bed. i am really not in the mood of going to the sharika tomorrow. mali5lg shougo oo ham mabee ashoof rig3at wayh a7mad ! abaaaai shlon kan y5izne elyoum 9ij mayst7y 3ala wayha, 7asait s3ood shwy we6iga...lena jad bayi3ha...shd3wa y5iz chethee ! waaaai s3ood meta yrja3 bss oo aftak mn hal a7mad !

The next day

I woke up tired, 9ij makan li5lg aroo7 ilsharika bss i have to lena ams mar7t with mariams wedding as an excuse. i wore a simple navy blue dress and headed to work. i arrived there, grabbed my coffee and a muffin and headed to my desk. i was really sleepy and i munched on to my muffin and savored the taste of the blueberries as i gazed into my computer screen. i read the note that was sent to me on my screen telling me to head to s3oods office.

currently a7mads i whispered to myself. i ignored it and kept on eating my muffin and drank my coffee peacefully. i saw a notepad on my desk and i shuffled through the pages mindlessly, i was soooo not awake....when something caught my eye. i turned back a few pages until i reached a page....its a lined page with my sloppy handwriting filling it but it was special.....this page was special...i smiled and reached for the top corner and traced the smiley face with my finger tips...the smiley face s3ood drew to me on my first meeting.

**ring ring** the phone on the table rang....i picked it up and it was the secretary.

"alooo....hala...emm ....uhhhh laaa mawi9alny shay 3ala ilcomputer....ee akeed....ok kani yaya..."

what a lier i am. i took a sip from my coffee and dragged myself to the elevator.....out of the elevator and into the secretary's office.

"ahlan..." she beamed. i smiled back waiting for her to hand me my work so i could go back down to my desk and gaze at my screen for the rest of the day with no interruptions. But she motioned for me to get in. i whined and she shook her head and smiled even more. she knows ena mashtihee a7mad. i knocked, opened the door and stepped in. a7mad was right infront of me, he excused himself and stepped out of the office.

haw shfee hatha..? el7een ana yayatla oo yi6la3 ! ohhhh well i'll wait for him inside....

i took a step into the office, closed the door and turned.........

and i couldnt hold back my tears.

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luv u ;***

gudnight ;)

Randomsss :)

2009-09-07T08:04:00.003+03:00

-post 18 mulish is up 7ag elle they didnt notice ;p

-wilaht 3al randoms walla ;p

-ok soo rmi'6aaan sooo shay 6abee3y sahar oo noum oo bal3a...sahar oo noum oo bal3a and soo on. anam sa3a thiman il9b7 oo agoom 3al 5ams oo sometimes later b3d ;p noumi 7ada mla5ba6 3yazt wana a3adil fee kaifa 3ad ana malait 9ara7attan

- inshalla atabi3 mosalsal wa7d y3ne....lena matabi3 w.a.l.a.s.h.a.y ! bsss bo8tada oo bonabeel oo d tube sometimes oo bas (may3tabron mosalsalat bss still....6awfolee;p) abee ashoof ilhadama ymdi7ona ...asm3 nas ytkalimon 3an om ilbanat oo '3aira oo kilmaa abee agool batabi3 matabi3 lena well...im kaboot its that simple ;p

-abaaaaaaai let me tell u 3an mosalsalat 7aleema.....hatheee shimbad3aaaaa....shimhawlaaaa in kan ib wayiha aw malabis'ha ! abaaaai jad jad '6aaaim...ashfi8 3alaiha...! y3ne 3ajibha elle tilbisa...oo ila9baa'3 ele t7i6hom ibwayiha....wala youm 9ayda il7araka oo t7i6 barooka....y3neeeee ewwwww waaaaai3 fee ahlag mn chethee ?!?! ana ash'had ena mako mo'6ee3y bitsik 3alaiha oo 3ala mya3at'ha gi6a3 !

- ooo shoojiiii walla hathee salfa thanya.....ana mofahma elfanatig elle tsaweeha ibsha3arha....y3ne heloooooo yatrib6eena aw tfileeena moo elathnain ma3ba3'6 ...oo the color i mean..seriously...shno hathaa..chinna mfar'3a goo6y bleech 3ala ras'ha....oo i dont get when they put "fayiz enta fayiiiz fayiz walla fayiz...." ok oo ba3daiiiin....aw..."5isar 5isar 5isar 5isar..." ok istaw3ab ilcaller mn awal marra laish t'6aygoon 5ilga oo t7i6oonla a song ena 5isar ?!

ohhh well.....bss i have to admitt she is fun to watch y3ne 7aram (la7a'6taw b3d ma6abait feha;p)

-abaaai 7adi 3ashanaaaa ! abeee a glass of cold icy water alaaaa yummmmm

-ilnas brmi'6an swagat'hm mo bas tyeeb ilyahad....y3ne gabl ilfo6oor ib no9 sa3a chetheee hatha ilwagt elle yasogoon ibhabal bss 3ashan yla7gon 3al fo6oor....y3ne 5o enta 9aym 6ool ilyoum 7abakat 3ala hal cham digeega ....

-ommi halcham youm habatlaha 3ala kilmat "exageration"...titkalam titkalam b3dain faj2a tgool "waaw exageration" oo i pause oo y9eer feene shako looool hehe...;p

-mara knt wagfa bilisharaa ok...oo it was 7amra obviously...tawa shabbat fa wigaft elsayara elle warai elthahir kanaw in a hurry wala shay oo 3a9ab ene wigaft soooo gam yshakl 3alai hirnaat...oo i was like enaa "ok laimeta y3ne..." ooo mora'6eee ywagf fa balsaht a'67ak y3ne shfee hatha a6l3 mn ilisharaa oo and3m bss 3shan 7a'6rita yamshee...walla madry shlon 9ayreen ilnas ;p oooo eee wala sometimes akoon wagfa 3al laffa oo abee alif bss fe sayarat oo elle warai ma3nda patience oo yshaklon hrnat y3neee heloooo mlg3d tshof fee sayarat shlon a6l3 balla...;p

-cinema in ramadham...umm not a good idea killish ! at 8 marait my cuz oo ri7na avenues manaby ntsawg lena lay3a chabidna mn ilsoog mn ilsifar oo manaby nakil lena tawna mtfa6reen faa glna ndish a movie...93dna foug oo since it was 8:30 di5lna filim hal7aza kan tawa mbalsh...faa gi3adna sina we chose a place to sit in...wayid fee amakin tifilsif ;p we took our tickets and popcorn oo di5alna oo 3ady bss sitta blcinema including us. oo the movie was crapy..klshwy altifit 3ala my cuz oo agolaha "ni6la3?" bss n6l3 shnswy fa gi3adna oo kamalna ilfilim il5yaaas ewwww....7atta mat'thakar isma mnkithir makan araf....sooo noo cinema ib rmi'6an na9ee7a.

-feee shay ana mafhama.....oo no offense to those who do it lena adry ena wayid ysawoona...bss mafham laish y3algoon their bb ib a strap around their neck....y3ne shno look at me i have a bb ? 5ayif layinbag ? y'6ee3 ? shd3waaa y3nee....just dont hang it around your neck oo 5ala9...

-sharikat zain na9abeen !

-da3ayat viva with the boy 3abdualla hatha y3ne wai3 how cheesy...hal satathon anna 3abdulla sayad5ol ilmal3ab ? inshalla yt3archab ! hal satathon ana 3abdulla sayosajil hadaf ? 9adgny mayhimni etha infajrat fee ilkora.....!its just a lame idea...7adha oo elle y9aw6oon r naas 7adhom fa'6yeen...9ara7attan y3ne

-da3ayat zain....the song....emmm no comment...lena i hate these kinds of songs oo i have to indure the da3aya everytime they put it for god knows how long !

-da3ayat wa6aniya...the guys...simply...boring !

-(a7s tgoloon shno y3jibha hathee looool....;p bss 9ij wala mako creative da3ayat)

-abee ryoog...ma3ina im not a breakfast person killish bsss abee 5obiz irany....chai 7aleeb...pancakes....waffles...scrambled eggs...etc.... yalla ma3alaaai nin6ir nin6ir...lena i tried to make my so7oor once chethee chinna breakfast oo madry shlon it didnt feel right ymkn lena mako sunshine...t'hagon tl3ab dor ilshams....hmmmm

- i hate ninjas walla i just really do !

-oboy yga3dna gabl ilimsaak etha naymeen oo ysharibna maaai ayam gabl bss el7een maysaweele lena yadre ene ga3da soooo a7i6 glass 3nd rasee 3ashan gabl ilimsaak ashrab...oo 3ad giltaw iste3aab kaboot....et9eer 5 am b3dain astw3b oo anaam oo ana mayta mn il3a6ash...;p thats why thakartkm blpost a5er shay 3shan tshriboon hehe

-knt bakamil bsss di5t oo chiinna chinna yabeelaa noumaaaaaaaa ;p eee 7adaaaa

yalla goodnight...or goodmorning should i say ;p

Mulish (19)

2009-09-07T03:12:00.001+03:00

To all of u amaaaaazing readers ;))

ENJOY ;)

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Zain.........

Ok so its the day of the wedding. ahhhhhhh chinna 3rsee mo 3rs'ha ana bro7eee mtwatra madry laish allah y3eenha ehya ! i went to my closet and chose to go with the black dress. its a vintage looking dress, y3ne strapless and it ends just below the knees. i checked the watch and hurried to my car lena killish mo mal i get late for my hair and makeup appointment.

i reached the salon and i was just on time, so they started with my hair right away. i decided to go for the retro look, so my long light brown hair was done into these glamorous waves and swept to the side. 6ila3t mn ilsalon and i headed to MAC to apply my makeup since i suck at it. dashait da5il oo the woman took me into this room and asked me how i would like my makeup done.

"emmmm abee ykoon 7ada simple y3ne a thick black eyeliner for the eyes with mascara oo a daring red lipstick for the lips."

She started applying the makeup and i would stop her every now and then just to make sure ina mo '3amij aw wayid....just to make sure you know ;p After i was maked up and done i headed home. i put on my black dress and decided go for my Gina heels and clutch, to add some life y3ne to my dress.

It was 9 o'clock and i was already late so i decided to head to the wedding right now. b3d mawi9alt di5alt il8aa3a oo i heard the music and the laughter and the women in all ages dancing on the dance floor. i took my shawl off and walked in, i looked for an empty place to sit in and i sat. Fee wayid a'3any knt abee agoom argi9 3alaihom bss mama3ai a7ad ilmshkila oo shno maby argi9 bro7eee ast7y.

"zain..??"

i looked up and saw fara7 wa7da ma3ana blsharikam "ahlaaaan shlonich,,,?" salamt oo chethee.

"tamaaam walla...laish g3da hnee.....kil ele blsharika ga3deen hnaak..." she motioned to a table to the left.

"ahhh 9j maknt adry hehe...."

"ee yalla gomay ta3alay..."

I stood up and took my stuff and headed over to the table. Salamt 3al banat oo gi3adna sowalif oo chethee...oooo ham riga9t....a5eeeeeeeraaaaan ma3 fara7 y7lailha hehe.

At 10:15 chethee i think d5alat the bride oo kanat tyanin maryoooon tshawig, mbayin 3alaiha she was nervous oo 6ab3an she is with milyon wa7da g3da e6ali3ha mn ras'ha laaai ryoolha. she saw our table and i flashed her a smile, my eyes started getting teary and so i dabbed them carefully with tissue 3shan my makeup may5tirib hehe.

"ahlan zain...." said shoug with her mbafaf hair....ew!

"ah hala hala..."

"ya7aila mariam mochethee..."

"emmm" i nodded looking at mariam 3al kosha.

"ana ra7 akoon chethee soon inshalla...." she smiled. i looked at her for a while,, shook my head and looked away. At that time they announced inna ilriyayeel bedoshoon so ilmt7ajbat got up to wear their 7ijabs oo e7na 3ashan n7i6 our shawls on etc....

After a while chethee when everyone got settled we started to hear the men's voices outside the door oo shlon kanaw yzifoon ilm3ris....i love this part. the doors opened and jassim walked in with the bisht oo shakla shlon yshawig y7lailaaa ohwa oo mariam. bsss what was weard ohwa inna 3adattan ilm3ris's family members come after him bss halmara kanaw his friends oo chethee ham waraa....shakilhom makanaw yaboon bss jassim iltifat oo madry sheno galohom oo '67akaw oo yaw waraa. i smiled and looked at mariam oo the way she was looking at jassim was soo sweet but that was interrupted by shoug's annoying voice,

"abaaai...abaaaai...."

ifffff.....!!!!

i ignored her and continued watching mariam.

"abaaaai imbala ohwaaa.....ohwaaaa....s3ood ya !"

shno ?!?!

I looked at her, "shno...?"

bsss she was lost ib 3alamha il5aa9 o0 masmi3atni, i followed her the direction she was looking and all i could see were men in their dishdashas, probably jassim's friends aw family. i was about to turn my head when i caught something....i looked back and focused....there was a man that had his back turned but it looked oh-so familiar to me...and i couldnt look away. He walked forward but i couldnt see him properly since he was talking to someone....ohh i think its faisal, one of the accountants ib our company, but who is he talking to ...and who is this man....?

"abaai walla walla s3ood....shiftaaa...!!!" shoug nearly squeeled. i looked at her,

"malada3y t3aleen 9outich layisma3ch a7ad...." i glared at her, she was acting like a child and she was attracting attention. i looked around me and fee cham wa7da kanaw yshofoonha...9ara7attan iftishalt ana...6ala3t jidam wala muneera ham wa7da ma3ana blsharika ga3da jidam motioned or me to come sit beside her. ana ma9adagt lena 9ara7attan magdar ag3d digeega b3d yam halmaynoona. i grabbed my clutch and stood up, wanted to get as far away from shoug as i possibly can. i walked around the tables and reached muneeras table, i smiled to her and set my clutch on the table, i pulled the chair to sit down and looked up.......

and my heart stopped !!!!!

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s3oood.....

ilyoum ilthany rikabt il6ayara oo rj3t ildeera. wi9alt ilfayir chethee fa radait ilbait oo nmt. ilyoum ilthany elle ohwa elyoum, g3dt 3al '6ahari chethee knt mtlayish bss gmt oo ri7t ilsharika 3asas adawer ilawraag ille a7tajhom. knt ana 7a6hom ibmaktabee bildirj ille bss mofta7a 3indi ana. 5athait ilawraag oo raja3t shwyat ashyaa2 ma3 ilsecertaira. shift hal a7mad hatha elle yaybeena bedalee, shaklaaa zain y3rf ilsh'3l bsss madry y3ne marti7tla wayd 7asaita insaan '3areeb shwy....aw ymkn ana ga3d afakir wayid. yalla ma3alai bss a5al9 sho'3lee arja3 oo hatha yithlif.

yimkn knt ashoof zain bsss galatle ilsecertaira inha ma5tha ilyoum ijazaa yimkin lena 3rs mariam oo jassim faa sowalif ilbanaat oo ena mayadeehom oo chetheee. ishti'3alt shwy oo 3al thiman chethee 6ila3t mn ilsharika. rija3t ilbait oo glt 7ag roo7e aroo7 abarik 7ag jassoom daam enne fa'6ee oo 6ayartee ilfayir. 5athaitle shower 3al saree3 oo libast oo tiba5at oo ri7t il3rs.

"mabroook ...." gtlaa oo in9idam youm shafneee...baraktlaa oo chethee oo g3dna shwy sowalf b3dain gmt oo r7t 3nd ilrabi3 asolif weyahom. 3al 11 chethee 6ila3na 3ashan inzifaa lai il8a3aaa. wi9alna hnaak oo lazzam 3alaina jassoom enna ndish...ana knt rafi'6 ilfikraa bsss lazzam 3alaina kilina jassoom oo dishaina.

i7na namshee oo ana knt asolif ma3 faisal lena 9ara7attan maby ashoof il7areem mo7ilwa y3ne. knt asolif weyaa wala faisal ygoole, "shoof shoof 3afya shougoo ilmaynoona shitsawee...."

lafait wayhee bss mashift shoug.....magidart ashoofha lena 3ainee mara7at elle 3ala zain. shakilha kaan '3air...y3ne....y3nee....'3air. kanat tamshee o shakilha shwy m3a9baa..hahaha shay 6abee3y 7ag zain...

ra7at 7ag 6awla 7a6at a'3ra'6ha oo rfa3at ras'gha oo 3ainha yat ib 3ainee. wgifat bss e6ali3nee 7ag fatraaa mn9adma...b3dain ibtasmatly oo nazilat ras'ha oo g3idat....ana maknt 7aas ibroo7e bss knt mbtisim oo maknt amshee knt wagf mokani...laai maa faisal kalamni, "hahaha shift'ha....madry shlon tisht'3l 3indina blsharikaa....yalla imsh imsh..."

"haa ee eee....."radait 3alai oo ana a9lan mashift shoug oo mishait. wi9al jassoom 3al kosha oo baraknala oo iltifat 3ashan a6la3. oo ana mashee 3ashan a6la3 magidart oo shift zain ...ibtisamtlaha oo 6ila3t. welaht 3ala sowalifha walla oo miyanat'ha....

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Zain.....

waaaaai yagalbiiiii 3ady 3ady kan yogaf youm ibtisamleee.....waaii jad jad welaht 3alaik ya s3ood...a5eeran rija3t....a5eeraan ra7 aftak mn hal a7mad..oo nrid mithil gabil...tzifny oo azifik....t3a9bny oo a3a9bik.

***RING RING ****

My phone flashed on the table, it was my mom so i picked it up,

"alooo hala yuma...madry walla....ahh 9ij sa3a 12....ummm ok el7een a6la3....inshalla ok yalla bye..."

Sakart iltelephone ooo salamt 3al banat oo 6ila3t. mala7a'6t ena ilwagt 9ar mt2a5er 3aaad waaai3 il7een youm a6la3 akeed ilriyayeel wagfeen barra abaaaai fashlaaa. i held my shawl securely around me and stepped out. i looked at the ground as i walked and went down the stairs, and was out. i handed the valet my card so he would bring my car and i stood.

My phone rang again, it was my mom...again, "alooo hala yumaa...." i said and the man infront of me paused shwy and turned around.....s3ood !! i stared at him and smiled...thats all i was able to do...i missed him soo much, "emmm sheno..? ee ee kani kani yaya..ok bye..." i shut the phone and looked up at s3ood again.

"shlonich zain...." he said and looked at me like it was the first time he ever saw me, he gazed at me, and i was lost of words. "zaina ....mo zaina...?" he sujested grinning.

"hehehe zaina...oo enta shlonik..."

"ana zain...la ana s3ood bss ena ana zain..." kaan ga3d ysta3bi6, i laughed 3ala sa5afta. "shlon ilsho'3l weyaach....a7mad shlona zain..."

"uhhh....walla..." i wanted to continue but a7mad showed up....unfortunately.

"ahhh zain...mnawra mnawra..." he smiled. i forced a smile on my face and noticed the way s3ood looked at him, regarding his comment. "alla yhaneehom mariam oo jassim laygeen 3ala ba3a'6..." he said as he examined me from head to toe. i gulped nervously.

"a7mad !" s3oods voice came sharp and clear. "ana 7a6aitlk shwayat awraag 3al 6awla blmaktab abeek bacher troo7 traji3hom oo tsalimhom 7ag sharikat KOWF lena bacher lazm nwa9ilihom yahom...."

"ahh eee ee 5ala9 bacher ana awa9la wala yhimik...." he replied.

"madam..? madam..?" the valet guy called. He brought my car.

"ahh mashkoor......" gtlaa oo eltifat 3ala s3ood, why would he ask a7mad to look over the papers etha rija3 ? "emm 7amdila 3ala salamtik stath s3ood...." i said.

"mayi7tay tgoleenla lena msafir b3d shwy...." said a7mad. And i saw s3ood clench his teeth...i looked at him,

"ah btsafir..?"

"ee ma5ala9t sho'3lee..."

"ahh..." i looked down.

"a7mad mawjood hnee...." he said and i noticed that he didnt like saying that but he had to say it anyway. a7mad nodded his head and stared at me.

i took a deep breath, "emm ok...bsalama inshalla..."

"madam ? madaaam ?" called the valet guy again.

"emm lazm aroo7....bye..." i said and got into my car. i drove off and once i was sure that s3ood wouldnt be able to see me.....is when i allowed the tears to flow freely.

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luv u ;***

shirbaw maai gabl ilimsaaak ;p

Mulish (18)

2009-09-04T22:43:00.000+03:00

really reaaaaalllllyyyy short post...yaa i know bss sry walla...

ENJOY ;)
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S3ood......

gmt oo r7t fita7t ilbab wala mako a7ad. 6alait barra wala fee wa7da ga3da tamshee bsr3a....ymkin '3al6ana aw shay..mayindara. sakkait ilbab oo rj3t atabi3 ilfilim naa6er ilakil yo9al.

**RING RING**

gmt oo shilt iltelephone, "alooo.......alooo.....alooo..." ma7ad ga3d yrid. "alooo ?" 7awalt a5er marra bss ma7ad g3d yrid wala asik iltelephone. shisalfa awal shay wa7d y6ig 3alai ilbab...el7een wa7d ydig 3alai.....

jabalt awragee mara thanya wala asma3 ilbab gmt oo ri7t fachaita wala room service

a5eeraaaaan offfff 7adi yo3an ashkara babali3...!

di5alt da5l oo akalt oo ana ashti'3il 3al awraag 7ag ijtima3 bacher. Fee awraag kanat nag9atne wala adig 3ala ilsecertaira blkuwait.

"aloooo....hala shlonich...b5ir tamam...eee laaa bss abeech e6arsheenle awraag ilee malot ilthird quarter...ee malot halsharika elle bfaransa....ee 6arsheele yahom fax el7een...a6arishlich ra8am ilfax message ok yalla bye.."

b3d rob3 sa3a chethee wala adig 3alaiha.." aloo...haa wainhom..laish ma6arashteehom lail7een ? shno ? sheno y3ne matadreen wainhom......dawreehom a7tajhom...shno ma3ndich ni95a 3anhom blcomputer.....enzain laish ana mogayilich lazim u backup kilshay....enzain enzain dawreehom 3adil ana b3d 10 digayig ati9il ..."

sakkart iltelephone oo dawart marathanya blfile malee ymkin madawart 3adil...bss makohom ana mt2akd ene mayibt'hom ...offfff ana shlon raa7 3an balee...bsss ilmoshkila enne a7tajhom 7ag ijtima3 bacher wala magdar asaweee ilmeeting...shlon aroo7 oo ma3ndy shay akalimhm 3anna lene a7taj ilawraag....

rasee ballash y9adi3 oo 5athaitle panadol.... oo dagait 3ala ilsecertaira mara thanya "haaa legaiteehom...? eee...eee...eee...enzain oo shakoo ohwa ya5th'hom...? enzain oo kalamtay stath a7mad...? ee ee 9a7...huffffff....inzain ana at9arraf....yalla femala..."

el7eeen shsawy 7ag bacher....?????? shift sa3tee wala ilsa3a 7pm hnee fa dagait 3ala louise ,
" mr.louise hello ...hahahha yes im fine thankyou....ofcoarse i enjoyed it...yes well i called you to talk to you about tomorows meeting..yes is there a chance that i could reschedule it for a few days...no theres just an urgent matter that i need to take care of....yes i understand...but this
matter cant be delayed .... ok ? thankyou very much.....soo when is the next meeting going to be....? 2 days ? ohh ok then...i'll see you in two days and we'll get this meeting over with ....send my apoligies to the company...and thankyou....takecare..."

youmain mayimdeeny....bss a7san mn walashay...zain minna a9lan inna '3ayyar wagt ilmeeting.

iti9alt 3al secertaira, "Aloo...hala eee 5ala9 3ady ana at9arraf....bas abeech t7ijzeele tathkira 7ag ilkuwait bacher ana 6ayer ...oo elyoum ille waraa raad ib awal 6ayara....ok yala femala..."

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luv u ;***

Mulish (17)

2009-09-03T03:00:00.000+03:00

rmi'6ajn has been keeping me busy...ay wagt akoon free akeed i'll post ;)

oo for bo3ojoob hahahahahahahhaahahaaaa u r madry shagoool ;p my commentors have gone crazy ;p hehe

ENJOY ;)

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Zain....

"emmmmm...walla sho'3lich 3ajibny...." nodded a7mad as he inspected my work. i gave him a weak smile. bssss 5ala9 la3at chabdi....9arlee sbo3ain 3ala hal minwaaaal bssss magdar at7ammal. hes just toooooo nice...bs yimda7....kilshay 3nda 7ilo....! i just miss s3ood so much and its been a long time and i just really miss him....abee yirja3 oo abee hatha ila7mad yroo7 oo abee kilshay yrid mithil makan. im going crazy walla....walla. "oo 5ala9 tgdireen tro7een el7een...a6arishlich sh'3lich b3dain..." he beamed at me. i got up and i could feel him inspecting my figure as i went.

He is nice...bsss 3yoona zay8a, bsss y5iz hes creepy shwy walla. the way he looks at me sends shivers throughout my body. Hes about 30 years old, and unmarried.

6ila3t mn maktaba oo shift ilsecretary wala tibtisimleee..."zain ! ta3eee ta3eeee...." she motioned for me to go to her.

" haaa shno.." i went over to her.

"tawa tkalamt ma3 s3ood..."

"9IJ ?! Waina...meta beyeee....." i was suddenly hyper.

"heheehee...ohwa lail7een ibfrance oo ilsh'3l ma5ala9 oo mo3arif meta berid...."

"emmmm...ok..." that didnt help, i want to know meta byirja3...

"bsssssss....." she smiled at me.

"shno..."

"sa2alne 3anik....." my heart fluttered, " oo sa2al etha kintay mrta7a ma3 a7mad wala la2..."

****sigh****

"ehmmmm oo b3d..."

"oo kan bedo y2ool sheeee bss inshi'3al..."

I nodded my head and thanked her as i headed to my office with the stupidest grin on my face. he didnt forget about me, and hes surely thinking about me thats why he asked. waaaaai how sweeeet...yabe y3rf etha mrta7a ma3 a7mad. ooooo the truth is ena a7mad is good workwise bsss as a person hes mysterious and he kindof creeps me out...hes nothing like s3ood. I just want him back....!!!! like......NOW!

I sat there daydreaming 3an what will happen the next time i will see s3ood when my thoughts were interrupted by mariam.

"hiiiiiii..."

"ohh hiiii..wainich entay kila ma5tha the day off..."

"hehe b3d ga3d atjahaz oo chethee...hehe...." he blushed, "sooo entay shlonich oo shlon hal a7mad weyach.."

"hufffffff malee8...bss an6ir s3ood eyee 3ashan hatha yroo7 oo arja3 7ag ilroutine nafs gabl..."

"offff lahaldaraja..."

"eeeeee...."

"emmmmm...." she replied lost in thought...then to change the subjuct she said, "goolay b3d cham youm shbe9eer...."

"emm shno...."

"3irseee...!!!!"

"ooo eeee 9aaaaa7.....aham shay raa7 3an balee ina its what...like two days away "

"emmm eeee 7adi mtwatra...."

"laaa 3ady inshalla kilshay y9eer ok.....waza3na ilbi6a8at oo hathe a5er bi6a8a elle ehya lich " she handed it over to me and i scaned it, "kil youm agool ba36eech yaha ansa hehe..."

"yalla allah yhaneekom...." i smiled but thinking that i shoulf find myself a dress and fast.

"mashkoora....3a6ait ilkil bi6a8at'hm hnee oo jassim kallam ilriyayeel oo chethee oo dag 3ala s3ood 3ashan yi3zima..."

"s3ood.....?! laish bekoon mawjood...?"

"madry walla ohwa jassim dag oo gallaaa just incase he comes gabl soo fashla may3rf....faa gaallaaa bsss ma3ti8id eyee lena gal 7ag jassim ina mash'3ool wayd..."

"ahh...weee 7asafa"

"eee walla..." her phone rang and i guess it was jassim 'cause she blushed, "emmmm akalmich b3dain..bye..." she said as she got up.

I stared at the card in my hand for a while then got back to work. when i got home i scanned through my closet for a party dress to wear. i was stuck between the elegant black dress and the daring scarlet dress...contrasts i know ....i stared at both of them for a while and just couldnt make up my mind so i just left it to the day of to decide.

i took a shower then got into bed, as i lay there on the soft pillow and wrapped by the soft blanket around me..i couldnt help but think about s3ood. i miss him soooo much...3ady etha shifta i hug him mnkithir manee mshtagatla.i took a deep breath and admitted something ive been denying soo hard these past few days to myself but i cant lie to myself any longer.......i am inlove with s3ood......madly inlove with him.

He's everything i thought i didnt want in a man...y3ne hes controlling, emashee kilmita, mowayd ti3jibaa ashyaa2..bsss thats him oo i love him for the man he is and for the man ive come to discover...theres alot about him that im willing to unravel to myself and no one else.

i love you s3ood....just come back !

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S3ood....

PARIS

Di5alt il'3orfa oo ana jismee mtkassir..min il9ob7 oo ana ashti'3l. 6ilabt room service oo 5athaitlee shower. youm 5ala9t gi3adt araji3 awraag a7tajhom 7ag ijtima3 bacher. 9arlee sbo3ain oo cham youm oo ana hnee....faj2a 6li3atle hal safraa. ooo fi3lan ti3abt halmarra oo bs abee arja3.

iffff meta eyeboon ilakil yo3aaaaaaaan....!!!

kalamt elyoum ilsecertaiira blkuwait oo gtlaha e6arishle awrag mi7tajlaha....oo ham si2alt'ha 3an a7mad elle 7a6eena bidalee 3alama arja3. ymdi7oon sho'3la bsss madry shimsawya weyaa zain.

ifff zain...ga3d a7awl mafakir feeha bss mogadir. knt ra7 aboosha oo zain ene mabist'ha lena oo ba3dain...shra7 e9eer etha bist'ha. mara7 y9eer shay....ana gayil halshay mnziman oo mara7 yt'3ayar shay. iktishaft enha 5osh wa7da mn ta3amlee weyaha...oo bsir3a tit3alam oo hatha shay zain ....9ij ena arta7laha oo agdar a7acheeha 3ala ra7tee bsss elmafrou'6 ene awagif halshay. lazm a7i6 7ad lhalshay mabee elbnaya tit3alag feene oo tfakir shay thany lena b3dain mara7 agdar asami7 roo7e...ana 9ar feene chethee mnziman oo maby a7i6 a7ad thany ib maw8if chethee.wayd a3izha oo a7tirimha...oo a7is roo7ee wa7d thany youm akoon weyaha madry shlon....bss sho3oor '3areeb. zain ena 9arat halsafra 3ashan afaker 3adl oo a'6bi6 roo7ee 9ayer mafaker oo bs at9araf. akbar daleel ene knt ra7 aboos'ha ! lazm arayi7 baleee oo mafaker feeha hatha aham shay...oo inshalla halsafra oo ene b3eed 3anha oo mo3ndaha ysa3id.

kalamne jassoom oo ya7laila 3irsa ba3d youmain....knt abe aroo7 bss mnshi'3l.....mayindara meta y5al9 sho'3lee....bsss 9ij knt abee aroo7 5osh wa7d jassooom oo ystahal akthar.

***knock knock****

ohhh kaaa ilakil wi9al !! a5eeran !

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luv u ;***

p.s. mali5lg i color coordinate the characters ;p lazy i know ;p

Mulish (16)

2009-08-25T23:38:00.001+03:00

nomee mla5ba6 sry for not posting....;p oo for some readers y3ne plzz be nicer y3ne

ENJOY ;)
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Zain.....

"safar...?!" i gasped. His secreatary looked at me, surprised by my reaction, i tried to contain myself and calmed myself down, "ahh..emm meta safar "

"ams bilail....6ila3la sho'3l '6aroory fee france..."

"ahaa...." i waited for her to continue bs skitat, "ooo meta ra7 yirja3 ?"

"emmmm maba3rif 3ala 7asab ilsho'3ol bss daiman mabi6awil aktar mn isboo3...."

1 week ?! ollaaaa....

"ahh emm ok mashkoora....bye..." i said as i exited the office.

1 week....he cant just leave faj2a marra wa7da, oo one week mo shwy. magdar at7ammal akoon blsharika oo ohwa mofeeha...

I headed to my office and started working when shoug came,

"zain....deraitay ena s3ood safar..."

"eee oo b3dain..."

"ahh y3ne tadreen...emm enzain tadreen ena youm yrid ra7 nrja3 7ag ba3a'6"

"alla yhaneekom..." i grimly replied. i know that shes jealous of me and s3ood and is trying to do everything within her will to keep me away from him but im smarter than that. i know that shes lieing and i'll just play along.

"ahhh ..." she was somewhat surprised with my response,"hehehehe mashkoora...yalla 5al amshee 3ndi sh'3l.."

ughhhh mo2thiya !!! madry shlon s3ood was once involved with her...hathee ma7ad yit7amalha ehya oo mala8at'ha. i finsihed my work for the day and headed home.

day 2

day 3

day 4

day 5

The following days followed a certain routine, with me heading to work, getting my job done and heading home. It was boring, i couldnt handle it...its just too much! abeee action abee zafff abeee 3naaad abeee hwaaash abeeee S3OOOD !!!! I just miss him, and after the fourth day i stopped asking his secretary 3an meta eyee lena athayt'ha oo mabeeha tshik feene (hatha etha moshakka feene). ehya galat 7adda sboo3 oo ena safrata 3adattan ma6awil akthar mn chethee soo i'll wait b3d youmain oo inshalla he comes...bss 5ala9 5al yirja3!

day 6

i went to the office and found out that there was no work sent to my computer...hope gradually started building up within me...ma38ooola s3ood ykon rija3 !!! i got up and headed to his office...my heart beating widely. i got in and the secretary looked up,

"ohhhh nseeeet i send ilpaper work...sorry el7een i send it..."

My heart fell, "ahhh...ok"

sooo s3ood still didnt come....i'll wait..its six days tomorrow will be the seventh day. i'll wait till tomorrow.

day 7

i received a message on my computer in my office and it was said that i proceed to s3oods office immediately.

s3ood ya !

happiness welled up inside of me and i smiled. i wouldve ran to his office but fashlaaa ;p i reached his office and the secretary saw me and motioned for me to enter. I gave her a smile, knocked on the door and entered.

and i paused....

"zain..?"

"eee na3am..."

"ahh mar7aba tfa'6ilay gi3day...." the man motioned for me.

I sat down.

"stath s3ood wain...?"

"ahh stath s3ood m6awl oo ana ra7 akoon badeela hnee 3alama yrid...."

"m6awil..? shkithir...?" i asked , dreading the answer already.

The man looked up at me, " fatra..."

hatha jawab ya3ne....iffffffff

"filwagt il7aleee ana ra7 akoon hnee oo ra7 titab3ain ta3lematee mithil makntay tsaween ma3 stath s3ood..."

"ok..."

the man senced my discomfort, "lat5afeen inshalla ra7 tirta7ain weyay...tigdereen tro7een el7een..."

i mindlessly got up and headed to the door when he called out, "ahh zain..."

i turned,

"nisait agolich..ana isme a7mad..." he smiled. I nodded my head and got out.

ismik a7mad...but your nothing like s3ood....wainik ya s3oood ;((

2 weeks later.....

still no word from s3ood.....
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luv u ;*

gudnight ;)

hmmmm....

2009-08-25T22:38:00.000+03:00

okay emm wi9alne hal email its about deeratna liq8....elle katba 9ij fee 7arra madry laish bss wayd ashya2 r true i have to admitt.......soo read it through and send me ur comment..........

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** شهالديرة اللي .. الشعب صار له 20 سنة يتحلطم على نوعية أعضاء مجلس الأمة !!!! طيب منو انتخبهم ؟؟؟؟؟ سكان الأسكيمو !!!!!!

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منو أحمد داوود ؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟

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زيدوا معاشاتنا !!!!!

** شهالديرة اللي .. كل من يمر بشارع الحب يتلفت !!

** شهالديرة اللي .. بسنة وحده كل بناتها صارو مفصخات !! هذا الي يقول الي عمره ماتبخر تبخر وحترق) ويعيبون على الغرب !! الغرب صارو استر منكم !!

** شهالديرة اللي .. الكل فيها صارو منافقين يضحكون بالويه او يطعنون بالظهر !!

** شهالديرة اللي .. ريايلها قامو يحشون اكثر من حريمها !!

** شهالديرة اللي .. لمى يفوز واحد برنامج حفظ القرآن محد يستقبلة ولايدرون عنه . او لمى ايي واحد من ستار اكاديمي ولا 30 الف بنطرونه بالمطار !!

** شهالديرة اللي .. مايصلون الى شهر 12أو 6 علشان امتحانات اخر السنه .. وايد ناس قاعده تضحك اللحين

** شهالديرة اللي .. شبابها بالصيف كلهم يبون يسوون برونز !!

** شهالديرة اللي .. شبابها وبناتها كلهم قزيزه اوكل اسبوع بمطعم وكله يشكون ماعندنا فلوس !!

** شهالديرة اللي .. لازم الكل يوم السبت يروح الافنيوز او يقعدون ابلورنزينو يعني قزيزه !!

** شهالديرة اللي .. فيها كل هالبلاوي أو أكثر ويقولون .... الله لا تغير علينا ..!!!!!

و هاذي الكويت صل على النبي

Soooooo what do you think....???

its harsh... the way it was said bsss its true....and either way hathee ilq8 oo no matter what we r proud to be kuwaities!

Mulish (15)

2009-08-25T17:38:00.000+03:00

ENJOY ;)

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Zain......

I left the room sencing his eyes on my back. We were about to kiss...kiss ! Im just shocked and surprised with my behaviour...why would i want him to kiss me..? why did i want him to kiss me ?

Thankgod ena kan a5er ildawam...i grabbed my things and headed to my car. i still felt queasy during my ride home. a7s a7s enna im growing feelings towards him. And thats not good.....thats soooo not good. He looks like a womanizer, a man dedicated to his job.....hes soo not the man of my dreams...or is he ? ughhhh ma7ib chetheee im soo confused.
I reached home and got in and found my parents bl9ala. Salamt 3alaihom oo g3adt.

"haaa shlon ildawam baba...?" my dad asked.

"walla zain...ta3ab bs zain..." i smiled.

"3afya 3ala bnayte...yalla inshalla b3d cham shahar youm at2akad enich tmakantay aw gabil ymkn...a7awlich 3ala sharikatna mithil makntay tabeen..."

Do i want that now..? Can i work with no s3ood critisizing me all the way...can i work in a place without the person ..the person that i had this special communication with..? Can i simply walk away and leave him and the company and head after what i always wanted...working in my dads company ?

"zain 7beebty shaklich ta3baan....asaweelich chaai..?"

"la mashkoora yuma...ana ba93ad arayi7ly shwy..." i said and got up to my room. I slept for a couple of hours, woke up, went out with my cousin , then got back with my heart beating slightly as i got to bed...thinking about tomorrow and how it will turn out.

The next day........

"Mr7aba ya zain...nawwar ilmokan..." announced mid7at. I smiled to him and got into the company, grabbed my coffee and headed to my desk. I sipped my coffee and started working on what was left behind from yesterdays work since we were behind. I worked my way through, pausing every now and then to clear my mind from s3ood.

"ahlan zain....elyoum bro7ich..." said shoug. 'elma3arees mohnee..."

"adry oo kaifhom shako fehom entay...."

"ehee emm la walashay bss 7abait agolich y3ne..."

"tara 3ndy 3yoon oo ashoof 3ala fikra y3ne...."

"ahh hehe emmm ....shiftay s3ood elyoum..."

"shda5al stath s3ood faj2a....oo la2 mashifta.."

'ahhh ana hamman..welaht 3alai mn ams mashifta..."

i chose to ignore her and work,

"agolich shay zain...." ishta6at faj2a, she grabbed a chair and sat beside me....i looked at her y3ne shtabeeen. "emmm ana oo s3ood bnirja3 7ag ba3a'6..."

"sheno..."

"eee adry enna y7ibne oo ra7 nirja3 ana mit2akda..."

"momkin a3rf shay....entaw laish u broke up...?"

"emm li2ana...li2ana 9ar fee mshkila 9'3eera bss in7alat oo akeed byirja3ly el7een...."

I didnt believe her....and i dont believe that s3ood would want anything to do with her. But i nodded my head anyways and told her to go to work. i sat there and completed my work. My computer beeped and today's work was sent ...i was somewhat surprised...3adattan ana a5tha minna. maybe maybe mn ams y3ne...emm well ok let me start working.
After an hour or so i was done and so i took a deep breath and headed to s3oods office.
I got in and saw the secretary,

"emm 5aleehom houn ya zain..."

"bss ana asalimhom 7aga..."

"ba3rif bss hala2 malada3y faaa tsalmeely ana..."

I grabbed my work and nodded, "ahh emm ok.." i gave her the paper work and stood there.

"fee shee ?"

"emmm la2 bss y3ne benadeene b3dain 3ashan ygole etha sawaita 3adl wala la2..?"

"6ab3an la2....."

6ab3an..?!

"laish....?"

"entee mabta3rfee...?"

"a3rf sheno..."

"s3ood safar...."

The breath was knocked right through me !

"safar ?!"
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Luv u ;*

Happy fo6oor ;)

Mulish (14)

2009-08-24T18:05:00.000+03:00

9ayra agoom mt2a5er...y3ne tawamsa3 ga3da oo baktib the post ;p

ra7 ykoon gi9eer bsss better than nothing ;)

ENJOY ;)
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Zain......

After the small party everyone headed to their office and straight to work. I, on the other hand stayed with mariam, jassim, and s3ood chatting in the meeting room.

"faaaaa galleee jassim oo i encouraged him...." i admitted as i took a bite on a pastry.

"abaaaai 7ilfay !!! oo laish matgoleenleee...." cried mariam.

"makan yabeene agool...fa i didnt..."

"awwww y3ne you thought enne mawafi8, " said mariam to jassim, "akeed knt bawafi8"

Jassim smiled.

"emmm shraykom entaw ilma3arees ta5thoon the day off..." sujested s3ood.

Jassim and mariam looked at eachother, "emmm....bss 3ndina sho'3l..."

"3ady yit2ajal shwy...roo7aw stansaw..."

ana hnee 3yoone 6li3at...s3ood ygool chethe ?! sh9aar bl3alam...!?

Mariam and jassim got up and headed out after thanking me and s3ood again. i got up from my chair and started gathering the plates to throw in the bin.

"5alay el7een anadee ilfarasheen...."

"laaa shd3wa....3ady..." i said as i headed to the bin and threw the plates. i came back to gather more plates and i caught s3oods hesitant face. i felt like he wanted to help bsss yimkin he never did or 3nda ena halshay mo7agga yimkn ?! "emmm you can help you know...." i pushed.

"uhhh ee kani tawne knt bagoom...." he got up and folded the sleeves of his dishdasha and stood beside me, "shswy...." he shrugged.

"hehe ummm enta bss yami3 ilcups oo gi6hom..."

"ahhh sahla hathe..." he grinned, he started collecting the cups and i couldnt help but giggle enna s3ood...i mean S.3.o.o.d. is actually doing this. abaaaai shswait fee ana hehe ;p

We threw all the plates and cups away, so s3ood called for the farasheen to come and clean away the rest. He shut the phone and came towards me, "5aleehom 3anich...3a6eene yahom...' he said reaching for the pile of forks and knives that i had piled up in a plate to throw.

"laaa 3ady...." i said and threw them in the bin. The bin was full to this point so shwyat forks 6a7aw minha barra, me and s3ood reached for them the same time and our heads bumped.

"a777..." i giggled rubbing my head.

"offff sh'hal raaas..." said s3ood as he threw the forks in the bin.

"haaaaai...."

"haaaai ...." said s3ood mimicking (spelling?) my voice, "shoofay shlon kilshwy ga3deen y6ee7oon..." motioned s3ood to the forks and knives falling on the floor.

"enzain pick them up ya3ne..."

"3ashan y6ee7oon mara thanya...laibacher man5al9..."

"waaaai shd3wa 3alaaaaaaaik..." i said as i picked them up. He watched with an amused expression as i put them in the bin and seconds later 6a7aw again.

"ifffffffff...enta sheel...dorik...!"

"tadreen enna mo ella mo97..." he raised a sardonic brow at me.

"adry bss ga3deen y8ithoony..."

"5ala9 ana ada5ilhom entay mat3arfeen shay..." he mused. He grabbed them from the floor and threw them in the bin oofa8a9hom shwy. He looked at me with a grin but two forks fell on the floor.He picked them up again....and again....oo kilshwy y6ee7oon. 7asaita ga3d ytnarfaz shwy..."ufffffffff zaaaaaain....!!!!" he said and kicked the bin which caused all the plates and forks and knives to fall on the floor.

I looked at what he just did and giggled, "walla you solved the problem..."

He looked at me and grinned, "el7eeen kilhom 3alar'6 oo mafee blzbala fa a7san....yaboon yi6li3ooon ka 6ala3t'hom!"

"abaaaai s3ood theyre just plastic mawa3eeen....heheheh"

"3ashan may3andoon marra thanya.." he grinned and stood beside me as we leaned against the table and enjoyed the messy view.

"5osh kick by the way..." i took a look at him.

He looked back, "sh3abalich..." he winked.

walla eyanin halwalaaaad....

I smiled even more still looking at him. hes not that heartless after all....i dont get why hes theis way only with me....y3ne etha i told anyone else mara7 y9adgoony. He looked back at me with his mesmerizing brown eyes, he examined my whole face and his grin slowly faded away as he got closer and closer to me. He titled my face up to his slightly using his finger gently. i couldnt believe this...bs i wanted it i really did. He was really close now...i could feel his breath on my lips and i felt myself getting dizzy...more and more.

KNOCK KNOCK...!!!

S3ood stood up abruptly and cursed under his breath and i stayed on the table still weak, trying to get myself together. The farasheen got in and s3ood instucted them to work. i slowly leaned away from the table, s3ood saw me and i could tell that he didnt believe what just was about to happen. He studied me as i walked slowly and exited the room.

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Luv u ;***

Happy fo6oor !!!

Mulish (13)

2009-08-23T17:28:00.001+03:00

3a6shana !!!!! ;p

ENJOY ;)
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Zain........

Our eyes locked as we smiled. the moment was interrupted by mariam, "heloooooo....im here mohnaaak ;p"

"ha...emmm hehe...."

"shisalfa..."

"walashay...bss isnt he sweet y3ne ena sawalikm kilhathaaa...."

"eeee abaaai 7adi mom9adga y3ne the laaaast person i expected..."

"haaai hes not that mean tara once you know him..."

"ahhhh..." she raised an eyebrow playfully, " y3ne you know him 3adl...."

"chuuuuuub....hehehhehehe...."

Jassim called mariam from afar to come to him. "ta3alay 5anroo7..." so we headed over to jassim who was standing beside.......s3ood ;) "mashkooor stath s3ood 9ara7attan mofaja3a 7ilwa...." she told him and stole a glance at me as she smiled. i looked back and giggled. s3oood noticed the exchange but chose to ignore it and replied,

"eee entaw jiz2 mn ilsharika shlon manifra7 feekom...tistahlon akthar...."

"t9adgeen mariam 3ad ana elyoum el9ub7 gitlaa y3ne madry shlon midaa..." said jassim.

"ahh 9ij..." looked mariam at s3ood surprised.

"Ee na3am bs 3ady mt3awd ana 3al sho'3l....sh'3lee 7aar ib 7aar...oo ham maninsaa inna zain" he looked at me, "sa3idatny wayd b3d..."

I blushed like crazy..awal marra he compliments me !!!! awal marra !!!! i was called to check on the cake gabl maygi9oonha soo i scurried away.

Hala (an employee blsharika), "mayabeela shmoo3 mo9a7..."

"laaa shako...bs ygi9oona..." i said as i adjusted the cake in the center of the table. "wain ilsacheena...?"

"emmm madry..5al aroo7 ashof wainha..." and she went away. I watched her go away and i scanned the crowd in the room. Everyone was shocked....mogadreen y9adgoon ena s3ood (the strict-mean-heartless s3ood) actually organized this for mariam and jassim. okay i get enna he gets kindof mean sometimes...no actually alot..bs still sheno 7asbalhom ena hes a robot mn'3air feelings ya3ne...! i looked up at s3ood and he was laughing with an employee blsharika oo mskeena shakilha kan mobas m9a6il bss she nodds at whatever hes saying...mom9adga ena he's awalan talking to her...thanyan hes smiling to her and not critisizing her . i giggled, s3oods eyes caught me giggling as i looked at him, he raised a sardonic brow at me and headed towards me.

"momkin a3arif laish kilmatshofeene t'6i7keen..?" he grinned.

I shook my head, "walashay.." as i smiled.

"t3ta38dain enhom stanisaw...?"

I looked up at him oo staw3abt ena he was talking about mariam oo jassim...i nodded my head vigorously at him.

"enzain shwy shwy 3ala rasich...."

"hehe sorry..."

"laish tit2asifain..."

"madry..." i smiled up to him.

"walla law mo entay elyoum chan ma3rft shswy...." he admitted looking at mariam and jasssim then at me.

I stared into his sincere face, "mashkoor....oo stanast enik gtlee oo sa3dtk.."

"kahi ilsacheena....hala stath s3ood...." said hala, "zain...?"

knt sar7ana oo momintabha 3alli ga3d y9eer.

"zaain...?"

"ha...e7m na3am..."

"ilsacheena..."

"ay sacheena...? ahh ee emm 7i6eeha hnak..." i noticed s3ood adjusting his '3itra trying to hide his grinning face from me. i gave him a look....and walked away smiling.

"zain...?" i turned my face and saw shoug smiling to me...iffff shtabe hathe. "bss 7abait agool ena waw elle sawaitee wayid 7ilo..."

"mo ana elle sawaita stath s3ood oho elle sawaa..."

"yalla 3ad zain...we both know s3ood..oo nadry ena momsawee hatha..."

"esma stath s3ood..." i glared at her.

"oh...asfaaa..." she said in her annoying voice, "staaath s3ood wala tz3ileen..."

"dam enich 3iraftay tgoleen isma 5al aroo7 ana a7sanly..." i said and walked away...7mara! i went to mariam and jassim and called them to the table to cut the cake. They headed to the table and stood beside eachother and s3ood behind them and the other employees surrounding the table. i stood beside the food on the table trying to make sure that everything is ok and trying to cool my temper too mn shoug. i didnt notice ena s3ood said a small speech and i caught my name in it, i looked up and the whole room was looking at me, i smiled.

"zain ta3alay ogfay yamna..." said mariam. i went over to her and stood beside her..infront of s3ood...his scent was all around me and i felt like i wana stay here forever ! they cut the cake and we all clapped oo chethee b3dain people headed to the food and i went over to check if they need anything wala shay. i wasnt hungry at all so i just chitchatted with people.

"e7m zain...?"

"hmm..." i turned around and saw s3ood with two plates of cake.

"laa maby ana..."

"mako la2...i5thay adry enich tabeen..."

"hmm okaaay...." i reached for a plate, he pulled back.

"haai hatha 9a7ny...hatha 7agich.." he motioned with the plate in his other hand.

"ooookaay..."i took the plate.

"lena hathee ilgi63aa akbar oo ana abeha..."

"ahaaa...hehe...." i said and took a bite. i've never seen s3ood laugh or smile this much in one day...the employees in the sharika were shocked with his behaviour today, i mean not only did he organize a great party for two of the employees, he was conversing with them about casual stuff and i soon learned that what surprised them the most was that they never....never....wasted working hours like that...never ! and one of the employees smiled at me...and i could feel her message without her speaking...i knew that what she wanted to add was.. that they never wasted working hours like that not until i arrived.
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Luv u ;***

P.S. La7a'6taw shlon wayd tkalamt 3n akil...ahhh im hungry ;p

Mbarak 3alaikom ilshahar ;**

2009-08-22T16:06:00.002+03:00

-i just love rmi'6an...madry laish...y3ne awalan the food is exceptional ib this month madry laish ;p

-il lgaimaat oo 9ab iljafsha oo iltashreeba oo ilyireesh oo ilhareees oo waaaaw kilshay 7attan ilmagaleee y9eer 6a3amhom '3air brmi'6an ;p (ashkara ga3da ashahee ro7ee ;p) a7ib gabl ilfo6oor bshwy a7oos blma6ba5 ashaheee 3mreee..a7i6 malyon alf shay bakla bss youm atfa6ar ashb3 bsir3a (7asafa ;p)

oo madry etha other countries do it bss bl q8 oo 8all halshay bss e7na we still do it ena gabl ilfo6oor bshwy n6arish food 7ag our neighbours oo they do too...shay wayd 7ilo ;) oo ham family y6arshoon 7ag ba3a'6 akil oo chethee....(lool inshalla matkalam 3n ilakil wayid ;p)

-'3air ilakil feee el overall atmosphere...y3neee b3d elfo6oor elnas tbalish ti6la3 laaai wagt mt2a55er...3ady 1 am oo lail7en fee awadm blmalls aw blma6a3m 7ag si7oor ;)

-hathaa '3air ilzwaraat oo il'3abgaat oo nilbis dararee3na nitkasha5 feehom ;p

ooo emmmm...

-ilmosalsalalt 9ayreen shwy mala8a oo mokarareen wayid..bss in6ali3lina wa7id aw athnain 7ilween oo ntabo3hom oo chetheee...

-BAS....feee moshkilaaa alaaa wahiya....ena we gain weight !!! fee nas they loose bs ana i
gain ;( lena aakil 7ilo oo wayd ashyaa2...oo ham lena ilso7oor mt2a5er i think 3shan chethee..hmmm...bsss la2 this rmi'6an ra7 a'63af mabe amtan...7aram tawne radda mn ilsifar oo 9ayra sh'6i3fy sha7lailee...7aram aridhom 9ara7attan ;p

EMMMM....

-I know i said enna ilpostat bit'hill 3alaikm bsss theyre not o:) hmmm ok im gonna start posting again mn bacher gabl ilfo6oor for you guys...;))) ra7 ykonoon shwy short lena 9ayma oo mali5lg oo chethee bss i'll post 7atta law shwy inshalla ...

Ooo bas...;))

luv u ;**

3asakom mn 3awadaa ;**

Mulish (12)

2009-08-18T17:27:00.000+03:00

ENJOY ;))

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Zain....

6OOOOOOO6......6OOOOOOOOOOO6....6OOOO6....

IFFFF...

I rolled over and picked up my phone, "aloo..."

"ALOO...ZAIN...!!"

I pulled the phone away from my ear shwy, "meno....?"

"mariam...!!"

"ahhh hii..shfeech mshta6a mn 9iba7 alla 5air..?"

"mara7 t9adgeen shno 9ar ams...."

"shno 9ar..." even though i guess i know what happened.

"jassim 5i6abni..."

"waaaw jassim..jassim ma'3aira...?"

"eeeee..!!!! ya7laila yshawg...3mre mat5ayalt ena halshay be9eer...."

"hehe...enzain oo entay shrayich..."

"emmm y3ne jassim 5osh walad oo wayd 6ayib oo mnziman a3rfa oo...."

"y3ne ee...."

"ummm ee...."

"alaaaa wanasaaaaaaaaaa..!!!!! meta il3rs ??"

"bsmilaaa 5animlich blawal...hehe"

"enzain y3ne el7een en5i6abtaw ..."

"eee klshay tam bs biga y7adidoon maw3d elmilcha oo klshay y9eer rasmeee...abaaai hehe mom9adga..."

"yalla mabrook 3ayal....waaw cant wait oo ashofkom elyoum blsharika hehehe..."

"ee abai ast7yyyyy...."

"hahaha shakooooo.....act normal...abai cute ...love story blsharika..."

"hehe okay yalla gomaay tara maboga shay 3aldawam..."

"heheheehe..."

"shfeech..?"

"laa bs shaklich killish monayma ams.."

"7adda la2....!!! akbar daleel ene 6a3 sa3a cham dagga 3alaich hehe.."

"la7a'6t...;p ok yalla c u blsharika....oo tikashi5ay mawa9eech.."

"hahah ok..."

I shut the phone and headed to the bathroom ... what a nice way to start a day ! i put on a navy pencil skirt and a ruffled purple top and tied my hair into a sleek pony tail and headed to work.

"ezayik yaa zain...ilibtisama mn il9ob7.." smiled the 7aris.

"eee hehe..."

"alla ydeemha..."

"mashkoor ya mid7at..." i said and entered the sharika. i grabbed me coffee and headed to the elevator. i started sipping my coffee but failing to take the smile off of my face. And i felt like it was contagious cuz the people in the elevator would see me and smile to me too. The elevator kept stopping at different floors and the elevator was getting less crowded 'till i only remained. i turned and faced the mirror and laughed at the stupid grin that was plastered on my face. ahhh im just so happy for mariam....other than the fact that im in a perfect mood today. i stopped laughing and felt like i was crazy just laughing alone in an elevator. But i couldnt help it and everytime the elevator door would open it would take all my energy not to explode infront of the busy employees outside.

floor 15....16....

yalla i better get my act together maboga shay oo no9al floor19..

i cleared my throat and ran my hand over my head and adjusted my skirt. t3arfoon ilsho3oor elle youm youre in a laughing mood oo u just cant shut up !! hatha elle ana fee el7een...ooo youm abe asakit roo7e ma a9mid akthar mn cham thanya ella oo i smile again. i took a deep breath. the elevator door opened and s3ood stepped in, he looked at me facing the mirror with a smile on my face and i felt like he wanted to throw some sarcastic comment at me but he just said "hala zain" and faced the door. i turned around and looked at his back, soo i guess were back to the boring-serious s3ood.

Floor 17....18....

I smiled and shook my head, but the smile welled up within me and a giggle escaped my lips. s3ood turned his head slightly to the side then faced the elevator door again. I giggled again, y3ne killish mowagt ilgiggles el7eeen, and kilmarra asakit 3mre i giggle again 7asait roo7ee yahil. S3ood turned and saw me with a questioning look in his eyes and shakla kan mitnarfiz shwy,

"fee shay y'6a7ik ..??"

"umm la2..." i said and bit my lip to stop myself from laughing. I lowered my eyes, i looked back up at him again and saw his lips twich slightly as he shook his head.

TING ! Floor 20...

"matabeen e6el3een...?"

"uhhh la2 ana floor 19 baroo7...."

"3ayal laish manizaltay tawamsa3.."

"emmm madry...." i smiled. This time he chuckled shwy, pressed 19 and stepped out of the elevator. I reached my floor and went straight to my desk and as usual it was stacked with paper work for s3ood ! i started working right away...i stopped shwy every now and then to catch a glimpse of the love birds (jasssim and mariam) shlon yshsawgoon...i would smile and get back to work. When i finally finished i got up and headed to s3oods office on the top floor. i walked into his secretary office and she told me that s3ood was expecting me.

"emm hala stath s3ood...." as weird as it may sound.

he looked up from his desk and motioned for me to sit down. i sat down and handed him the paper work, he took a glance at it and set it down. I looked at him confused.

"zain bakalmich ibmaw'6oo3..."

"uhh...9ij..." i said still looking at the paper work.

"eee...y3ne agi9 3alaich..."

i looked up at him and smiled, "uhh ok..." then i looked back at the paper work.

"zain..."

"na3am.."

"ensay ilawrag el7een..."

"umm ok...gool..." i said and stared right into his chocolate warm eyes.

"ana a7taj mosa3adtich...ibshay"

"na3am...?! ana ?!"

He nodded.

"emm ok...uhh ib sheno..."

And he told me everything for A to Z.

"agdar a3timid 3alaich...."

"akeeeeed !!" i grinned.

"ok yalla 3ayal...ma3ndina wagt..."

"ok...." i smiled and headed out of his office. The secretary saw my smile and the confused look on her face was hilarious. I headed to my desk to grab my bag and head out when mariam saw me,

"zain wain ray7a ?"

"umm 3ndy cham sha'3la lazm asaweeha oo ard.."

"ok bss stath s3ood called for a meeting b3d sa3a..."

"sa3a..?!"

"eee..."

"umm laa mara7 a6wl inshalla...bye.." i said and scurried out. i got into my car and got to work straight away with what s3ood told me fast considering the short amount of time he set for me.

When i finished i headed to the sharika and mid7at came to me,

"haa ya zain..5ala9tee...?" i nodded.

"kaa ila'3ra'6 blsayara..." i told him and headed up to the office. i checked my watch...10 minutes left !!!! i headed to the meeting room and found s3ood there with some employees helping him around...everything was set and mid7at brought the stuff i bought and set them into place and everything was perfect. i clapped mn kithir maknt mshta6a and s3ood saw me and grinned. faisal and ahmad gathered the employees in the meeting room. i was looking around for a lighter to light the candles, i saw s3ood, "wala3a bsir3a..."

"ma3ndy.."

"shlon ma3ndk..."

"shno y3ne lazm ada5in..." he gave me a lopsided grin.

"ahhh good...bss a7taj wala3a.." one of the men gave me one and we lit the candles.

"kahom kahom yaw....!!" cried mona and we all turned silent.

They stepped in and, "MABROOOOOOOOK!!!!" we all cried. The look on mariam and jassim's faces were priceless. Mariam teared up and jassim's smile was amazing. We all rushed to them and hugged and congratulated them 3ala 5i6bat'hom.

I found mariam and i went to her, "ahhhhhh mabroooook..." i said and i hugged her.

"latgoleenle hathe fikritich...."

i shook my head, "fikrat s3ood..." i smiled.

"7ilfay..."

"walla...." my smile grew and i looked up at s3ood who heard me and we smiled at eachother and i realized at that moment how proud i am of him !

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Luv u ;***

Mulish (11)

2009-08-17T22:42:00.000+03:00

Dedicated 7ag kl my readers elle amoot feehom ;****

short i know bss walla tawne radda mn ilsifar oo ive been meeting with alot of friends welaht 3alaihom

ENJOY ;)

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S3ood....

SHNO..?!?! T7IBNY ?!

Wigaft ib mokane

LAAA LAA akeed masima3t'ha 3adil

iltifat wala ashoofha wagfa ibmokanha oo eedha 3ala 7aljha e6ali3ne. wigaft a6ali3ha oo ehya e6ali3ne ma7ad feena ra'6ee yitkalam. y3ne ana msta'3rib 9ara7attan...et7ibny marra wa7da ?! mnwain 6la3at hathee...?? y3ne ehya 9arlaha cham sboo3 weyay blsharika oo bhal wagt ana maga9art kilyoum zafha oo ba'3ait a6ridha oo el7een tgole a7ibik ?! offff a7is wayhe 7ada msa6il ! 5al titkalam...ayshay....shsawy aroo7 ? asawee ro7e masima3t ?

9ij ene balasht arta7laha shwy y3ne 5osh bnt ma3ina m3athyatne wayd bss 5osh wa7da....bsss magdar a7ibha. e7na ma3ba3a'6 blsharika oo wayd ra7 y9eer ilwa'63 9a3ab 5o9oo9an ene mara7 agdar a7ibha . ana 7ilaft enne ma7b b3d ...b3d elle 9ar feene gabl cham sina we3adt roo7i enne ma7i6 nafse blmaw8if nafsa marra thanya.

meta nawya tnazil eedha mn7aljha oo titkalam...???? akeed mn7arja....5al amshee....

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Zain.....

Abai sima3ne .....?!!! abaaaai shno ana 7mara wala 7mara !!!! Mn wain 6la3at a7ibik.....?! shsawy el7eeen,....sharagi3.....abaaai ga3d e6ali3ne ohwa akeed in9idam mskeeen....

bsss laaaa2 abai 7ada la2 ma7iba shno mako sho'3l....yzifne kl youm oo walashay asawee y3jiba ..hatha '3air '3oroora elle ynarfizne...a9lan ohwa mnkobra ynarfizne...6a3 shlon ga3d e6ali3ne el7een...waaaaay shfeeneeee.....?!!?!??!? 9ij ena sa3dny shwy ma3 5alid tawa...actually wayid oo iktishaft ena fee shwyat 6eeba tawamsa3 blmaktab youm shaal ilpeice of glass from my hand bssss hatha moya3ny enne a7iba....i repeat,,,, moya3ne inne a7iba !!!!

ughhhhhh.....

emmm zain el7een shbasawee...agolaaa mo7agk...aw ma8i9adtk ??? laaa laaa shako,,,,, emmm agola agolaaaaaa....mako ella a36ee na'6ra oo amshee....bs laa shako masawa shay ilrayal.....

He's moving...?!shno beroo7..??laa2 he cant go lazm asawee shay fashlaa etha raa7....uhh uhhhh think THINK !!!

"MA7IBIK...!!!"

Waw...malegait ella hatheee....

"emmm 8a9de....8a9de enne ana .....ana..."

Is his lips twitching....abai yawaila etha they are...ana wagfa hnee mayta mn ilfashla oo 7a'6rita yabe yi'67ak ?! He motioned with his hand for me to go on....

"mat7ibine...?"

"laa2....i mean ee...la2 la2..." i looked at him and i could see his face full of humor.....charming verrrrryyyy charming humor...la2 stop it !!!! shako yi'67ak shakooo.... "eeeee ma7ibik...."

He put on a lazy smile, "y3ne mat7ibene..."

I shot him an irritated look.

"ok ok lat7ibeene..."

"matabene a7ibik...?"

"laish hammich t3arfeen..."

"uhh la2 mohamne...." i retorted.

He grinned, "3yal laish etsi2leen..."

"masi2alit...."

"mbala tawch si2altay...."

"walla etha athoonk feeha shay hathee mshkiltik lene mas2lt....a9lan shako as2al..."

"ha ! y3ne si2altay..."

"la2 g3d agolik laish as2al...hatha moya3ny ene si2alt..." he kept grinning, " lati'67ak...!!"

"mo ga3d a'67ak..."

"laaa 3ayal hatha shno..."

"laish hammich..motgoleen enich mat7ibeene..."

Touche' !

I gave him a look "ana bamshe...."

"alla weyach..."

"enzain la6ali3...."

"mngal ga3d a6al3ich..."

I shook my head...this is getting redicolous....shiftaw akeed ma7iba..shlon a7iba oo digeega magdar ag3ad weyaa...
I started walking...

"zain..!!" he called.

"na3am..."

"sayartich mohnee..warra..."

oo 9a7....

"adry mo ella tgolee..."

"ahaaa...."

"tabe t3arf laish..lene mabee amor yammik yalmalee8...." i said and looked at him. He looked at me with an amused look in his eyes. And i just looked back furiously, and i realized something for the first time. Ive never seen this side of him ! ive always known s3ood as the serious, ma'3roor, workaholic guy...but never like this. I felt happy shwy...i did after all cross the barrier he has set..and i think that im the only one who has ever done it ;) i smiled despite myself as realization hit me. s3ood looked at me..now, confused with my change in mood....he stared at me for a while then he suddenly straightened up, cleared his throat, and put on that im-s3ood-you-should-fear-me look and walked away. I guess im not the only one who realized something....

and i couldnt help it....my smile grew even wider as i headed to my car.

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luv u ;***

Gudnight ;))

Mulish (10)

2009-08-15T19:50:00.002+03:00

Missed u guys wayiiiiiid wayiiiiiid ;***

i didnt plan to post elyoum bss i did bs il post 9'3eer ;p anyhow...

ENJOY ;)

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Zain.......

"5alid ?!" i looked at him surprised.

"zain ahhh zain...a5eeran legaitich..."said 5alid as he walked towards me. i froze, watching 5alid advance towards me. i turned and saw s3ood standing beside me looking at 5alid too. He then turned and faced me, his face....confused!

ana bs msa6la...ashoof 5alid b3dain altifit oo ashoof s3ood...manigadra astaw3b elle ga3d y9eer. oo kilshay kan in slow motion walla..y3ne it took 5alid like forever to reach me. oo the more he got closer the more my heart started 5arifing..3ady malyon beat bldigeega.

"meno hatha...?" asked me s3ood.

I looked at him, "hatha..? umm hatha...hathaa...." by that time 5alid reached us.

"zain..!!! lazim akalmich lazim...!"

"5alid enta shg3d tsawee hneee...????" i asked.

"abe akalmich ..lazim nlagee 7al..."

"ay 7al ....ay 7al 5alid...mako 7al...fa please roo7..." i said and turned my head. 5alid grabbed my arm,

"la2 zain...lazim nlagee 7al e7na n7ib ba3a'6..."

3yoon s3ood zain ma6li3aw youm sima3 5alid.

"5alid please bs roo7..."

"zain..!"

"waaai 5alid enta matifham gtlik roo7..." i said and tried to shrug my hand from his.

s3ood finally stepped in, "sheel edik 3anha..."

5alid looked up at s3ood china tawa ystaw3b ena wagif, "sheno..?"

"gtlk....sheel eedik 3anha.." repeated s3ood his voice soo calm that it sent shivers up and down my spine.

5alid dropped my hand, "meno enta...?? mno hatha zain....masra3 malegaiteelich wa7d thany...."

"na3am..?!" i gasped.

"isma3ny..." motioned s3ood with his arm, with his facial muscles working, "thammin kalamik a7sanlik.... "

"oo enta meno...?"

"malik sho'3ol oo latsa2il wayd as2ila....iglib wayhik oo imsh yalla..."

"oo enta meno 3ashan agolee amshee.....la7'6a enta laish mda5il roo7ik blmaw'6oo3.....? hatha ilshay bainee oo bainha..."

"zain..." called s3ood.

i jumped, "n-na3am..."

"tabeen tkalmeena...?"

"l-la2..maby..."

"tabeen titfahimain weyaa..."

i shook my head.

"5ala9 3ayal....5athait jawabik...yalla tigdar troo7 il7een oo eyaane weyak t3atib ilsharika marra thanya..."

5alid stared at him for a while, he was angry...fumming. He then looked at me..hard, i looked away m5tar3a minna til finally he stepped back ,"mashee zain...mashee.." and walked away.

Me and s3ood stood there watching him until he got into his car and was out of sight. I took in a deep breath...realizing inne knt ga'6ba nafasi 6ool ilmoda. s3ood turned and saw me, his eyes still peircing. he studied my face for a while then finally said, "yalla rikbay sayartich..." in a cold tone.

What must he think of me now...?? abaiii laish chethee laish ???

My eyes teared up, i started to move but my legs gave out on me and i collapsed on the floor. Within seconds s3ood held me up with his strong arms and walked me to a nearby car where i leaned against it for support. he let go of me and opened the first two buttons of his dishdasha.

I started crying, my whole body raked with sobs. s3ood stood there without a word just staring at me then he turned away and gave me his back. i stared at his back and noticed how stiff it was, his posture was tense and its all because of me. Moments ago he was kidding around with me and was kind enough to walk with me to my car and now....now he...he surely despises me.

"s-s3ood..." i managed to say. i have to explain to him elle tawa 9ar...mabe yfakir enna bainee oo bain 5alid fee shay lena mako its over ! 5alid chose to cheat on me oo lazm yt7amal elle sawwaa. madry laish im justifying myself 7agga bss mabe y'3ayir na'6rita feene. i know ena he cares about me..9ij ena maybayn bs a3rf. ana bilyallaaa i broke the barrier between us oo gidart i talk shwya freely with him oo mabee halshay y5tirib. i have to make him understand lena ra7 ajabla kilyoum oo mabee ykoon bainatna ayshay mowa'6i7. oo ham lazim ashkira 3alli sawaaa lena law makan weyay chan alla yister shno kanat 7alte ma3 5alid.

"na3am..." he replied and turned his face to the side with his back still to me.

"e-elle 9ar tawa...emm..."

"mabe a3rf..." he faced me.

"bs lazim t3rf ene..."

"mayhimne....ana elle 3alai sawaita...." he stared at me with his cold eyes, "yalla rikbay sayartich...elle 9ar 9ar..." he said and turned around.

"s3ood...." i called out. he hesitated in his steps but continued walking. "s3oood..." i called out again, my voice weak and it quavered a bit, "s3ood..." i called out with my eyes tearing up. He stopped. I pushed myself away from the car and walked over to him. "s3ood latz3al minni..."

"zain..entay ta3bana lazim tro7een ilbait trta7ain.." he replied in an irritated voice.

I shook my head, "maby,,"

"zain roo7ay ilbait oo rta7ay...oo i5thay bacher off ba3ad"

"bs..."

"b3dain zain..." he said and i saw ilta3ab b3yoona oo 3awarni galbi. i nodded. He turned again and walked and the more he walked the more i felt alone....lost.
The more he walked the more i felt this amounting pressure within me building up, i didnt know what it was, i dont understand why im feeling this way. Its weird and new and....

"a7ibik...!!!"

I clamped my hand shut over my mouth as soon as i blurted it out. I hoped that he didnt hear me...i froze in my place, hoping...praying that he didnt hear me but too late.....he already stopped !!!!

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Luv u ;***

Gudnight ;))))

Guess who's back ;D

2009-08-13T17:10:00.002+03:00

ME !!!!!!!

I missed u guys soooooooo much....;***

welaht 3ala my blog oo my story ...latshofoon wayhe shlon mshta6 oo ana aktib this post;p

LONDON was great as usual though i must confess ena malait a5er cham youm bs it was wanasa none the less.

emmmm ya so radait o ashkara ur gona expect posts from kaboot oo ur gona get them akeeeeed bs give me cham youm i settle in 3adl oo ba3dain ra7 et'hil 3alaikom ilpostat ;)))

luv u ;****

Mulish (9)

2009-07-12T23:28:00.001+03:00

I'll miss u guys...;***A7IBKOM

ENJOY ;)))
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Zain........

Four days passed. 5ala9 bss y3ne laimeta hes gonna stay angry with me ?! i wana go to his office, present my work and...yes...i want him to critisize me, comment on my work the way he always did. i was tapping my pen on my desk furiously without thinking about it, when Jassims voice snapped me back to reality,

"shwy shwy 3al 8alam....."

i looked up at him and smiled, "hehe...." He was shifting from leg to leg nervously, "jassim....feek shay...?"

"uhhh la2...."

"akeeeeed...???"

"eee...." he said and turned away. he paused and turned back again.

"jassim...?"

He came to me and pulled a chair and sat, "bagoolich shay..."

"gool...hehe..."

"e7m...ana...a-ana...."

"entaaaa...." i giggled.

"ana abe agolich enna....i ....i...a7b.."

uh-no....

"hiiii...."said mariam.

thank you !!!!

"hey..wainich matbayneen..."

"walla mash'3oola...hala jassim..." she smiled. Jassim's face kan yiglib alwan.

"hala hala...."

"emmm abee ag3ad bssss im swarmed...!!!!" she said motioning to the stacks of files in her hand.

"uhh tabeen asa3dich..." volunteered jassim.

"laaa laaa mashkoor...." beamed mariam, "yalla bye...."

I watched her walk away helplessly, i turned back to jassim, "umm...."

"zain...."

i have to tell him inna i cant....

"jassim ana..."

"a7ib mariam !" he blurted out. I gaped at him.

Mariam !!!! mariam.....phew......

"9ij...."

"eee.....oo nawy a56ibha..bs 5ayif matwafi8..."

"laish..."

"madry yikmkin matshoofne ib hal 6aree8a..."

"emmm bsss ana dayman la7a'6t enha wayid tisti7y minnik...faaaa...."

"9ij !! mala7a'6t....."

"hehehe...hatha elle la7a'6ta..." i said and we looked at eachother, "jassim....i56ibha...mara7 tilgaa a7san minnik...."

'y3neee...."

"eee...oo inshalla betgool eee....."

He smiled, "mashkoora...."

"la walaw...hehe..."

"ok ana agoom el7een...adig 3al walda...bss latgoleen shay jidamha ok..."

"ee akeed...." i said and he walked away.

waaaaaaaaaaai cuuuuuuteeeeee !!!!!!

My computer beeped, i had a new message saying that tomorrow fee dawrat tadreeb 7ag the new interns. i shut my computer and headed home.

The next day....

"well....." i beamed.

"kalamt ilwalda oo bitdig 3alaihom bacher...."

"alllaaa wanasaa...alla ywafigkom inshala...."

"shfeekom..." came mariam to us.

"uhh walashay...ana baroo7..." said jassim, i giggled.

"shfee hehe...."

"madry....yisti7y minnich il'6ahir..." i winked.

"minni ana...?!"

The lights dimmed down and i was saved from an answer. All the interns were gathered in the room, oo ilmas2oleen malot kil8isim were there, plus employees 9arlohom sneen blsharika. They introduced new elements and were discussing them with us. we were taking notes and so on. stath m7amad tawa 5ala9 his presentation wala ygoom wa7id and went to the projector, he turned and my heart leaped. it was s3ood, he was as elegantly handsome as always, and he started his presentation. I didnt hear a word he said, i was just staring at him, admiring the way he talks, his hand gestures, how he suddenly grins when he talks. thank god that the lights were off, 3ashan mayshoofne staring. He finished his presentation and sat down.

laaa latig3ad ifffff....;p

The next presentations took place and i was bored to hell. Finally, they finished oo b3dain with a laptop infront of every person we were taught on how to become familiar with the company's programs oo chethee. 6ab3an ana i wasnt paying attention when the programs were explained lena i was bored...fa kint 6a7sa shwy.

"emmm...mariam.." i whispered.

"hala..."

"shga3d nsawee..."

"uhh were transfering the data to the balance sheet..."

"wain hathaa...?"

"haw zain shfeech....hatha the program elle jidamich..."

"ohhhhh...." i said, still clueless "okay thanks..."

i sat there staring at the computer screen, then at the people around me. they seem to know what theyre doing, oo elle 3indihom as2ila they were helped out. bsss ilmoshkila enna if i ask ana 3indy mobas so2al...elle malyon so2al... 3an kilshay !! i looked around and saw a man approaching staring at the screens to see how we were doing. i started randomly clicking at stuff in my screen and transferring god knows what...ayshay bss atleast id look like im working. I casted a smile to the man, as soon as he moved i frantically looked around. abaaai shasawyy......!!! its like im in highschool all over again..!!!

I cant ask mariam lena 7aram maby a3a6ilha...ooo jassim ga3d b3eed...oo shoug..7ada la2 ! i turned to my left, and saw a shy girl typing her way through.

"emm hi..."

"hi..." she looked at me and blushed.

"bss abeech tsa3deeny shwy etha 3ady 3ndich..."

"ee ok..." and she explained to me what to do very quickly infear that someone would see. i thanked her and started right away. it turned out to be easy anyway. i reached a part where you would have to check your balance sheet for any mistakes and i had 1 error. i reread the balance sheet and the data but couldnt seem to find where the error was. People started handing their work and were leaving oo i was still stuck at this stupid error that i couldnt seem to find. I turned to my left again bss the girl shakilha 5ali9at oo ra7at, plus mariam was still far behind. ohhhh well, i'll just ask for some help. i raised my hand and looked around, all the helpers seemed to be busy or really far away form me. i craned my neck and spotted s3ood, i looked at him and he seemed to have seen me and advance towards me. The closer he got the more i felt nervous. What do i say ? should i apoligize first 3ala ams? should i thank him for not firing me ? or should i ask him right away ?
He was a few steps away, so i lowered my arm, but he passed me! passed me ? i turned my face to the other side and saw him walking...proceeding towards.....shoug !!! my jaw dropped, shoug 3a6atne ibtisama 5abeetha nafs wayiha but soon changed it to a soft, girly smile and looked at s3ood. s3ood went to one side and lowered himself and listened to whatever question she asked. He explained to her bss i know that she was trying to make herself stupid 3ashan t7irny, sooo s3ood put one hand at the back of her chair and the other hand he used to hold the mouse and to show her what he meant.
i realized that i was staring alot, oo ashkara and that my jaw was still dropped. sh'hal dagra ! ashkara he saw me...moma38oola he didnt. bss yimkin shougoo kanat mraf3a eedha gablee...hmmm we'll see. I waited for s3ood to finish from shoug, which took like FOREVER!! Y3ne mayifham enna shes doing this molena mofahma oo lena she wants him to stay longer. s3ood finally finished and straightened himself, i didnt raise my arm, i just waited for him to come over to me....but he didnt. He passed right through me again ....as if i dont exist. A lump formed in my throat, i hate being ignored...i always did. i faced my computer again and stared at the data sheet determined to find the error.

"ti7tajain mosa3ada bnaytee..." asked me an old man...stath m7amad. i looked up,

"emm..." i said bss makamalt lena he was staring at me with concern in his eyes. i blinked, and the tears that have been welled up in my eyes trailed down my cheek. i turned my face embarrassed, a9lan i didnt realize that i was tearing up.

"wain...yibay 5al asa3dich..." he said and took the mouse. I dazzingly stared at what he was doing and he found the error which was that i copied 234 instead of 233 from the data table.

"mashkoor..." i said.

"great job..." he said with a british accent. the sight of him all old and wrinkled and talking english made me giggle. He smiled, " yalla 5ala9tay sho'3lich...."

"ya36eek il3afya .." i smiled and stood up. i grabed a tissue and dabbed the remaining tears from my face, and picked up my notes. I turned my face and caught s3ood's eyes on me from afar, he immediately turned his face. I said goodbye to mariam and jassim and headed outside. I remembered that i had some paper work that i didnt hand to s3ood so i passed by my office and picked them up then headed to s3ood's office. the secretary wasnt there lena her lena dawamha 5alla9. I stood there comtemplating what to do. etha masalamta byig3ad y3a9ib 3alai oo 9ara7attan mali5ilga roo7a ba6 chabdi. oo he's bl meeting room ta7at lail7een i think akeed busy answering shougoo's questions....soo i guess that i'll leave it on his desk.
i entered his office, i switched the lights on and went to his desk. madry laish bss galbi kan yirga3, the thought that im in s3oods office without him knowing sent chills throughout my body. I grabbed a pen and grabbed a paper and wrote on it that its from me oo inna this is my paper work. I put the pen back in its place and st the papers in the middle of his desk and set the stapler on top so that they wont get blown away or something. I turned around,

"***gaaaaaaaasssssspppppp****....." i backed away and hit the table sending the lamp to fall down and break into peices all over the wooden floor. My heart was beating widely in my ears, i stared at s3ood who just stared at me and at the broken lamp then back at me. "i-im sorry..." i quickly said and bent over picking up the glass peices from the floor with my fingers shivering vigorously.

"t3awartay..." s3ood said and crossed over the room with long strides. "5aleehom zain..."

I ignored him and resumed picking the shattered glass from off the floor.

"zain..."

"sorry..abaai asfaa ...." i said and my vision blurred.

"zain 5aleehom...latjiseenhom..." he came down beside me.

"a-asfa....makan 8a9dy..." i managed to say as i cried. His arms came over mine and he shoved away the glass from my hand and pulled me up. I leaned against the table. He was searching my hands for any cuts. He's acting like he cares when minutes ago he was ignoring me completely.
I snatched my hand away from him. I was sobbing and i could sense how lost he was, he just froze not knowing what to do, how to act. after a while he said,

"3ady zain...a89aha abajora..."

I cried even more. he stupidly thinks that im crying because of a stupid lamp ?!

"moga3d abchee 3ashan the lamp..." i managed to say. i looked at him and his face was full of questions...i confused him even more.

"huh..." he said.

"ga3d abchee minnik enta...."

He looked at me, "asif ? " he shrugged.

I took in a deep breath, "laish kint ti7girny twamsa3..?"

He didnt answer me.

"ha...laish..? laish !! im sorry 3an ams...oo thank you enna u didnt fire me bss hathaa moma3nataa enna u ignore me chethee...."

"makint ga3d a7girich...." he said, i raised an eyebrow. "kint bilawal..bs ri7t 3nd shoug..."

"bsss 5ala9t minha oo ham 7igartny !"

"ma7igartich a9lan ana elle gilt 7ag stath m7amad eyeech....lena ran telephonee oo kanat mokalama '6aroreeya.."

oh!

"thanyan e7na ibsharika moli3ib yahal oho 3ashan a7girich...."

i remained quiet lena i was embarrassed...i felt like a baby. i stayed there...then i decided to leave. "ana bs yait ayeeb ilpaper work...." i said and with my hand i leaned away from the table, "kahoo....ayyyyyy !!!!!" i felt a stab of pain shoot from my hand. i held it tightly. it hurt alot !!

"tsk...akeed zjaaj dash beedich...yebeeha 5al ashoof..."

"laa maby y3awir..." i sounded like a baby. he looked at me with humor in his eyes as he gently took my hand into his. he slowly opened it and just like he said there was a peice of glass peirced through my skin. He reached for it, "laaa laaa ....y3awir..." i squeezed my eyes shut.

He chuckled softly, "mara7 a3awrich....ra7 asheela shwy shwy......s.h.w.y shwy.....kaaa...6ala3ta..."

I opened my eyes and looked at my hand then at the small peice of glass in his hand. I didnt feel a thing. "tabeen ayeeblich plaster 3ala barbie ba3ad...." he grinned. i clumsily shook my head. I just stared at him, and he stared right back into my eyes, my heart thundered. His face got closer and closer, i found it difficult to breath from his intoxicating manly scent. His eyes were making me feel dizzy, he was really close now...i couldnt move i just leaned back on the desk frozen. he tipped his head a little to the side, his eyes still fixed on mine......then in a second he was away again. "kaa hatha tissue 7ag eedich..." he said. He placed it on the cut and shut my hand around it. so he was reaching for the tissue....ughhh im soo stupid...!! akeed he was reaching for the tissue..laish tafkeere raa7 b3eed...bss why did i feel like that...awal marra i feel this way....iffff im thinking too much.

"ummm mashkoor....l-lazim aroo7...."

"ana awa9lich ib 6ireeje..."

"laa 3ady walla..."

"ana sayartee blgarage b3d faa nafs il6ireej...."

"o-ok...." i said and we headed out together. it was weird walking side by side with him. we got into the elevator then from the elevator to the parking lot.

"shlon eedich..." he asked and looked at me.

"zaina...." i smiled back at him.

"ZAIN...!!!"

I looked infront, i focused and, "5alid...?!"

"zain...ahhh zain...a5eeran legaitich...." said 5alid as he walked toowards me. I froze, watching 5alid advance towards me. i turned and saw s3ood beside me looking at 5alid too then turned and faced me, his face .....confused!

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i'll post as soon as i get back....love u oo take care ;**

goodnight ;))

Random !!

2009-07-11T18:45:00.000+03:00

- awalan abee agoolokom enna i misssss u guys wallah !! y3ne a7is ive been distant wayid minkom oo mo3ajibny ilwa'63 bssss shswyyy kabootatkom mash'3oolaa mash'3ooolaaaa !!!!

-laish liq8 fa'6yaa?? mafeee a7ad mn9iji...i mean mashoof siyayeer bss fee nas...hmmmmm..shay '3areeeb walla...

-i was with a friend gabl cham youm oo yi3naa so we though yalla lets try "buffalos" ille bljabriya...ri7na sifa6na jbala elle oho yam "victory gym" nizalna oo ana amsheee...fee sayara shabba lait'ha soo galatlee my friend" deeray balich layid3amich.." fa 9aar feene ana "yam3awad ana yo3ana 5al akil b3dain kaifa" y3ne it wasnt feminine elle "waaaai 7adi yo3anaaa " aw " waai yumaaa..." it was a starving kaboot talking. ilmohim...maraina 3nd ilsayara lafait wayhe wala the guy wagif 3nd sayarta oo sima3na !!!!! ana itbal3amt...oo the guy grinned at me b3dain he chuckled !! fashlaa much...;p oo ilmoshkila enna he was hotttttt....tawa 6ali3 mn ilgym ooo
:((((((( fashalt 3mre jidama..

-elle ma5theen 9aifee....ashfi8 3alaikom lena jad jad 7arrrrrr....ana amshee shwaya athoob....bsss the people elle ma5theen summer course..i have to say enna...i salute you !!!

- sooo emmm kint asoog youm with a friend oo '6aya3t...bsss my ego mayisma7ly enna i admitt ena we were lost oo i kept driving lain mawi9alna mostashfa 9oba7 !!!! hnee 9ar feene laaaaaa e7naaaa '6ay3eeen mngalb !!!! oo ilmoshkila i dont wana call my mom lena she asked me etha adil oo 9ar feene" eee eeee akeed adil"..oo the rest of my family ham mali5lg i call sooooooo i called my cousin. oo gam ohwa maskeen edaleene...bss ti3ab weyay...ygoole roo7ay yimeen ana aroo7 seeda...oo waaaay 3al ashkaal elle kanaw ymiroon yammi oo my cousin fa9il 3alai !!! it was hottttt...oo ana '6ai3a oo la3at chabdi oo my cuz yi6anaz 3alai...y3ne ilwa'63 kan mi2saaaa...bsss wi9alna thanx to my cuz elle kilyoum yi6anaz 3alai because of it...;p

-i went to 360 the mall oo it was cool...y3ne madry laish ray7a...mako wala shay fati7 !! mbala fee shwy bss still y3ne...oo omg ilawadim '6aaaaaim jad jad....y3ne etha mfakreen tro7oon i sujest morning, '6ohor oo basss.....bilail man9a7 9adgoonyyyy...bsss overall the mall is 7ilo, mratab, ilshops yiddad y3ne mo ilshops ilmokarara elle nshofhom ib kil mall....the cinema kbeera oo barrrrrrd...take a blanket with u mn9iji....oo bas;p

-i confessed to one of my friends (mango) enna ana kaboot..oo mora'6yaa t9adigny oo i keep giving her proofs blrandoms oo chethee bss mom9adga ! shes like "laa2 entay 9aida mosta7eel ur her..." oo 9ar feene y3ne kaboot mo9aida y3ne....9ar feene b3dain "okay etha tabeen i prove it to you the post i will write i will dedicate it to you..sheno tabeen i name you.." oo we were ib avenues ga3d namshee , she looked up wala tshoof ma7al mango oo 9ar feeha "name me mango.."oo i did..oo ga9ait wayiha...muwahahahahahhahahhahahahahh....GA99AT WAYH !! "she's like abaaai ur famous tadreen....bss mabeeha tkoon entay...entay 9aida..."...ana agool WAYHICH EL9AIDA elle u didnt notice hehehehhhehehhe ;p

-i hate my blackberry ! shda3wa ilq8 kilha bb's 9ayra..ana no3ee enna ma7ib albis shay habba aw enna wayid akoo minna....oo i bought my bb gabil ilhabba ...bs el7eeen omg !!! kbeeer..9'3eeer...kilhom yamshoon oo wayihom bl bb's malot'hom..!!

-abaaaaai habba 3ala micheal jackson...a'3aneee 9a5ar...bsss maskeeen y3neee ilnas mahtamola ella youm maat....7ada typical ....when he dies hes famous all over again...shilfayda....ilrayal maat...7asafaaa 3ad i wanted to go to his concert ib london...oh well,,,maby in another lifetime...;p

-ray7aaa london bacher....**shagga ilwayh**....oooo bsss abe ilbaraad, iltisiwig, iltizigrit....I CANT WAIT !!! i'll be gone for a month....galolee ena mafee wayid 3arab hal sinaaa...a7san lena 9ara7attan mali5lghom...i mean awal kan fee bss mokithir these past few years....soo zain...abee aroo7 mbarayaat ilsoccer ille t9eer ((i know know;p)) bsss walla wanasa...the feeling u get in the stadium shay 3ajeeeb...wayid naas...oo ilplayers nitfa..oo youm t9eer the wave tgomoon oo u do it with them....wayid energy...3aaaaaady yinkat 3ala rooskom beer...mn ille warakom when they cheer they team oo their glasses hit...;p ahhhhhhhh cant wait..;p

-lail7een mazahabt walashay for the safra...mali5lg (typical)..i hate packing...kil elle i packed ohwa my stories elle bagrahom bl6ayara..nyahahhaha....ilbajeeee inshalla eyeelohom ildor ;p

-ummmmm....i'll post a post tomorrow a long one hopefully...oooo i wont post youm akoon msafra...lena a7ib youm asafer inna i disconnect myself mnkilshay...soooooo when i come back i'll continue with the story....kil youm post i promise ;)))

-i loveeeeeeee uuuuuuuu.....amooooot feeeeeekoooooommmmm.....i'll misssssss uuuuuu...;*********

;D

Mulish (8)

2009-07-07T21:33:00.000+03:00

Dedicated to all of uuuuuu.....;***

ENJOY ;)))
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Zain......

I woke up feeling lethargic. I didnt want to head to work, a9lan i dont know if im still hired wala la2. I hot dresssed and headed to work. I got to the cafeteria and ordered a large cup of coffee before proceeding to my office. I sat down and found paper work on my desk and my heart lit up. Im not fired!!!! I never thought that id be happy to see work on my desk ever, but this ...this is a relief. Ohhh if i could only thank him for giving me a chance...!!! I smiled and started working right away, im gona make sure that its perfect when it reaches him. I was in the middle of my work when i heard a voice that i detest adress me,

"oh..zain ?!"

I looked up at shoug, "enta shno shayfa ya3ne..."

"madry..bs ista'3rabt..."

"laish inshalla..."

"y3ne...."she twirled her hair, "gilt yimkin they fired you 3ogob ams..."

I looked at her as she gave me an innocent smile, mal ashig 7aljha ma3 wayiha. "laaa walla they didnt fire me mithil ma entay shayfa...faa ana agool roo7ay jablay shi'3lich a7sanlich..." i spat back and faced my computer, ignoring her completely. I felt her stand there, indagrat, oo b3dain ra7at. Several hours later, i was finally done bss i sat down for another hour revising over and over again. I stood up and got into the elevator and from that to s3oods office. I got in and beamed at the secretary,

"5ala9t ilawrag..."

"ee okay...5aleehom houn oo ana bawadeehom la istaz s3ood..."

"laish...." i looked at her confused. lena 3adattan he always lets me hands him the work 3ashan ygoole his comments.

"houwa haik 6alab...." she shrugged.

"ahh...ok..." i said and went out. After several minutes, my phone rang in my office and the secretary told me that s3ood says that its okay and that another set of work will be handed to me.

And these are how the next three days were. I would get my work, do it, hand it to the secretary, and wait for s3oods comments from the secretary. I didnt see him at all since that day, and i have to admitt but i miss him. I miss the way he raises his sardonic eyebrow at me, the way he scolds me, how he always critisizes me......astonishing but true. i did however catch a glimpse of him yesterday, i was leaving the company when i saw him in the lobby talking to some people. He stood there for several moments then walked away; he didnt see me. I would get home and get swarmed by 5alids messages, phonecalls etc....

and i dont know what to do....everything is so messed up !!
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S3ood.....

7ayatee kanat mashyaa tamam. aroo7 ilsho'3l, arja3 aroo7 ilgym, ag3ad ma3 ilahal, diwaniya, chalet oo ilyoum ille ba3da nafs ilshay. ellaaa youm ri7t youm ilsharika oo iktishaft inna 3ndi intern yideeda. okay y3ne ana 3ala6ool at3amal ma3 interns..moshay yideed. bsss hatheee..hatheee '3air. 3aneeda ibshakil mo6abe3y oo ras'ha yabis oo elle tabe tsawee tsawee. ana 3ndi mokana ib hal sharika oo wala marra a7ad tijara2 enna ykalimni ib hal6aree8a oo eradidne...'3air zain. ilbint '3areeba oo magdar afhamha killish. oo ilmoshkila inna mat5aaf minni....etha mo3ajibha shay itgoola ashkara. matgool inne ana her boss oo lazim askit oo asawee ellle ygoole 3alai. mithil awal youm laman we9alni sho'3olha oo kan killish mo'6abi6, gitlaha oo ista'3rabt youm shafatne oo radidatne inna matshoof enna fee shay. mnda5il kint abee a'67ak...bss makint abee a5aleeha tit3awad tkalimni chethee faa 3a6ait'ha sho'3ol zyadaa.

oo balasht astanas youm tyeene ta3eene sho'3ol oo at3amad enne a3a9ibha...9ij enna ilsho'3ol ykoon nagi9 bss ana a6afirha oo a3a9ibha oo titnarfaz bsir3a. a7is'ha daloo3a....kilshay mitwafir laha oo 3omorha mat3ibat 7ag shay. ib awraag elle 8adimat'hom 7ag ilsharika....fee so2al enna where do you see yourself five years from now ? oo sheno kan jawabha.....iljawab ille adhashne...

ashoof nafsee ashti'3l ibsharikat oboy.

haljawab 5alani a7kim 3alaiha gabil mashoofha. embayin inha malha 6omoo7 tsawee shay zain...kil elle hamha enha tishti'3il ib sharikat obooha. oo madry laish moga3da tsht'3l 3inda el7een...hmmm. bss isloobha oo '3oroorha ynarfizni...shlon shi'3ilha killa nagi9 mayi3jibne chethee. ana sho'3lee lazim dayman ma'6boo6. oo bilijtima3 gabil thalat ayam fashilatne. awal shay kint 7aas feeha enha mitwatra oo akeed ibtawatar..fa kint abtisimlaha kilshwy a6aminha....risamtlaha smiley face b3d . bsss ham 3omre ma7asait blsho3oor ille 7asaita thaak ilyoum. kil ilmohimeen mawjodeen, ana ga3d asawee ilpresention oo aktishif enna nagi9...ib no9a !! 6arasht'ha tyeeb ilgraphs ille nag9een..bs may9eer a2a5er ilnas warahom mawa3eed...fa kamalt ilpresentation 3ala 7asab thakirte, without the graphs. rija3t maktabee oo ana m3a9ib ibshakil mo6abee3y oo b3d shwy aktishif enna zain itdish 3alai blmaktab. y3ne killish mowagt'ha. kanat yaya tit2asaf....9ar feene ille okay y3ne 5alti6la3 lena 7adi mitnarfiz...bss youm galatle ena ana mastahal enha ti2asifatle oo chethee....i lost it! ana 3adattan i dont lose myself chethee...bss i lost it...jidam bnaya!!! a9lan madry sheno kint agool....bs 6ala3t 7ariti feeha 3adil..!!! b3dain shift'ha oo shakilha kan mit9arwi3...oo istw3abt inne akeed 5ara3t'ha oo ana chethee...kanat ildam3a b3ainha fagitlaha ti6la3..oo 6la3at.

mn youmat'ha mashift'ha...gilt 7ag ilsecertaira ehya twa9il ta3lee8atee 7ag zain...mabee ashoofha. bss ams kint ta7at billobby wala ashoofha ga3da tshoofne...sawait nafsee moshayifha oo mishait.

ilwa'63 9a3ab 3alai...y3ne mokafeee inna my x mawjooda! ma3ina bss kint ma3 shoug 7ag shahar..she was a rebound girl. gabil thiman sneen 7abait wa7da, 3omree ma7abait a7ad kithir ma7abait'ha bss iktishaft fee youm enha in5a6bat. 7awalt aw9alaha bss gi63at kilshay yirbi6nee feeha. faaa tigdiroon tgoloon enne 7abait....oo kanat marra wa7da, mn youmat'ha ma7abait killish...wala abee a7ib. ingira9t marra oo mabee angiri9 mara thnya.uffffff il7een shoug, my rebound girl, bilsharika ma3a.....oo 3indi intern imyaninatne.....allah y3eene !!

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Luv u ;**

gudnight ;))

Mulish (7)

2009-07-05T20:41:00.000+03:00

Dedicated to Chanel.....mitttttttthhhhhhhh
uuuuuuuuuuuuuu ;****

ooo to mango....ga9ait wayhich 9aida;p 9adagtay il7een;p

ENJOY ;))

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Zain...........

Why isnt he picking up ?!!?!?! ufffff....i need him !!!!

I tried calling again...and again...y3ne momin3awayda enna maysheel. I finally gave up and took in a deep breath and headed to *gulp* s3oods office. I reached the door and stopped,

llaaaa laaa magdar magdar !!!

I was about to turn and go away when his secretary saw me,

"shooo..bidik shee..?" she said with a mug of coffee in her hand.

"uhhh...ee...la2...madry...."i let out and exasperated breath. I mean i have to face him sooner or later and i cant avoid him forever. Oo halmarra ana il'3al6ana oo lazim inna i apoligize....lazim. He doesnt deserve what i did to him, fashalta ana, fashalta ib shakil mo6abee3i !! 9ij enna wayid kan ybi6 chabdi oo ynarfizne bss i mean i have to admitt inna he was just doing his job, plus, today i found out more about him than i did. He's sweet. The smiley face he drew for me, his smiles that he casted upon me every now and then.

"shoo...?"

"ummm eee...ba'3ait ashoof s3ood"

"eee bas bainee oo bainik...elyoum mazajooo momnee7 abadan....."

I think i know why.

"umm...la 3ady..."

"mithil mabidik...." she said and called s3ood and told him that i was here to see him. She shut the phone and shook her head, "sorry bss mabido yshoof 7adaaa...."

No may9eer...i have to talk to him, i have to apoligize.

"laa please goleela '6aroory...."

"7ajarib bss ba3rif enoo msh 7aywafi2...." she dialled again and with no luck. he said no. iffff 3aneed halwalad....malisho'3l ra7 akalma. I went up and to his door. The secretary stood up, "laaa please mabe9eer haaik...."

"lazim ashoofa....please..." i looked at her pleadingly. She looked hesitant then came over to me,

"okay bs a6la3 ...mishaan enno mabanzaf ...." she said and hurried away. I faced the dark wooden door, gathered up all the courage i need and knocked. No answer. I knocked again and i heard his deep masculine voice. I got in,

whats the chance that he didnt see me.....an7ash ??

He looked so handsome sitting there at his desk, he didnt look up at me, but waved his hand, "hi6ay ilawraag hnee....oo yebeele panadol"

Oh he thinks im his secretary

"a-ana zain...."

I saw him pause, for a while then looked at me without raising his head. His dark eyes peered at me and scanned me from afar...without a word. I felt uncomfortable and wished that i hadnt come. We were both silent....he was looking at me with this arrogant look of his but filled with something i couldnt put my finger on. I think that i should say somthing...anything to break the tension.

"3an elyoum....ana...a-ana...." say it...say it.... " a-asfa....." there, can i go now?

He looked at me and didnt say a word for a while, "bas ?"

I looked up, "ee...bs y3ne..."

"ok...." he said and turned his attention back to the stack of papers on the desk.

ok ?

"ok...." i echoed again. He looked up and raised an eyebrow. "y3ne...ok....bs mom3a9ib....?"

"gitlich ok...."

"sheno y3ne ok...."

He looked at me, then shut his eyes and massaged his head, "zain....momkin et6il3een barra....a9lan entay shlon dashaitay...."

"s3ood....e7m stath s3ood.....ana yaya at2asaflik wetgoolee 6il3ay barra...?! il'6ahir enne '3ila6t enna ti2asaftlik lenik matistahal...." i retorted. His head snapped up, and his eyes were furious.

Oops...!

He got up from his chair and came to me, "sheno giltay...." his voice thick with fury.

Abaaaai abaaai..

"uhh asfa makint a89id...as" i didnt continue, he cut me as i was about to apoligize again.

"ana elyoum shgitlich....moo gitlich abee ilgraphs malot quarters one oo two....laish bss 7a6a one...?!"

"bil'3ala6..bil'3ala6 !!"

"sheno bil'3ala6 ?!!? fashalteene jidam ille akoo willi makoo...oo tgoleeen bil'3ala6 ?!!?"

"asfaa...."

"SHBEFEEED....shbetfeed halkilma....?!" he answered with rage. I felt so small and weak compared to him. He was tall and was towering over me, his voice strong and thick, his face filled with anger. I remained quiet.

Laish tifalsaft...kint agdar a6la3 youm gaal "ok"....wala kil hatha y9eer...

"ilijtimaa3 kan nagi9...killa bsibitich..!!"

"ilkil yi'3li6...." i replied calmly. That seemed to push him even more.

"cham marra 6awaftlich...?? oo youm a36eech ilthi8a oo machayik sho'3lich chethee tsaween...."

He kept slashing me with his words, i remained quiet, i deserved it i know, hes angry i can see that. I didnt want to say anything to infuriate him even more. 3ady kint abchee ib ay la7'6aa...bss i held it in, i didnt want to cry infront of him. He finally finished, he was breathing heavily, his jaw clenched, hands clasped, face red. I did this to him, he looks like a man who keeps his emotions in balance. I dont think that hes the type of person that loses their temper easily, but i clearly pushed him to the edge today.
He was quiet, staring at me then gave me his back. I just stood there, helpless, waiting for round number two. He took in a deep breath and faced me again,

"3a6eene sabab wa7id y5aleene i dont fire you el7een...."

I met his eyes with my unshed teared eye. He's gonna fire me...?! My heart sunk, and a tear fell from my eye. How am i gonna explain that to my dad ? how will i prove to my dad that im good ? will i ever work for him ?
I felt his eyes soften a little, "6il3ay zain....6il3ay...." his voice calm. I nodded my head and walked outside, when i turned to shut the door i saw his arm also reached to close it. we were close, seperated by a door, he gazed at me then slowly closed the door. I stared at the door for a while then went .....home.

I sat on my bed, i tried to cry but nothing would come out ! I threw my head on the pillow and reached for my mobile. No miscalls from 5alid. I dialled...this is going to be the last time b3d mara7 adig 3alai.

"aloo...."

"aloo...?" i said. i looked at my phone, it was 5alid's number, "meno..?"

"entay meno..."

"entay meno...?" i said back.

"wa7da tmoot 3ala 5alid...."

"sh-sheno.....5alid wain..?"

"ga3d ya5ithla shower....tabeen awa9la message wala shay..."

"l-la ....." i said and shut the phone. I held it in my hand, staring at it for god knows how long.

5alid....5alid? the one i trust, love.....5alid?

I couldnt believe it, but that explains his weird behaviour lately.How could he...after all those years ?! how could he throw it all away...?! kint 7adi msabaha...momistaw3iba...i was in shock...shlon i mean shlooooon....

My phone rang and i absent mindly picked up, "aloo..."

"aloo...!!" 5alids voice was alarmed, "zain...!!"

"sheno kan hatha 5alid....? sheno kan hatha....!!!"

"5al ashri7lich..."

"tishra7 sheno...?!!? tishra7ly ennik 5intny....!!"

"zain...ana..."

"laish...laish...?!?! ib sheno ga9art weyak...."

"zain..."

"oo t5oony....it5oonyyy !!!" i cut him.

"zain sim3eeny....asif...asif..."

"shfaydat halkilma.....?!" i retorted and remembered s3ood when he said that to me a few hours earlier.

"a7ibich zain..."

"latig3ad tchathib....!! 5ala9 its over...!!! over !!!"

"latgoleen chethee.."

"mabeek itdig 3ala hal ra8am....we're over...!!"

I shut the phone, and the tears finally flowed out of my eyes...in large amouts.Its just too much to take in one day.
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Luv u ;***

Gudnight ;))))

Mulish (6)

2009-06-30T17:16:00.000+03:00

Missed uuuuuuu......;**********

ENJOY...;)))))))
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Zain....

I shivered slightly when he touched my arm, i chose to ignore it and we sat down. Men and women all with experience were seated on the table and ....me. I really was lost, the things they talked about where like i was from another planet or something. I do have a background about business since its my major bsss this is ...new. The people around the table were here for one purpose ...the company and its welfare. Pride filled me up as i sat there amongst them, listening, learning. S3ood glanced at me and gave me a reassuring smile, it calmed me down and it meant alot to me that he didn't forget that i was there...beside him. He turned back and kept taking notes here and there and i admired how composed he looked, how he focused, how his answers, suggestions were heard and taken.

I picked up the pen that was infront of me and decided to take some notes too...i mean, why not. I startted jotting down key stuff that were being mentioned and i started to pick up on what they were saying. It began to make sence to me alittle. I looked up and noticed s3oods smiling eyes on me, although his lips didnt twitch. He saw the notes that i have written and reached over with his pen in his hand. I wanted to see what he was doing but his arm hindered me from seeing what he was writing down. His perfume seemed to captivate me and it set me awake alittle. Seconds later he lifted his arm and at the top left hand corner of my paper was a smiley face. I immediatley smiled...a wide one and looked up at him but he was busy talking to the man on the other side of the table. I looked back at my paper and joy filled me up. He really understood how nervous i was and he kept glancing at me every now and then and he was happy to see me assimilate. Maybe today he can see that i am capable of the company's work demands and that i am a good assistant to him and his work.

S3ood faced me and tipped his head closer, my heart drummed faster, i stared at his dazzling brown eyes, his manly features..when his voice interrupted me,

"wain il cd ?" whispered s3ood.

"umm kaho.." i motioned to it from under my papers.

"okay...goomay 3ashan n7i6a oo nbalish ilpresentation..."

"o-okay..." i stammered and got up. We walked up to the laptop on the end of the table, we put the cd in, and turned the projector on. S3ood turned off the lights and i clicked on the icon on the bottom and the slide took the whole screen. s3ood came over to me, i held the table for support cause i was really nervous.

"5ala9 gi3day entay...." said s3ood to me. I thanked god and seated myself.

Moments later the presentation started. S3ood was explaining the company's progress regarding the marketing method that the company has been using. Since s3ood is the head of the marketing area of the company it is his feild and speciality to discuss this. He was literate, knowlegeable and spoke with alacrity that was like a magnet which drew all the people on the table's attention toward him. He finished discussing the first quarter and he reached the slides that i made...the graphs. I smiled and i felt proud of myself for doing these slides. S3ood discussed each graph and moved to the others smoothly. He began talking about the second quarter and the challenges he faced, he went to the laptop and clicked for the next slide to come up. The second quarter graph that is. I looked at him, then i saw his face puzzled then alarmed. I looked at the slide that was displayed on the projector and .....

Oh no....!!!! This cant be happening....!!!

S3ood moved to the next slide and the one after that....then looked at me. I gulped as i saw his jaw clenched and his eyes shooting daggers my way. He called me and i stood up and went to him with my legs quacking.

"sheno hatha...?" he hissed to me.

"u-umm madry...y-ymkin i copied bl'3ala6..."

"bil'3ala6..?!" he stared at me with his livid eyes.

"a-aroo7 ayeeb ilgraphs bsir3a oo ayee..." i sujested desperately. He looked at me hard, then looked back at the people on the table forced a smile to them and hissed to me, "bsir3a !"

I fled away and practically ran to my office cursing myself along the way. I ran to my computer and started saving the quarter two graphs on the flash.

OMG.....whats wrong with me...?! i copied quarter one graphs twice....ymkn mn ilsir3a i copied qaurter one graphs instead of quarter two graphs....so there were two sets of quarter one graphs....5ara...!!! s3ood is going to kill me...he will...i can feel it...!!! fashalta jidam the people...kil ilnas ilmohimeen bilsharika were there oo his presentation was missing, incomplete....how would that make him feel...his ego, pride......??

As soon as i copied the graphs, i ran back up stopped ifront on the meeting room, adjusted my skirt, knocked and got in. I handed s3ood the flash, he took it and set it on the table. I sat back on my chair and noticed that he carried on with the presentation, i felt my stomach get queasy. After about 15 minutes the presentation ended and s3ood turned on the lights and sat back down beside me. I could feel his body tense although he was talking casually to the people on the table.

Would it be rude if i left the table...?

I looked back at my paper and saw the smiley face and a lump formed in my throat. I failed him....miserably, He'll never forgive me, i wouldnt be surprised if he fired me a9lan. The meeting ended..finally. People started there way out and i stood up and walked to the flash that was laying on the table. I picked it up and stared at it, god im stupid !!! The meeting room was empty now...i sat down with the flash in my hand as silent tears pricked my cheeks. I got out of the meeting room and went to my desk. I slumped on the chair as guilt raced through me. I dont know what excuse he gave them about why the graphs were missing ...how humiliating it must've been to him. Kil ilnas ilmohimeen ille bilsharika were there and i dont want them to get a wrong impression of him 'cause he's perfect ! Its me who did this, and even though he might have told them they would still maybe blame him for not revising the graphs with me and for trusting a new employee. OMG..he trusted me !

"zain...shfeech...?" said mariam with a concerned look on her face. I recited to her everything that happened. "abaai....enzain oo shsawaa.."

"madry mashifta...6ila3 oo mashifta ba3adha...."

"zain abe agolich shay..." i looked up at her, "tara s3ood sho'3la perfect...its s3ood....he doesnt do something unless hes sure its presentable..."

"i know...3ashan chethee when i give him my work y6ali3 alf sha'3la fee..."

Mariam nodded with agreement, " plus...ohwa wayid yi7tarmona bilsharika...oo akbar daleel enna 7a6oo ra2ees ilmarketing section oo ohwa 9'3eer bas 3omra 29 !"

"shasawee...?"

"apoligize...?"

"a5aaf...." Mariam smiled to me,

"ti2asifay o inshalla yifham..." she said as she got up and went. I looked at the phone, just one button and i would call s3ood, bss its not right to apoligize this way...i have to see him. I took a deep breath, what am i going to do. He must be furious now, oo a5aaf minna !!! I picked up my mobile and dialled 5alid's number..5anshoof shegoolee asawee..

He didnt pick up...i dialled again and again...

Waina ?!

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short i admitt...bss i am busy wallah...

luv u ;**

msg to u :*

2009-06-27T15:20:00.000+03:00

I'm sorry 7addddiiiiiiii !!!!!

Bsss I've been busy lena I have a relative blhospital so makan yamdeene...

As soon as I'm free I'll post..!

Ooo to the commentors who wrote me a song ur soooooo cute I smiled the whole time I was reading it :)))
Ooo to the others its not like I forgot u ...kaboot never does bss I'm busy...I'll
Be back in a day or two for sure !!!!!

Luv uuuuuuuuuuuuu !!!!!!!!!

Mulish (5)

2009-06-23T18:51:00.000+03:00

dedicated to chanel......q8 misses u !!!! come back !!!

ENJOY...;)))

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Zain.........

6ila3t barra m3a9ba....ib ay 7ag yitihimni oo y9adig hal chathaba...! wallah law yitzawijon a7sanlohom lena 7adhom laygeen 3ala ba3a'6!

i went to my desk and started calming myself down, i looked around to see where shoug was but she wasnt there....wallah good for her chan nataft'ha!
I just wanted the day to be over with....i glanced at my watch and i had 34 minutes exactly till i get out of here.

Jassim saw me and came over to me, "hala wallah..."

"hi...."

"shfeech...."

"mafeene shay bss lay3a chabdi mn ilnas elle hnee...."

"affaaaaaaa...."

"hehe la2 moenta...i meant shoug oo s3ood...."

"ahhh...laish...."

i told him shlon shoug is being ensana 7mara oo shlon s3ood malee8 shayif roo7a oo walashay yi3jiba.

"oo bas..."

"bas...?!! kill hatha oo bas.....?!" he mused. I laughed."lat7ateen entay bss saway sho'3lich oo 3a6eehom skip...."

"ya3ne...t'haga chethee..."

"mit2akid..." he grinned. He's soooo cute !! At that time the phone rang, i picked it up.

"alooo....ba3ad ?! meta tasleema...? ahaaa....okay....bss 3ady a5tha minnich entay...la mabee adish 3alai....please....okay thanks...kani el7een 9a3da..."

"meno...s3ood..?"

"laaa we! hathee his secretary tgoole a93ad foug 3indi another paper work to do..." i said as i got up.

"okay...nshofich...." said jassim as i went to the elevator. I got in and entered s3oods office to the secretary.

"hiiii..wain ilawrag....?"

"sorry bss istaaz s3ood aaal enno lazim etshofeee...."

"bass...." ooh fine !! "okay....."

I knocked and went into s3oods office, i'll just get the papers and get out. I got in and stood infront if his desk waiting for the papers to be handed to me and just get the hell out of here.

"hathee awragich...abeech t5al9eenhom bacher gabil ilsa3a 1...oo ra7 tit2a5irain bacher lena fee ijtima3....oo kawnich wa7da yideeda lazim tyeen 3ashan tit3alimain oo tiktasbain 5ibra...." he said as he looked at me, bss i was quiet the whole time just waiting for him to give me the papers.
"ma3indich as2ila....?"

"la2...."

"okay..." he handed me the papers, i moved to leave when he stood up and came to me, i froze in my place. "oo 3an tawamsaa3...an9a7ich matkalmeeni ib hal 6aree8a, oo tit9arifain ibtahawir ma3ay...."

"enta ma3a6aitny for9a ashra7lik...."

"7attan law...ennich ti6li3een oo ana at7acha...oo matsakreen ilbab mayamshee ma3ay....lat3edeenha..." he gazed into my eyes. I hate him!!!!! i really really do !!!
i glared back at him, took the papers from his hands and walked away, closing the door. i went out of his office and took my bag to head out since my day is over. I got home and dialled 5alids number since i always do before i sleep but he didnt pick up, i dialled a while later and he had another line....i didnt wait for him, i slept the whole day from exhaustion and fury.

The next day i headed to work early, and went straight to my desk to start working. I had to make charts and graphs of the gross income of the company these last two quarters. I started working immediately inorder to get it done before 1pm. it was 12:30 and i still didnt finish....i started panicking!

"shfeech...hadai you'll get it done....yalla work..." reassured me mariam.

I kept working fast and hard, oh god i was no way close to finishing it. At 1pm my phone rang and i ignored it and resumed my work. At 1:15pm ..after so many calls i picked up.

"aloooo....ee...ee...ee adry bss lail7een ma5ala9t...goleela b3d shwy....okay.."

I shut the phone and worked like crazy with my mind racing on thoughts of s3ood mad up in his office.People left and i and a few were left in the office working. At 1:45pm my phone rang again and it was s3oods secretary again telling me that i have to get it done so that they include it in the slide show befor 4pm which is when the meeting starts. i reassured her that i will get it done and started on my last graph for the second quarter. When i noticed a figure approaching me, i turned around to see s3ood approaching me, his jaw clenched.

"lail7een ma5ala9tay...?"

"l-la2...bss ka el7een..."

"ana bas ma36eech two quarters !! oo mogadra t5al9eenhom ?! shimsawya 6ool ilyoum...."

"ga3da ashto'3il 3alaihom..."

"oo lail7een ma5ala9tay..." he glanced at his watch, "el7een sa3a 3:00 meta bit5al9eenhom oo ilijtima3 ba3ad sa3a...."

"enzain laish m3a9ib...."

"lena killish mo3al mawa3eed entay....oo ma7ib chethee !!!"

"bas ana tawne yideeda.....oo enta 9ayirlik sneen...fa latloomni etha i wasnt on time !!" i spat back in defence. He took a deep breath and his eyes were scary....but he just said,

"enzain malada3ee ilhwash el7een...5al9ay sho'3lich...oo b3dain 7i6ehom 3ala slides 44 lai 57...kil graph ib 9af7a...okay..."

"okay..." i said.

"el7een a6arishlich ilpresentation 3ala ilcomputer..." he said as he went. I finished my graph at around 3:15pm...i quickly saved them on to the slides and got up to the meeting room...where the meeting was gonna start. I got in and the meeting room consisted of a long table with chairs on both sides and a chair on the head of the table. Water, files, papers, pens were infront of every chair. A while later the head of the company came in and sat at the head of the table, other important figures in the company soon joined in, the table was filled with men...and only two women..i stood nervously not knowing what to do aw sheno maw8i3ee bainhom. Then s3ood got in and he greeted the people and they looked like they were all a fond of him, he looked so handsome and elegant and sophisticated in dealing with them. I was so lost.

But then i felt an a hand rest on my arm, "imshay yallah....5anig3ad ib amakina..." whispered s3ood in my ear as he led us to out places..the last empty chairs on the table.
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gudnight ;))))

Mulish (4)

2009-06-22T18:22:00.001+03:00

sry u guys bss wallah im busy these days...

luv u !!

ENJOY..;))
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Zain.....

After talking to 5alid as we do every night before i go to bed, i was contempt and slept. The alarm sounded and i shut it dreading the fact that im gonna have to go to work and indure s3ood's torture all over again. I quickly dressed and headed to work.

"saba7 il5air..." greeted me mariam as she sat besides me. I resited to her everything that happened yesterday after she left, "abaaaai sheno hathaa...mo9a7ee"

"eee shasawy....madry shbe9eer elyoum b3d....ya3ne 9ij mali5ilga...!"

"allah y3eenich...yallah ana 5al aroo7 ashti'3l .." she smiled and walked to her desk. I turned and faced my desk...shasaawy el7een, i have nothing to do. I got up walking around, checked my computer to see if there are any messages for me to recieve my new work wala shay...bss mako shay. I felt useless walking around the company, i contemplated going to s3ood's secretary to ask wether or not he assigned something for me to do...but i decided not to. So i decided to leave and go get me some things to decorate my desk with...it looked soo plain, so professional. I left and headed to IKEA and started grabbing all sorts of stuff that would look good on my desk. I decided to buy everything in bright colors...to be inviting ya3ne. I ve been gone for two hours and decided that i should get back now.

I got into the company, with my bags in my hand and headed to my office to sort the stuff out. I pulled out my new pencil holder and shoved the pens in it. I was busy setting my desk when my phone rang.

"aloooo..."

"zain enteee wayniiik !!!!"

"uh kani....knt 6al3a...laish..."

"ya allah ta3ee bsir3a ....staz s3ood bedoo yakii..."

"umm okay..." i gulped and headed to s3ood's office. I went in and the secretary gave me an apologetic look before i knocked on s3oods door and entered. He was standing, his posture rigid he looked at me and i felt my legs shake.

"momkin tgoleenle wain kintay..." he said with his voice deathly calm. I gulped and answered him,

"kint 6al3a..."

"6al3a....? laish ....."

"lena makan 3-3indy shay...." it felt stupid, i know i wasnt supposed to go...but i really had nothing to do.

"y3ne kilmarra maykoon 3ndich shay bti6li3een....?"

"la2...."

"zain...entay tabeen tishta'3lain..? lena fee wayid nas '3airich nigdar nsha'3ilhom" he said.

I looked up at him and nodded, "ee...hamni..akeed"

"lena shaklich killish mo mihtamma.....ams elawrag kanat mo3adla...elyoum 6al3a mnkaifich, oo entay 9ayrlich youmain hnee....sh5alaitay 7ag ilbajee..." I didnt answer him. '3al3omoom ra7 aktib feech ta8reer ..." i looked up,

"sheno...?"

"ta8reer 3alla elle sawaitee elyoum...." he said as he went to his desk and sat down.

"bass....."

"oo ra7 a6arishlich sho'3lich elyoum...." he looked up, "wayid...3ashan maykoon 3ndch 7ijja ti6li3een..."

I was quiet and i was so close to cry bs i wont cry infront of halmalee8 oo i now inna what i did was wrong but atleast 5al y5aleene ashra7la..!! I looked up wala he was looking at me it looked like he said something,

"na3am...?"

"tigdireen tro7een...a6arish sho'3lich bilcomputer..."

"ahh okay..." i said and left the office. i went to my desk, grabbed my phone and went to the bathroom and called 5alid.

"alooo...."

"5alid..." my voice shivered.

"shfeech 7ayatee..."

I cried and told him everything, and that my dad was right, and that i will never succeed in anything.....i cried everything out to him.

"shhh 7abeebty...la bil3ks entay gadha oo gdood...oo abeech twareenhom entay sheno....ana wathi8 minnich oo enich tigdireen tsaween kilshay....."

"mashkoor...."

"hatha il9ij...yallah '3aslay wayhich oo t2asifay mina..."

"la maby..."

"lat9eereen 3aneeda..t2asifay minna oo 7i6ay kilhatha waraach oo balshay 9a7.....okay...?"

"emmm okay...."

"3afya 3al sh6ra..."

"5alid..."

"hmmm.."

"a7ibik..."

"mokithree...yallah mama waraach sho'3ol.."

"hehe ee....bye..."

I shut the phone and went to my desk. I immediately started working on the work he sent me, for hours, trying my besk to show him that i am serious about this job. After two hours, it was the lunch break so i took that chance to go down and get me some coffee. After ordering my coffee i sat down with my papers in my lap and revising the work i just did. Moments later, s3ood came down and as soon as i saw him i called out for him, for 5alid's sake i was gonna apologize...

"stath s3ood...." i called as i stood up. s3ood turned and saw me and i saw confusion in his eyes, "ummm bas ba'3ait at2aasaf 3an elyoum oo mara7 asawee chethee mara thanya..." i managed quickly, not meeting his eyes. He didnt answer so i looked up and to my surprise i saw a hint of humor in his brown eyes. I stared back and smiled, a hint of a smile touched his lips,

"ashoof yayba sho'3lich weyach..." he motioned to the papers on my table, i looked back at him and smiled,

"eeee...3ashan matgool enna nagi9...." i joked. He looked at me,

"ensoof..... 3ashan ma5aleech t3eedina...." he said arrogantly and walked away.

WTF...?!!?!? SH8I9AT HAL RAYAL ...?!!? faj2a he was good and i thought that we reached an agreement b3dain he drops his haughty face and remarks and walks away...!

I clenched my jaw and sat back down on my table.

"sheno kan ygoolich s3ood..." i heard shougs voice. I turned,

"wala shay mohim..." and looked back at my paper, mali5ulgha.

"bss shakla kan elshay mohim...."

ana broo7e mitnarfiza oo killish monag9at'ha, "okay mohim ..bss mohim t3arfeen..."
i felt her studying me then she left.

After the lunch break i went and finished my work and went to s3ood's office to hand it to him. I went into the office and his secretary told me to wait since he has someone inside. I waited for a while then the door opened and my eyes widened, shoug walked out of s3oods office, grinned at me and exited the office. I stood up and reluctantly got into s3oods office. I handed him the papers and he took them, scanned them and set them on the table. I was relieved.

"gi3day zain...."

I sat down and he took a deep breath,"zain shi8i9itich ma3 shoug..."

I looked up at him, "shoug,,,??? shfeene weyaha.."

"ilbnaya ga3da tishtiky enna matlageenha wayh oo nafsiya ma3 ilmowa'6ifeen entay...."

"ana..?"

"zain 7awlay tit2a8limain 3ala wa'63 ilsharika oo lazim tit3amilain ma3 ilmowa'6ifeen elle weyach ib nafsiya 7ilwa...."

"oo enta 9adagt'ha...? ana zaina ma3 ilkil...."

"hatha mosho'3lee ana...a7il mashakil...bss 7abait agoolich..."

I stood up and stared at him, "oo mafakart shma3na yaitlik enta bilthaat...bain kil elle bilsharika....shma3na shtakatlik enta...?!"

He looked at me, and replied furiously, "sh8a9dich...ib hal 7achee...." he looked at me feircely. I glared at him, i wanted to say more, but i just walked away....leaving his door open ! 7mar ! oo 7mara !
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inshalla wn im free i'll post 4 u guys longer posts.....

bare with me...

Luv u...;**

Gudnight ;))

Mulish (3)

2009-06-18T19:41:00.001+03:00

ENJOY ;)))

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Zain........

I stood there msa6la shwy...y3ne jad 6a7saa oo madry shasawy. I pressed the elevator button and then got in going to the 39th floor. I sat at my desk staring at the papers in my hand.I had to revise a bank statement that s3ood wrote and edit it, print it and get it to s3ood by......i stared at my watch....5ara....three hours bass !!! I turned on the computer and stared at the paper for a while msa6la....littereraly msa6la..!!

"ohh so wi9alich your paper work..." said jassim standing behind me, "yebay 5al ashoof..." he took the paper and started scanning them then he grinned, "allah y3eenich....3ad ma7a6och ella 3ind s3ood...hatha killish mayir7am..."

"shlon ya3ne..." i asked helplessly.

"y3ne kilshay lazim ykoon perfect !" he looked at my disheveled look and smiled, "5al asa3dich shwy kisartay 5a6re...." he set his work in the table and leaned over as he showed me what to do on the computer and how the work had to be done.

"mashkoooooor....7adik in8a'6...." i said as i started editing. I was too engrossed into the work with my phone on silent and the papers scattered all over my desk and didnt notice mariam comming, i just saw a cup of coffee on my desk. I looked up at mariam. "thank youuuu...." i said as i sipped the coffee.

"this is the first day...oo chethee....bsss matinlamain etha 7a6eenich ma3 s3ood....yuma y5ari3ny tara wallah...mayi'67ak y3ne shda3awa 3alai....elkil y5af minna ..actually they respect him wayid ...wallah agolich....la y5afoon minna..."

"i get your point..." i giggled.

"shkithir bigalich...." she said and looked at the computer.

"wallah mowayid....abaaai awal marra ashti'3il halkithir ib this amount of time...." i sighed.

"wallah 3ad ma3 s3ood espect the unexpected...yalla see you..." she said and went to her booth. I cracked my neck and resumed my work. At about 12pm, jassim passed by and told me that its the lunch break, although i wasnt really hungry but i needed energy since its all been wasted on this stupid paper work. I went with jassim to the first floor and headed over to starbucks, i ordered a muffin and sat on the table with a magazine in my hand. i can atleast enjoy this half an hour with celebrity gossip i guess....i giggled to myself.

"Hi...." came a high-pitched female voice. I looked up at shoug. I looked around, but she was talking to me.....weird.

"uhh hi...."

She grabbed a seat and sat down putting her tray on the table. i was too surprised to speak.

"3ady mo9a7..." she said after she sat down.

"ee...." b3d sheno y3ne...b3d mabasa6ay. i nibbled on my muffin silently.

"ana shoug....ham yideeda...9arly 1 week hnee..."

"ahhh...ana tawne elyoum..." She looked at me.

"entay.....uhhh ma3 s3ood mo9a7...." haha i was waiting for his name to be brought up. I nodded. "3ad kint abee a9eer weyaa...bsss yallah...." she said and ate her pannini and eyed me.

"fee shay..." i asked.

"uhh la bas shaklich 7ilo....iltop 7ada cute ma3 ilskirt..."

"ahh umm mashkoora..." uffff inshalla tgoom...this is really awkward. "ummm laish kintay tabeen t9eereen ma3 s3ood...?"

She seemed takenback by my bluntness but soon recovered and smiled, "laish matadreen...?"

I looked at her blankly."s3ood was my ex."

My eyes widened. She was his EX...oo she works in the same company that he works in oooo she wanted to be with him.....

"ahhh...."

"bas were still close...." she waved her hand, "actually really close....a7is he still has feelings for me bainy oo bainich...la2 i know he does...."

Sh'hal thi8a. Plus, shes telling me too much..ya3ne i dont know her. At that time s3ood came with his walk so manly and his face so arrogant and stood in line to get him a snack. Wallah zain nazzal roo7a oo 6ilab 7ag roo7a oo ma6arash a7ad. He took his order and when he passed me and shoug he raised flicked a glance at us, raised an eyebrow then continued walking and went back up..to his office i presume. His stern look sent shivers throughout my body and stood up,

"lazim aroo7 a5ali9 ilpaper work....." i said quickly and went up to my desk and continued working like crazy.

After a while when i revised everything i went to the printer room and took the papers, stapled them and put them neatly into a folder and headed up to the 4oth floor. I went up and looked for s3ood's room, when i reached it i entered and got in and the his secretary looked up at me.

"mar7aba ...an azain oo 3indy awrag 7ag s3ood...e7m..stath s3ood..." i corrected.

"ahhh da2ee2a shwy....." she called s3ood, "uhh staz s3ood...zain 3indha awra2 ellak...ahhh okay..." she shut the phone, "5ala9 ana bsalimloo yahon...."

"ahh okay,,," i smiled, handed her the papers and walked out with a weight being lifted from me. I walked to my office and sat with a smile on my face, my first work is done..completed. I checked my mobile and found two messages from 5alid.

5aloooooooooodii

sima3t enna fee 7ilwa ib sharikat *****...;p

rec. 11:03am

5aloooooooooodii

shlon ilsho'3ol...3ijabich ?

rec. 12:13pm

I smiled, i was about to answerhim when my phone on my table rang. I picked it up,

"aloo...zain...? "

"ee na3am..."

"ana rana secertairat stath s3ood...bass ezaa feeke tijee la2ano bedoo yaki...."

"ahh okay.." i shut the phone. I headed to the room and the secertary told me to head into s3ood's room. I knocked and entered, his room was of dark wood and there were two leather couches faceing eachother in the middle seperated by a table, then his office in the end. He looked up and motioned for me to sit down. I sat and adjusted my skirt...waiting for him to praise my hard work..being a new employee. He cleared his throat.

"uhhh...." he seemed to be looking for my name on the paper.

"zain..." i said.

"entay mi8tan3a billi ma36atnee yaa..." he said with the papers in his hand. I looked up and nodded hesitantly. "ah....bss hathaa mokamil..nagi9....tigdereen tgoleen enna killish mokamil...." he set the papers on the table. I looked at the papers my eyes fixed on them. He rubbed his head and said, "abeech t3edeena..."

"sheno...." i looked up.

"abeech t3edeena..." he answered, when i didnt respond he added, "lazim tbalsheen fee el7een 3alashan ta36eene yaa gabil nihayat ildawam...."

"bass ana mofahma shfee..." i looked up at him, hurt.

" ahh...."

"zain !" i said clipply.

"zain...hatha sho'3ol oo lazim ykoon 5alee mn il3yoob youm a8adma 7ag ilbank....oo hathaa..." he motioned for the papers, "hathaaa.....mashoof enna yi9la7 enne a8adma ya3ne..."

"wallah ana mashoof fee shay..." i cut him.

He raised an eye brow, "oo ana agoolich enna lazim t3eedeena.....5alay a7ad ysa3dich fee..."

I looked into his brown eyes and a lump formed in my throat, but i squared my shoulders and stood up oo madait eedi 3ashan ya36eene the papers.

"malhom da3ee...abeech t3eedeena killa...." His phone rang and he answered it, i was still standing and he looked up at me, "tigdireen tro7een...."

I raised my chin and turned around walking with long strides out of the room. But when i got into the elevator i sagged and dried my damp eyes. I went to my desk and started working on it all over again, mariam assisted me...so did jassim...and i was truly grateful. It was 3pm and i still didnt finish.

"yalla ana mashya...allah y3eenich 7abeebty..." said mariam and headed out. I was the only one left along with another employee. After i collected the papers from the printing room, i headed to s3ood's office. I entered and the secretary had already left, so i knocked on his door.

"tfa'6al..." i heard. I entered and walked to his desk.

"ilawraag..." i said as i handed him the papers. He scanned the papers, then set them on the table.

"okay..." he said.

Okay....OKAY ?!? i worked my ass off...oo i only get an "okay"......

I turned to leave,

"nshofich bacher..."

I forced a smile and headed out. I got into the car and dialled 5alids number,

"aloo...wainich 7ayate "

"tawne 6al3a mn ilsharika..."

"lail7een...laish.."

"lena my paper work mo3ajib stath s3ood 7a'6rita oo galee a3eeda..."

"hahaa hatha awal youm oo chethee.."

"ee shift shlon....offff 7adi ta3bana..."

"Ya7alatta wallah....yalla roo7ay ilbait..ta'3aday oo t7amimay oo i5theelich noma..."

"hmmm...shaklee im gonna skip everything o head straight to bed...for a nap...."

"hehe 3afya 3al sha6ra....yallah tabeen shay..."

"salamtik 7abeeby..." i shut the phone. I got home and saw my mom and dad in the 9ala. uhhh i have to look like i can handle everything to my dad, the sooner he thinks im capable of working the sooner i get to work at his company and away from s3ood.I straightened my shoulders and put a smile on my face,"hala...."

My father looked up, "haa shlon ilsho'3ol..."

"wallah zain....wanasa..mo shay magdar 3alai..." i said to him.

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*Mulish: stubborn

Luv u ;**

Gudnight;)))

Mulish (2)

2009-06-18T01:00:00.000+03:00

Luv u guys....;** oo missed u 6ab3an ;p

ENJOY ;))))

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Zain....

uhhhhhhh maleee8 !!!!!!

I stepped out of the elevator and headed to M7amad Al-Flani's office. He is incharge of the employees in general y3ne tawtheefhom oo firing them oo chethee...

I walked and passed by rows of booths with people too engrossed in their work to look up, i enterd a long corridors and read the names until i reached M7amad's office.

I knocked and entered, he looked at me and smiled.

"entay akeed zain...." he beamed at me and shook my hand.

"ee na3am....ya mar7aba feek...." He motioned for me to sit down and so i sat. He pulled out my file and started skimming through it, his bulky glasses were set at the edge of his nose and i couldnt help but smile at the sight of him. He looked up and smiled back,

"entay awal marra tishta'3lain mo hethee...." i nodded. "5ala9 ra7 awathfich oo a5aleech ma3 sho'3ol 5afeef 3ala awal shay daam inich yideda....oo lat5afeen fee ham thalatha hal sboo3 wa'6afnaahom faa tsa3doon ba3a'6...."

"ee ashwaa...hehe..." i laughed, "lena 9ara7attan ma3arif wala shay.."

"la lat5afeen oo ra7 a3ayin a7ad yishrif 3alaikom 6ab3an 3ashan ytabi3 ta8adomkom.....la7'6a bas 5al at2akad entay meno elle...." he pulled out a paper..."oo 7a'6ich 7ilo...entay ma3 ilthalath elle tawa mitwathfeen ...elle ra7 yishrif 3alaikom stath fawaz oo ohwa 9ayerla moda fee halsharika faa ay istifsaar tro7oon 3inda....."

"inshalla...."

"yallah 3ayal 5angom awadeech 3ind fawaz 3ashan y3arfich 3al sharika oo ham 3ala maktabich...."

"mashkoor....."

We headed out and one of the office booths in the middle stood a man who i suspected was fawaz. he smiled and b3d ma3arafna m7amad 3ala ba3a'6 he started right away with touring around the company.

"oo hnee '3orfat il ijtima3at....." he motioned. Outside of the glass i saw a long table with people sitting and a person presenting some sort of thing on the projector, among the people on the table was the arrogant s3ood that i met in the elevator earlier, i cringed. Fawaz looked at me and smiled, "mitwatra....?"

"uhhh laa y3ne...madry...." i giggled. We moved to the floor below where my office would be. The floor was surrounded by offices and in the middle were offices that were booths....y3ne maftoo7een 3ala ba3a'6. On the corner was an empty table, with a chair, computer and a few equipments in teh booth.

"hatha maktabich....oo ilprinting, scanning room 3al 6araf hnaak..." he motioned to a room at the corner. "etha tabeene ri39ay A34....hatha ra8am my booth foug...entay ra8mich B 27...." he smiled, "ay istifsaar shay...si2leene motisti7een...."

"akeed..." i said as i inspected my too plain office, thats not what i had in mind. I've got serious shopping to do 3ashan a3adil shakla shway...asawee ...ana.

"t3arifay 3ala ile mawjoodeen hnee 3alama ayeeblich your first papper work...."

"okay...." i turned around at the people around me, we were seperated by barriers. A girl looked up at me and came over.

"Hi...entay yideeda ba3ad..."

"eee..tawne mitwa'6faaa oo entay..."

"ana awal ams....." she smiled, "ana mariam..."

"oo ana zain..." i shook hands with her. She sat on my chair and crossed her skinny legs and pulled her black hair to her side and i leaned on my table.

"elle hnaak....shoug...yideeda ba3ad bs 7adha nafsiya..." i followed her gaze to the third booth across from mine, shoug looked up and then looked back at her computer. "tara ehya chethee wayid shayfaa roo7ha....yimkin lena t3arif ra2ees 8i9m iltaswee8 foug...."

"shkithir ya3ne..." i raised a brow with a grin.

"hehe....ana elle a3arfa...actually sima3ta...ena wayid...wayid...."

"ahaaaa....." i said still looking at shoug. She was cute...y3ne mrataba...madry....ufff....shako minha. "oo meno ilthaltha...."

"actually ilthalith....ohwa jassim...kaho hnaak...wayha baby face shwaya...."

"ee ya7laila yshawig...." he was cute...i mean he had manly features bss he was cute nonetheless. He looked up and came over.

"oohh entay il'6a7iya ilyideeda haa..." he flashed the cutest smile.

"eeee...i guess" i laughed.

"yabolich your "paper work"..."

"la2 lail7een...laish..."

"a7ib agoolich 6i7say....lena wayid ta3ab...." he said as he headed to the printing room.

"ya7laila..."

"eee....bainy oo bainich ohwa ilwa7eed elle akalma wayid elbajyeen maylagoom wahy oo shoug 5aleeha 3ala kitir....."

"allah y3eenna...." i said looking around.

" jassim his paper work ma3a stath na9er oo 7ada 3a9abi.....maskeen.....wla shay yi3jiba..."

"oo entay..."

"ana ma3 wa7da esimha salwa..i have to re-arrange and revise her work oo chethee...bas tshawig y3ne ahwan mn na9er..."

"oo hatheech..shoug..."

"ma3 na9er ba3ad...bs kanat tabee 3ind elle 5obry 5obrich..." she winked.

"ahhh 3ind hathaak ra2ees 8ism iltaswee8...." i answered, mariam nodded giggling.

Then rang my phone, i picked it up, "wanasa my first call......" i smiled to mariam, "alooo...hala stath fawaz....ee okay kani el7een a93ad...." i shut the phone, "yabeene a5ith my paper work..allah yister...." i smiled and walked to the elevator. I pressed 40 and when the elevator door opened wala i face.....s3ood. He grinned arrogantly at me,

"lail7een '6ai3a...." he said. I stepped out of the elevator and thank god that fawaz came over to me.

"zain..kaho your paper work...esim elle ra7 tsalmeena your work maktoob....." he smiled, he turned to s3ood who was watching with a bored look on his face, "hala s3ood...."

"hala...."

I looked at s3ood...sheno ma3inda '3air halkilma..."hala"....ifffff ma'3roor....

"ahh etha ma5aab '6ani a3ti8id ennich entay weyaa zain...."

"SHENO..." eyes widened. I looked at my paper and unfortunately it read s3ood Al-Flani. I squeezed my eyes shut, moma38oola im gonna have to deal with him....finish his work for him.....laaaaaa2..."magdar a'3ayir...." i pleaded to fawaz ignoring s3ood, "3ady a9eer ma3 salwa..."

"fawaz...ana shi'3lee wayid ooo mabee wa7da ma3indaha 5ibra..." said s3ood to fawaz. I should have been offended but i was in desperate need not to work for him...

Fawaz just shrugged, "asif bss magdar asawee shay......" and walked away. I stood there staring at my paper work, when the unexpected happened,

"ana s3ood Al-flani...." he said. I looked up, was he introducing himself to me.....ta6awir wallah.

"modeer 8i9m iltaswee8...."

"ana zain Al-flani..yideeda..umm oo bas....." i said. Then it hit me.....la7'6a did he just say...noo i must've heard wrong..."umm inta ra2ees 8ism sheno..."

"iltaswee8...." he repeated and sensed my discomfort. He was elle kanat tabee shoug tkoon weyaa..oo elle she's allegedly close with.....i sighed...allah y3eene 3alaiha ...i cast a look at s3ood...oo 3alaih..

He interrupted my thoughts, "abeech t5al9een ilawraag elle beedich elyoum.."

"na3am..?!" i looked at him surprised, "tawne ma3arf shay.....3a6ne wagt...."

He looked at his watch and pressed the elevator button, "elyoum....." he said and stepped into the elevator.

6a7saaaa....!!

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*Mulish: stubborn

Luv u ;****

Gudnight....;****

i know i know....

2009-06-16T16:09:00.001+03:00

Kaboot 9ayra mo5oush blogger halcham youm....

Lena

A) I'm not commenting back at ur comments bs I am reading each and everyone..:p
B) I'm not posting posts....

Bsss that's because

A) I'm busyyy
B) wayid ta3bana hal ayam (ga3da a3ayiz bsir3a)
C) INTERNETY M5ARIF !!!!! Jad y3ne enarfiz ma3wayha...I'm gonna
get it fixed oo inshalla ull get the same old closi back :D

A7ibkommmmmmmmm wayid :))))

P.S. Mishtahya cupcakes !!! Every kind...mn kilmokan !!
P.P.S. Shraykom ib the new story o:)
P.P.P.S. I'm gonna post an epilogue 3an noora oo 6alal :D
P^4.S. Mako shay bs 7abait asawee 7araktee ille p to the power ;p

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Mulish ( 1)

2009-06-15T00:01:00.002+03:00

Hope u like it...;p

Dedicated to Chanel....Happy B-day...;*****

ENJOY ;)))

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Zain......

I opened my eyes gabil mayrin ilalarm…..whoa !! that ought to be something !!

I hopped out of bed and hummed on my way to the bathroom. I took my morning shower, sashwart my long light brown and tied it into a sleek ponytail. I applied my makeup which was beige eyeshodow and mascara., rosy cheeks and a light pink lipstick. I pulled off my boxer and tanktop and wore my highwaisted beige skirt with a white top that had a bow near the neck. I put on my accessories, my black peep toe heels and grabbed my classic black chanel bag and stood infront of the mirror.

I have to look perfect..i have to !!!

I looked at my reflection and my smile disappeared.

Waaai3….china the bow kbeera ?….uffff…..oo china my makeup molayig….oo wai3 my dimple …u555 I hate it !!! Mo chena im overdressed…..?!??

I sat on the bed and staring at myself in the mirror. I was excited about my job that i picked out my outfit since yesterday oo i had every little detail planned of how to look for my first day over there....bsss thats not what i expected. I need somone to comfort me...to give me a push...ayshay !!

I picked the phone and dialled 5alids number.....

"Aloo..." Answered 5alids sleepy voice,

" wee sorry 7ayate ga3adtik..."

"La2...3ady....shfeech..."

"Shakle ylawi3 ilchabd ...." I complained.

"Entay..? Mosta7eel...."

"5alid mn9iji...!! Shaklee malee8....!!! Madry shasawee..."

"7abeebty....latfakreen wayid oo adry enich tyanineen..fa gommay oo twakilay.."

"Ehmm..."

"Oo ta3alay...its not like u want the job soo who cares..."

"Eee 9a7....waaaai thank u 7ayatee yalla nam....mwaaa"

I shut the phone and smiled. Me and 5alid have been together for two years, oo
I don't know what I would do without him. I took a deep breath and headed to my car. I hopped into the car and drove off to my job.

5alid was right…it's not like I really wanted the job but I had to prove to my dad that I am capable of working at his company and that I'm qualified. Two months ago when I graduated I went to my dad to hire me at his company but he refused. He told me that people over there would treat me differently since I'm his daughter and that way I'm not gonna learn anything. I have to get some experience from another place and then when HE thinks I'm able of working at his company he'll hire me. I admitt i am kindof spoiled but i really dont want him to think that im the kind of girl that relies on her dad on everything. So i agreed with what he said and here I am heading to my new job and I will prove to my dad that i am independent and I'm gonna show him how good I am.

With a smile on my face, I took a deep breath and entered the company. I went to the information.

"law sama7t…wain alagee m7amad Al-Flani…?"

"a5er 6abi8…."

"mashkoor…"

I entered the crowded elevator and pressed the last button which was "40". The elevator door was about to close then a masculine hand held it and stepped in. He was tall…I mean tall tall…adorned in his white dishdasha and '3itra, his features were sharp but he was boyishly handsome. He got in and stood infront of me…how rude I thought…but its not like he has another place to stand in. The people in the elevator greeted him,

"hala…9aba7 il5air….shlonik s3ood….." all sorts of greetings but standing in my postion I couldn’t see his facial expression all I could hear was his deep masculine voice saying

"hala hala….."

Waaai3…el7een ilmasakeen ga3deen ysalmoon 3alaik oo kil elle tigdar tgoola ohwa "hala hala…"

But he does smell good I have to admit…I stood there staring at his broad shoulders, not being able to see anything else from his figure. The elevator kept stopping at different floors and people kept getting out 'till only me and him were left.

Okay…el7een the elevator mafee a7ad…laish wagif jidami..y3ne wa5ir iffff….

I released an exasperated breath and I felt him jerk a little then turn at me in surprise. He studied me with his dark eyes with eyebrow raised. I just stared back at this man who seemed like he was so full of himself !

"'6ai3a…..?" he asked.

My eyes widened, "la2…" I retorted.

"wain ray7a 3ayal….?"

"ray7a…" then his phone rang and he picked it up and completely ignored me. I stood there looking at him shocked. How rude….9ij mayisti7i 3ala wayha…y3ne I was talking…!!!

I listened to him blabbering about madry ay saham….and I just stared at the screen waiting for us to reach the 40th floor. He shut his phone and looked at me,

"kintay tgooleen….?" He inquired.

"walashay…." I glared back and at that time the elevator door opened and I went out and I swore that I heard a chuckle.

Uhhhhhh Malee8….

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*Mulish = stubborn
Luv u ;*

Gudnight....;))))

My One and Only (EPILOGUE 2)

2009-06-13T23:19:00.000+03:00

Since i promised u guys another epilogoue....;p

Here is a day...ib their married life....;p

ENJOY....;))))

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Feras.........

Rija3t mn 3rs 6alal oo di5alt ilbait. Lulu kanat bil 9ala mjabla illaptop, shafatne oo ibtasmat.

"haaa shlon kan 3irs 6alal....."

"Wallah 7ilo.....allah ytamim 3alaihom..." i said as i took off the '3itra, oo gi3adt 3indaha.

Lulu nodded her head and looked back at her laptop. 7asait ib ta2neeb '6ameer....maskeena kanat tabe troo7, oo ehya wayid 3ila8at'ha 8awiya ma3 fara7 oo kanat tabee tkoon mawjooda....bss ana ma5alait'ha lena ildictor gal yabelaha ra7a..

oo 9ij y3ne gabil sbo3ain walda akeed lazimlaha ra7a......bss shakilha y3awer ilgalb, yarait law kint m5aleeha troo7 shwaya oo tirja3....

Gi'6abt eedha ib eedi, oo shafatne, "shfeek....?"

"ga3d afaker...."

"ib sheno...."

"law kint m5aleech tro7een il3irs....bas abeech t3arfeen inna 3ashanich oo 3ali gala ildictor ma5alaitich...."

She looked deep into my eyes and i saw humor in them, she looked down and her lips twitched.

"shfeech..." i was confused, that wasnt the reaction i was expecting.

"ummm...laaa bas mabeek t7is ibta2neeb '6amer....3ady wallah..."

"la2 ...y3ne ga3da bilbait akeed kan ib5a6rich ennich tro7een...."

She wanted to say something, hesitated then kissed my cheek. "ana...day5a banam...." she said as she got up.

"wain 3abood..."

"nayim 3ind ommi elyoum....mayabeena...hehe"

"oo lama...?"

"nayma bil'3orfa....el7een bachayik 3alaiha...." said lulu oo ra7at.

Ana gimt oo dashait ildar oo fi9a5t dishdashti wala ashoof ka3ab lulu 3al ar'6....ista'3rabt. Shesaweee hnee.....??Magdar agool enna 3abood m6al3a lena momawjood......
I raised an eyebrow. Ri7t 3ind il6awla oo fi9a5t sa3tee wala ashoof mikyaj lulu 3al 6awla mindithir....laish mikyajha 6ale3...etha 6ool elyoum bilbait...?!

I smiled to myself when realization hit me.....wallah oo sawaiteeha ya lulu...
I shook my head smiling.
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Lulu......

ra'6a3t lama oo di5alt il'3orfa oo feras kan 3al frash oo yifrik reela.....

"Shfeek....6i7t..?" i said as i rushed over to him. He looked at me,

"ta3archabt ib ka3abich 3al ar'6...."

I looked bihind me.....SHIT!!! nisait ada5il my heels.....! weee 3asa mayshik bas.....

"Weee......enzain wain y3awrik 7abeeby..." i said as i massaged his foot.

"Lulu....." he said and looked up at me.

"amir 7abeeby..." i gulped.

"3ady tyeebeenle telephone 7a6a 3al 6awla......"

"tamir amir....." i went up to the table and searched for his mobile, "mashoofa....." i saaid scanning teh table.

"dawree 3adil...yimkin ma5soosh bain ilmikyaj elle 3al 6awla....."

I froze and bit my lip.....he knows !! God...im so stupid !! Sharagi3 el7een....

"uhhh...maligaita..." i said and sat beside him again. He looked at me with a lopsided grin, i looked away hiding my blushing face.

"Lulu...."

"hmmm...." i said not meething his eyes.

"ana shgiltlich...."

I faced him, "Feras....wallah sorry bs i had to go....wallah mgdart ag3ad hnee oo maroo7.....oo kaa ma9aar feene shay...." i bit my lip, "sorry....."

He chuckled and gathered me into his arms, "shai6ana shasawee feech....."

I sighed with relief, "y3ne mom3a9ib 3alai..."i said against his chest.

"7atta law kint abee..magdar...."

I giggled and hid my face in the crook of his neck and fell asleep.
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Feras......

Gimt no9 illail wala lulu mo3indy, gimt oo ri7t '3orfat Lama wala lulu 7a6a lama ib 7i'6inha oo shes rocked her to sleep. Ri7t oo gi3adt yam lulu, she looked at me with her sleepy eyes and laid her head on my shoulder,"mora'6ya tnaam....."

"yebeeha....." i said as lulu handed lama to me, i held lama as she stared at me wide awake with her big brown eyes...the same ones as lulu's. I started stroking her face gently....o ba3ad modda 6oweela '3ami'6at 3yoonha. "namat...." smiled a triumph smile at lulu...and i found her asleep on the couch. 7a6ait lama ib her crib oo ri7t 7ag lulu. "lulu...." i whispered.
She opened her eyes and stared at me sleepily, "namat..?" i nodded my head, "thank you..." she said as we got up and went into our room. We got into bed, i wrapped my arms around her bss she didnt sleep.

"shfeech...."

"ta3bana...." her voice quivered o bichat. Ana madry shasawy.....laish ga3da tabche....?

"laish tabcheen..." i said as i smoothed her hair.

"moga3da anam...oo jisme ta3baan...magdar at7ammal...." and snuggled closer to me.

"tabeen ni6lib nurse nafs masawaina 7ag 3abood...?" i sujjested.

"kint abee ana halmarra a3timid 3ala roo7i....a7is roo7e omm fashla ma3rf asawee shay broo7e...."

"la2 mofashla wala 3abood ma6ila3 halmittin...." i mused. She looked up at me and smiled,

"inta shlon tizawajtne..."

"wallah yabaw shai5 oo giraa 3alaina oo....." i joked. She swatted my shoulder playfully as sgiggled,

"la2 min 9iji laish tizawajtny...."

"lenich maynoona...."

She looked at me, "maynoona...?"

"ee...oo miyantich hathee never fails to amuse me...."

SHe nodded her head and closed her eyes. After a while she asked, "feras....."

"hmmm...." i mumbled sleepily.

"shkithir ana maynoona...."

"wayid....."

"wayid..?"

"eee lenich tzawajteeny...." i said sleepily.

She kissed my forehead softly and then snuggled under my arm and slept.

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Luv u ;***

Gudnight ;)))

First love..!.

2009-06-12T05:23:00.003+03:00

I heard that its hard to forget ur first love no matter how hard u try....sowaa2
kan 7ob mn6araf wa7id aw mutual feelings....

It haunts u every now and then....weeks,months and years after....

Everything just comes back again..in a random day, random hour, random minute
It just rushes all back..every single word,feeling,moment,song u
shared comes back to you as if it were yesterday and not years ago...

And u would listen to the song u avoided all this time...
its unexplainable really....I wonder why....

I really do....

Hmmmmmmm.........

Then u snap back to reality and you carry on....leaving ur first love and its memories
Stored in the back of ur mind...waiting to be unleashed again...not knowing how
Long you'll have to wait before u go through it all over again....months..? Years...?

But it eventually comes back....it always comes back!

And it holds a place in your heart...no matter how small it is...its
there....

Am I right ?? ;p

I dedicate 5air inshalla -majeed to all u guys

Luv u ;*

P.S. Can't sleep :(

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Kaboot is SICK ;'((((

2009-06-11T17:30:00.003+03:00

I woke up today ......with my hair kisha and my blanket crumpled i sat up in my bed, happy that its a thursday.....

until.....

I swallowed....and OOUUUCCHHHH.....bala3eeemeeee y3awrooniiiiii....i swallowed again and again....not believing what is happening to me......ohhhhhh noooooo WHATS HAPPENING TO ME...?!!!??? i tried to take in a deep breath to calm myself down and NOOOOOOOOOOO.....i cant breath...manshoola !!!!!

This cant be happening....i got up to let the entire household aware of what has happened to me.....when i opened my mouth.......nothing.......i mean NOTHING came out.....

Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.......;'(((( I dont get sick.......i never get sick........actually i do..bssss 7attan law......why am i sick !!

you know the stages of death....well, i made it the stages of Kaboot being sick !!

-Denial---"meee sick....nooo nooo this cant be happening....."

-Anger---"laish ana maree'6a..!!!! Mal ayeeb 8onbila oo afajir hal virus hathaaaa...."

-Bargaining---"okay........im.....sick.....but can i at least get my voice back...."**puppy eyes**

-Depression--- "the bargaining bit was a waste of time.....5ala9 okay...masheee...."**kaboot gets up and gulps some panadol pills, gets nasal drops oo a box of tissue yamha ..and sits on bed depressed....

-Acceptance---hmmmm....daam inna im sick oo shakle mi2saa....i guess i'll pick a movie to watch today and tell my cuz to come over.......all three parts of Pirates of the Caribbean 5osh fikra wallah.....;D oo wansaaaa....

Ygoloonle lazimly el7een warm liquids oo matkallam wayid oo chethee for my voice ya3ne.....

I took a mini white board from my little brother oo a marker.....this is my way of talking...oo for the warm liquids.....EMBRACE the soup, coffee, chai 7aleeb, hot chocolate......and many many more...;p

P.S. kaboot is diagnosed with a mild case of flue.....;p

Luv uuuu ;******

Randomssssss....;p

2009-06-10T15:32:00.001+03:00

-Nimt at 2am ams oo gmt at 4:30am :( libast training ,sha3ri kisha oo ri7t ilma6ar 7ag my bro lena he studies barra oo byirja3 for vacation.....6ab3an i dont have to go..bs im a good sister ;p plus i miss him....;))) ri7t oo fashalt
3omre lena kan fee nas hnaak..apparently fee wayid 6alaba radeen oo their friends,families hnaak...shakle kan filim shlon day5a....bsss it was worth it when I saw the surprised face of my bro when he saw me :D

-e7m awal ams....'3azalny hindy ;p ee na3am...oo sheno galeee......????? mar yami oo gal in his indian accent "mashalaaa"....ana i was so shocked 3ala jir2ita that i laughed......**kaboot hides her face mista7ya** i7taraitaw haa ;p

-7ag ilppl who think im noora....7ada la2...!! looool law kint ehya chan minziman minta7ra hehe.....;p lol...oo chan 9ar feene 6af 3ala 6alal minzimaaaaaaaaan......7di momal halsowalif....5aleene ib 3alami il5aa9 a7sanle....;p

-il'3baar hatha ashoof stanis kilyoumain oo thalath yaylina....yuba latistanas manabeeek !!!! roo7 wad '3abritik 7ag '3airna ....

-so im on a diet...oo ams 6ag ib rasi akil this really greasy burger matroosa mayonaise oo cheese oo french friez oo coke bariddddd.......;) bsss i didnt eat it .......sheno..? taboon t3arfoon laish....? haw shfeekom gitlokom im on a diet....;p

- I was tanning with two of my friends ib our pool barra blbait oo after tanning when we got in wala my dad was shocked oo gal , "meno yitshamas bil7ar...?".....come again ? babaaa to get a tan..lazim shams...oo etha fee shams akeed 7ar looool ;p yshawig

-Ommi mo5ariba.....el7een im on a diet lais tyeene wetgoleenle, "kaboot tro7een chocolate bar....?" oo 9ar feene "la2 mama....rijeem...." oo 9ar feeha "3ady 3indohom sala6at....."
okay.....so tabeen kaboot (sweet,cake,chocolate etc...addict ;p) troo7 chocolate bar oo ti6lib sala6a..?! hahaha......5oush nikta wallah....;p wala a5er marra 6ila3na breakfast johnny gabil cham youm....oo she was like "bajarib ilmilkshake malhom...." oo 9ar feene elle.. y3ne 3omorha mashrabat milkshakehom shma3na el7een......haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa your not helpingggggg ......... P.S. ommi cool mo9a7 ;

-a7ib raggi ;D

-My not- so- young-younger bro thaak ilyoum oo sakkar iltv 3alai oo 6ila3 with a grin on his face....oo i was like wtf ?!!?!?!?!? tit7arash haaaa...okay....;p ri7t his room youm kan 6ali3 oo i hid the remote mal his tv....thakiya moo...? NOT...lena youm ilthany wala aktishif enna my remote mal my tv momawjood......hmmmmmmn okay.....a3lant il7arb yanaaas.....;p

- ga3da a7i6 7ag my nanny "aint no sunshine when shes gone" kil matmor yami..msayvita ib my phone....lena bitsafer after 9 years 3indina faa im bribing her to stay.....STAAAAAAY CINITAAAAAAAA......;p meno ysaweele your famous cupcakes b3dain ..........;'(

-ooo yaaa hehe kint biljam3iya okay....oo i held a pack of "extra" gum in my hand elpack fee 24 minni packs of gum... lene i need it 3ashan makil, oo to help me focus etc.......elmohim faaa i was holding it oo ham ga3da ashoof shwayat kakaw oo ildam3a b3aini killa mn halstupid diet...wala eyeene walad oo galee "sheno fe sale 3ala il3ilch....".......waaaaaaaaaaaaaaai3 mali8nyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.........

- I'm thinking of the new story...bs I'm still sorting it out..I'm still thinking about the characters btw;p

anyhooo baseee garga....;p

luv u ;**

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Is it love..? (EPILOGUE)

2009-06-09T16:13:00.001+03:00

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2 WEEKS LATER....

Noora.....

Fara7 dashat il'3orfa ille bil 9ala....laughing hysterically in her peach dress with her light brown hair madeup into waves flowing freely.

"abaaaai t3archabt TWICE !!! fashlaaa....."

"hehe 9aida lenich....." i said as i adjusted my dress, "abaaai 5ayfa....7adiiiiiii......6a3 shlon im shivering..." i showed my hands to fara7.

"lat7ateen as long as you dont fall on your face everyhing will be fine..." she flashed me a smile."9ara7attan injaaz inna you got a dress oo we put all this wedding together ib isbo3ain....."

"eeee 7adaa....ana oo 6alal makan hamnaa wayid bss 5alti om6alal lazimat...ellla 3irs !!" i giggled.

Im ecstatic...these past weeks were like heaven!!! kil youm 6alal eyeee 3indi oo ni6la3 oo we fool around bss we also sneak a few kisses without anyone noticing hehe. After the day in the hospital, 6alal went straight up and ongratulated everyone as well as surprised them inna hes here. Hehe awal mashafo it was like they saw a ghost bss feras grinned widely at him and at me as well. Lulu yannat youm 3rifat, mo chena tawa she gave birth oo she insisted inna betyee ilwedding despite 7annat feras enna she needs rest...oo fara7 told me inna she is here...she always gets around with her ways. I remember it was 5 am when me, fara7, and 6alal got home.....i already told my mom that i would be spending the night over at fara7's....fa mobas kan wanasa. We spent the late hours fa9leen together oo 7adna mistanseen...fara mom9adga enne ba9eer mort o5ooha, 6alal mom9adig enna bnitzawaj..oo ana mom9adga enna kil hatha ga3d y9eer. Youm fara7 kanat troo7 il'3orfa aw 6alal e6arish'ha mokan ..he would grab me and kiss me sencelessly and fara7 would return seeing my face flushed oo my eyes dazed..and say "waaaai3..." and hide her face. As soon as 6alals parents woke up he shocked them ibwojooda oo broke the news enna he wants to marry me. 6ab3an 5ale baraklina oo mistanis ya7laila bss 5alti irtifa3 '6a86haa oo tabchee 3ala ti'67ak mora'6ya t9adig....a9lan tawamsaa3 shafatne oo lail7een mom9adga hehe.

"meta 6ayaratkom bacher..." asked fara7 as she adjusted her makeup.

"ummm ilfayer...bs madry sa3a cham....abaaai im gonna miss you..." my eyes teared up.

"laa laaaa mako bache...yi5tirib your makeup..."

"enzain '6a7keene" i said as i fanned my face.

"uhhhh ee....tadreen enna lulu min7asha oo yaya il3irs..feras mayadry maskeen..."

"hehe haw laish..."

"lena ildictor ygool she needs rest...bs lulu maynoona oo yat b3dain betroo7 gabil ma elriyayeel eyoon...."

I laughed 3al shakil lulu, she is crazy allah y3een feras 3alaiha. Just then, wala 5alti tdish....oo she smiles at me.

"yalla noora 7beebte b3d shwy lazim tinzeleen....okay..."

"inshalla" i answered shyly.

"fara7 intay 3adlay nafnoof noora youm tamshee okay...." she said as she headed out.

"ookaaayy..."

I looked at the mirror, the dress was off-white, strapless, with a lower back cut that hid nothing of my back. The dress was fairly simple, and was tight at the right places, oo the 6ar7a is long oo its dante'l with pink roses encrusted at the end...the 6ar7a really brought out the dress. My make-up is simple too y3ne beige eyesahdow, thick black eyeliner, tons of mascara oo shwaya fake lshes, oo a pink lipstich nafs lon the flowers 3al 6ar7a oo mskeiti. Myblack hair was swept up into a bun at the nape of my neck with soft tendrils highlighting my face oo the 6ar7a, ofcourse attached to it.

"moo chena ildal3a wayid nazlaa ....asti7y..."

"chub you cleavage so be proud of them..." winked fara7.

"ahhhh....fee nas wayid barra...."

"eeee wayid...loya barra wallah...."

"yalla yalla....."my cousin popped her head in,"el7een da5litich...."

"ahhhh abaaaai......" clapped fara7 enthusiastically.

I walked nervously and stood infront of the door, as i heard the my cousin at my side saying prayers, fara7 tnakitly, my oldest 5ala madry shit5arbi6 3ala ilmo9awira.....bsss they all quieted when the doors were open oo my song played as i took a step forward. Goosebumps raked my whole body as i walked step by step carefully so i dont fall. The people were eyeing my dress, face, kilshay.....bs i just smiled waiting for 6alal to come. I reached the kosha and i sat down as the girls took the dance loor and started dancing. I spotted lulu get up and dance, and feras's mom shaking her head helplessly. I smiled and felt like nothing could get any better.....although i really wanted to dance 3ala cham '3niya bss shinsawee b3d.

Fara7 came from afar, up to me, "6alal yaaay 6alal bil6eeeeeeeej !!!!!" she squeeled.

"7ilfay.,,,,!!!" it was about time.

"ee wanasa.....tabeen shay..."

"eee mirror please...." i said nervously.

After the women put on their 7jabs oo chethee for those who need it, we heard a9waat elriyayeel barra elbab oo i shivered excitedly. 5alti looked at me and gave me a reassuring smile, my mom minawal il3rs oo ehya tabche, oo fara7 ib 3alamha il5aa9 mishta6a.

The door opened oo "ya m3arees" played as my man walked through the door. Although from afar bsss he was handsome, his dishdasha oo ilbisht, il'3itra ......his well groomed face....his dazzling smile....uhh i love him. I couldnt shut my mouth...i was smiling like crazy....

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6alal......

tba6al il bab a5eeran oo i took a step. I squinted my eyes and saw noora standing from afar. Shakilha mn b3eed eyanin allah y3eeny youm agarib. Wagfa oo ilibtisama 3ala wayiha......ana laish ni6art kil hal moda 3ashan atzawajha?! 7asait enne wayid ga3d a6awl oo abee aw9alaha bsir3a oo ma7asait enna saree3 illa youm sift noora ga3da ti'67ak oo fara7 t2ashirlee ene aba6i2. mishait shwy shwy oo we9altlah a5eeran. shakilha kan wayid 7ilo, oo shlon nafnoof'ha kan m6ali3 jisimha made me wonder shlon awal marra ala7i'6 enna mowayid th3eefa bl3ks jisimha 7ilo....oo 7asait ib'3eera ena abee ilriyayeel y6il3oon bser3a 7atta law kanaw y9eeroonlaha..mabeehom yshofoonha.

ollaaaa shda3waa hal '3eera 6alal...?!

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Noora.....

6alal took a step, avtually la2, he was walking....faster and faster. looooool what is he doing...!?

fara7 looked at him and motioned for him to slow down, he stopped looked shwy behind and realized enna 9ibag ilriyayeel .....i was about to burst out laughing on the kosha he was sooo cute!!! He looked at me and laughed as he walked...slowly this time to me. He looked at me as he got closer with admiration oo is eyes looked at me chena i was naked wala shay.....my cheeks burned at the way he was looking at me.

"mabrook...." he whispered to me as he kissed my head. Then came the men and congratulated us, after that me and 6alal were on the kosha alone staring at he people. He held my hand in his, i looked up at him and smiled shyly, "abee abosich..."

"hehe shna6ir..." i joked.

"t'hagain bela7'6oon..." he gazed into my eyes.

"madry...enjarib oo nshoof...." i smiled back. His head inched toward me...abaaai hatha min 9ija !!

"6alal...min9ijik !!" i looked at him.

"haha at'3ashmar ya 7ilwa entay..." he grinned devilishly.

The wedding was finally over oo zafona to the hotel where we will spend a night oo the next day nkoon were off to america. I entered the room and i was shivering, ilwa'63 y5ari3 shwy.

6alal closed the door and came in with a smile on his face as he took his bisht off, and the '3itra oo 3gal. I smiled back nervously.

"emmm sa3a cham bacher nroo7 ilma6ar...?" i asked innocently.

"sa3a 10 nroo7 ilma6ar....." he said and shrugged off his dishdasha.

"ahhh...." i said trying so hard not to notice how hot he looked and i turned around. Abaaaai fashlaaa....shasawy...?! i shivered again.

"bardana..." whispered 6alal to me as he wrapped his arms around me and i noticed that he had no t-shirt on, i squeezed my eyes shut. "hehe noora...ana raylich latiste7een...."

"magdar...." i smiled, "7adi mitwatra...."

"laish..." grinned 6alal., "shasawee 3ashan matitwaterain...."

"uhh distract me....."

He smiled widely at me , "okay......" and distraction he did.....all night.

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6alal.....

Gimt mn ilnom sa3a 6 ilma'3arb, iltifat wala noora lail7een nayma....shakilha baree2 wehya nayma...gimt 5athait shower oo libast. 6ila3t barra oo ri7tlaha 3ashan aga3idha...

"noora....nooora 7beebty goomay...." giltlaha oo ana al3ab ib sha3arha.

"mmm...." she mumbled oo turned to the other side.

"noora.....yalla goomay sa3a 6:30...."

"maby...." she said softly.

I smiled 3ala shakilha chena yahil, "okay a36eech no9 sa3a okay...."

She nodded her head, "sa3a...."

I looked at her and raised an eyebrow, "la2 no9 sa3a....." i smiled. Gimt oo 6ilabt room service, oo laman wi9al , ri7t 3ind noora.....

"yalla basich nom....noora goomay malait...." She covered her head with the blanket. "Mako fayda feech...okay...." oo dalda'3t'ha, she squirmed.

"abaaai....6alal...laaaa2....hehehehhe...." shilt the blanket oo bist'ha.

"yalla 3ashan nakil....."

"okay....."

oo la7a'6 enha lail7een tisti7y oo ehya ti6la3 mn ilfrash...i smiled oo i pretended inna im focused on the food as she came over. B3d illunch/3asha tijahazna .....kanat tsawee sha3arha jidam ilman'6ara oo ana wagif oo ashoofha, she looked at me and smiled

"shfeek....?"

"a7ibich....."

"6alaaaal....." she teared up, "oo ana ba3ad...."

"ta3alay...." i pulled her to me oo bist'ha. A7ib shlon awal shay tisti7y bs as the kiss goes on she kisses me back oo ila9waat ille tsaweeha e6ayir 3agle. I pulled away, "ba3ad...?" i looked into her dazed eyes, and kissed her one fleeting kiss, "ba3ad....?" i teased her. She blushed oo nazilat ras'ha oo i knew the answer oo i kissed her again and again...mogadir awgaf. I lowered her onto the bed and kissed her face everywhere as she moaned....wala yrin telephone.....i ignored it oo kamalt...bs ehya chan tgoole

"6alal.....b-bas....ta2a5arna...." i looked at the clock oo it was 9:45pm offf lazim ni6la3 il7een....

i got up, and she got up too and smoothed her dress and fixed her hair again.

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Noora.....

I honestly didnt want him to stop, bsss we are running late....

We headed out and when we arrived at the airport wala our families were there. We said our goodbyes and entered the duty free.

"shetdawreen....?" asked 6alal.

"kakaw...."

"ay nou3...."

"mmm madry....maltesers...yimkin...aw snickers....wala agolik kitkat...."

He looked at me adn smiled, "laish mata5theen hatha oo tfikeen 3omrich." he grabbed a bag of mixed chocolates.

"hehe smart....." We paid for it oo we sat on the chairs as i ate my chocolates.

flight xec456 heading to heathrow..please proceed to gate...

"yalla 7beebty.... " he held my hand as we got into the gate, then the plane....we settled down ...moments later the plane took off."noora 6al3ay ilcamera mn jan6itich...."

"ay camera....?"

"camerty..."

"meta 7a6ait'ha ib jan6ity....hehe" i smiled as he wiggled his eyebrows at me.

6alal showed me the pictures of our place for the next 4 years in the states. I leaned on his shoulder and looked at the pictures, i cant wait.

"3ijabich ilmokan...."

"daam inne weyak aymokan 7ilo...." i kissed his cheek. He looked into my eyes admiringly, "shfeek..."

"laish tawne atzawijich...."

"madry...." i smiled.

"9ij kint athwal...."

"tawik tadre..." i joked and laid my head on his shoulder as i stared at the sun rise outside the window.

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6alal......

Namat noora oo '3a6ait'ha. kilshay kan perfect ....maa3 noora nayma 3alai oo eedi 7awalainha....oo rayi7 akamil dirasty barra....ana ooo noora broo7na...i smiled wickedly as thoughts raced through my mind.

Bist ras noora...oo shift il orange, red, pink, oo ilyellow....alwan il sunrise barra il window.

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